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strider 151 · Post by **strider 151** » Sat Jun 11, 2011 3:31 pm

sometimes i want you to kill yourself. sometimes i dont feel guilty after wishing that.

a7xcncangel · Post by **a7xcncangel** » Wed Jun 22, 2011 4:37 am

I like working a lot so I can spend the least amount of time possible with my parents and save up money so hopefully I'll be able to move out within the next year or two.

I purposely cancelled my week off work so I don't have to go on vacation with my parents. Working is less stress than being stuck with my parents for a week.

I'm thinking about buying some alcohol so I can drink the week my parents are gone.

The only reason I'm not toking up is because of the possibility of my parents drug testing me.

I'm counting the days until I'm back at school and away from my parents

I feel so trapped and powerless being home. I sometimes feel resentment toward my parents and I don't know why.

I think my female boss is hot.

I think I'm genderqueer.

I'm worried that some of this gender questioning is from having too many transgendered friends and hearing all of their stories.

I think I've gotten two viruses this summer from browsing porn

My sex drive is weird. I hate actual sex/sexual activities, but I sometimes really like porn.

I had a three way with my ex-best friend's older sister and her boyfriend.

I looked through each page of this thread and read all my old secrets posts.

I've been really tempted to either lie and get perscribed xaxax or steal some from my grandpa because I like the way it makes me feel

I've bought two packs of cigarettes since I've been home and only plan on quitting for the summer.

I slipped up on smoking weed too. I almost passed out from smoking so much and ended up throwing up. Then 20 minutes later, I drove 7 miles back to my house while completely blitzed. I don't even remember getting home at all.

I feel like it's a matter of when, not if, I fuck up.

I feel like a disappointment to my parents compared to my brother.

strider 151 · Post by **strider 151** » Wed Jun 22, 2011 9:38 am

if he comes near me im scared of what he will do/say because i dont know what hes capable of

and i cant promise that i wont try to punch/slap/physically hurt him in some way

hes had a huge effect on my mental health, i see him everywhere and think hes following me around, im scared he will break into my house and physically harm me. i'm scared to go out the house to rthe point were i try to avoid walking anywere

if this continues im scared it might get worse to the point were i cant leave the house and i dont know what to do

i really need help

a7xcncangel · Post by **a7xcncangel** » Mon Jun 27, 2011 6:16 am

I really like this guy I met at a grad party tonight. He's really rough around the edges though and my parents would kill me if they knew I was hanging out with a 17 year old guy who's a stoner, been on probation and house arrest, and a real partier. I think I like hanging out with popular HS guys because I was so unpopular in HS.

I tried really hard to get weed and/or alcohol tonight. I'm thankful and bummed that nothing came through.

I might smoke on Wednesday night before seeing the 4th of July fireworks. I really shouldn't because I can be drug tested anytime by my parents and the consequences are huge if I get caught.

I'm so fucking sick of summer and am ready to go back to school.

I'm listening to stoner music right now wishing I was blazed.

I have no clue where I'm living this fall. As of now it's with two transguys which I'm totally cool with, but my parents are flipping a shit.

I'm really scared I'm gonna fuck up this summer.

Beasty · Post by **Beasty** » Mon Jun 27, 2011 4:55 pm

I did cry, but it wasn't for that reason. It was something else entirely.

Annybelly · Post by **Annybelly** » Mon Jun 27, 2011 6:21 pm

I really, really fancy you. I really want you to mentor us next year too, come back for silver. I love it when you post things like that on my wall, because they're totally true, just not in the context quoted. And you've got a girlfriend *sigh*

capricorn · Post by **capricorn** » Mon Jun 27, 2011 11:33 pm

I dream about my ex girlfriend/best friend a lot. And I wish I didn't.
I just. Wish I remembered everything.
And wish I could forget what I remember.
I will never be able to explain how much it fucked with my head.

Beasty · Post by **Beasty** » Fri Jul 01, 2011 1:06 am

I don't think about you often. I'm glad you're gone. I just don't care.

strider 151 · Post by **strider 151** » Sat Jul 02, 2011 2:41 pm

i've lost all feeling for you except hatred and annoyance. sometimes i wish you would stop making a big deal out of it and just get it over with. sometimes i want you dead. I am scared that i no longer care if you kill yourself

stripysocks4christ · Post by **stripysocks4christ** » Sun Jul 03, 2011 8:37 pm

i dont know if i want this anymore, and it scares me.. cos i shouldnt be feeling like this.. but i do.

capricorn · Post by **capricorn** » Mon Jul 04, 2011 12:22 pm

Sometimes I think, if only it had been more ...
Because then at least I would have a reason for feeling this way.

strider 151 · Post by **strider 151** » Thu Jul 07, 2011 8:48 am

I'm now talking to a guy called T, we swapped numbers last night

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Thu Jul 07, 2011 12:54 pm

I've been driving recklessly when I'm alone and sad.

zyn · Post by **zyn** » Sat Jul 09, 2011 9:43 am

I can't let go. I can just remember. And it hurts.

xPeggiePatchx · Post by **xPeggiePatchx** » Sat Jul 09, 2011 2:07 pm

I miss you more than I can ever allow myself to admit to anyone.

meloy23 · Post by **meloy23** » Sun Jul 10, 2011 6:41 am

I think i was sexually assaulted, and you try to make me feel ashamed about it. I was hypomanic, 16, a doormat, and he got me drunk/stoned. fuck you.

volta · Post by **volta** » Mon Jul 11, 2011 2:38 am

i wish i was young enough to have someone sit with me while i sip gatorade and nibble on saltine crackers. i hate being sick, but apparently, at twenty-one i should be old enough to handle a stomach flu on my own.
more than that, i wish my friend v would drive over to sit with me. i miss him terribly, and i like to think he'd make me feel better.

jadestarwalking · Post by **jadestarwalking** » Tue Jul 12, 2011 12:40 am

I wish it was me who died not my mom, because she has a lot more going for her then I ever did, and I wouldn't have to put up with the thoughts from *HIM*

munchalot11 · Post by **munchalot11** » Wed Jul 13, 2011 5:54 pm

I don't think I can do this anymore

I want to give up...

part of me already has

Beasty · Post by **Beasty** » Thu Jul 14, 2011 6:20 pm

I was attracted to her last night.

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