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zyn
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My t says OMG. Hilarious.
"If knew what I thought I wouldn't need to make anything."
"Work is a fight against loneliness, against low self esteem, against depression, and against staying in bed. Sometimes my self esteem is so low that I cannot reach it even when I'm feeling down." - Martin Creed
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"Work is a fight against loneliness, against low self esteem, against depression, and against staying in bed. Sometimes my self esteem is so low that I cannot reach it even when I'm feeling down." - Martin Creed
Last SI: 23rd April 2013
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mande
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I've never been so happy.
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stripysocks4christ
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i'm scared. i know i've made progress in my recovery, but i'm scared of where i'm headed.. idk anymore.. please.. i want you to help me.
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"
"Let Go and Let God"
"God will never let us fall without a plan on how to save us"
"For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" – Philippians 4:13
"I only lied so I didn't have to see the tears of disappointment in your eyes"
"I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand..."
xx Kitti xx
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zyn
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I am stupidly happy this is my 2000th post.
I wish you wouldn't do that.
I wish you wouldn't do that.
"If knew what I thought I wouldn't need to make anything."
"Work is a fight against loneliness, against low self esteem, against depression, and against staying in bed. Sometimes my self esteem is so low that I cannot reach it even when I'm feeling down." - Martin Creed
SI free since 1st January 2012
Last SI: 23rd April 2013
"Work is a fight against loneliness, against low self esteem, against depression, and against staying in bed. Sometimes my self esteem is so low that I cannot reach it even when I'm feeling down." - Martin Creed
Last SI: 23rd April 2013
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elizabethpoe31
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One of the few reasons I like my birthday is because I feel special when people write happy birthday on my facebook wall. Even if I haven't spoken to them in years. And then I just want to cry, because I don't deserve their time.
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zyn
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I don't want to be better. I don't understand my t. I think he hates me.
"If knew what I thought I wouldn't need to make anything."
"Work is a fight against loneliness, against low self esteem, against depression, and against staying in bed. Sometimes my self esteem is so low that I cannot reach it even when I'm feeling down." - Martin Creed
SI free since 1st January 2012
Last SI: 23rd April 2013
"Work is a fight against loneliness, against low self esteem, against depression, and against staying in bed. Sometimes my self esteem is so low that I cannot reach it even when I'm feeling down." - Martin Creed
Last SI: 23rd April 2013
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I'm really worried your Dad won't be okay.. but more than that, I'm worried what the implications of that would be, and I'm scared it means I'm selfish.
♥ "You're not a bad person. You're a very good person, who bad things have happened to. Besides, the world isn't split into good people and Death Eaters. We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are." ♥
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♥ "I lit up like a Christmas tree, Hazel Grace." ♥
♥ "Things haven't always been this bad, therefore, things won't always be this bad." ♥
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zyn
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It's my fault you've gone to see a counsellor
"If knew what I thought I wouldn't need to make anything."
"Work is a fight against loneliness, against low self esteem, against depression, and against staying in bed. Sometimes my self esteem is so low that I cannot reach it even when I'm feeling down." - Martin Creed
SI free since 1st January 2012
Last SI: 23rd April 2013
"Work is a fight against loneliness, against low self esteem, against depression, and against staying in bed. Sometimes my self esteem is so low that I cannot reach it even when I'm feeling down." - Martin Creed
Last SI: 23rd April 2013
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zyn
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I can hear you telling all these awful things. I don't think I'm meant to hear this. But can't.
"If knew what I thought I wouldn't need to make anything."
"Work is a fight against loneliness, against low self esteem, against depression, and against staying in bed. Sometimes my self esteem is so low that I cannot reach it even when I'm feeling down." - Martin Creed
SI free since 1st January 2012
Last SI: 23rd April 2013
"Work is a fight against loneliness, against low self esteem, against depression, and against staying in bed. Sometimes my self esteem is so low that I cannot reach it even when I'm feeling down." - Martin Creed
Last SI: 23rd April 2013
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strider 151
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the memories of you and what we did still haunt me, and each time i hear your name its like a stabbing wound in my chest. not because i miss you, but because im remembering everything you ever did to hurt me. im paying for your downfall.
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok 
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery]
*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery] *I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
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I need to find something that gives me meaning. Because I'm sinking quickly.
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RG
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I feel like a freak. I feel that I shouldnt have to deal with this anymore. I am ashamed of how I feel and how much I have reached out to people
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You hurt me so much all those years ago ... but even now .. to see you struggling or hurting .. it breaks my heart a little ... I hate feeling so defensive of you...
Hold Fast To Your Dreams, For If Dreams Die, Life Is a Broken Winged Bird, That Cannot Fly If you think outside the box there's no such thing as square one.
No matter which sleeve you wear your heart,
Whichever way you wear your crown,
Tomorrow is another day to turn it all around
I will stop when I'm ready I'll shown everyone my cards
But for now I'll keep on playing even when the game gets hard.
19/07/1952 - 30/12/2013 Never Ever Forgotten 13/05/14 - I Love Her
19/4/15 - The Day I Said Yes
17/06/17 - Rings swapped, Hearts interlocked
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It really upsets me that no one needs me.
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zyn
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I get off thinking about people with authority over me.
"If knew what I thought I wouldn't need to make anything."
"Work is a fight against loneliness, against low self esteem, against depression, and against staying in bed. Sometimes my self esteem is so low that I cannot reach it even when I'm feeling down." - Martin Creed
SI free since 1st January 2012
Last SI: 23rd April 2013
"Work is a fight against loneliness, against low self esteem, against depression, and against staying in bed. Sometimes my self esteem is so low that I cannot reach it even when I'm feeling down." - Martin Creed
Last SI: 23rd April 2013
Re: Secrets Thread - Read first post!
I wanna talk ... I wanna help ... But there are so many walls and boundries between us now ... I don't know if i'm any use to you ...
Hold Fast To Your Dreams, For If Dreams Die, Life Is a Broken Winged Bird, That Cannot Fly If you think outside the box there's no such thing as square one.
No matter which sleeve you wear your heart,
Whichever way you wear your crown,
Tomorrow is another day to turn it all around
I will stop when I'm ready I'll shown everyone my cards
But for now I'll keep on playing even when the game gets hard.
19/07/1952 - 30/12/2013 Never Ever Forgotten 13/05/14 - I Love Her
19/4/15 - The Day I Said Yes
17/06/17 - Rings swapped, Hearts interlocked
<-- Marlo & Mookau--> Caffiene Addict since 2004Re: Secrets Thread - Read first post!
I am definitely manipulating you. I don't always realise I'm doing it. Sometimes I do.
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stripysocks4christ
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im not coping with all this... :'(
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"
"Let Go and Let God"
"God will never let us fall without a plan on how to save us"
"For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" – Philippians 4:13
"I only lied so I didn't have to see the tears of disappointment in your eyes"
"I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand..."
xx Kitti xx
my place
my poems
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xPeggiePatchx
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Part of me secretly wouldn't mind if I were with child..
If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy I could've won.
It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live.
Must I be content with discontent...I cannot bite the day to the core.
To die would be an awfully big adventure
And how can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Darkness can only be scattered by light, hatred can only be conquered by love.
Awareness is the enemy of sanity, for once you hear the screaming, it never stops.
Writers aren't exactly people...they're a whole bunch of people trying to be one person.
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