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Post by strider 151 » Mon Feb 07, 2011 6:30 pm

im feeling so worthless right now, and i dont feel like i can trust anyone anymore.
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Post by Chey » Mon Feb 07, 2011 7:46 pm

I am starting to feel like I can't trust anyone again.


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Post by DuchessN » Fri Feb 11, 2011 2:18 am

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Post by xXelmoscaresmeXx » Fri Feb 11, 2011 10:45 pm

i started purging again.
i started again 'cause i fucked up with P and managed to make shit awkward again.
i deserve this.
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Post by Annybelly » Sun Feb 13, 2011 5:23 pm

I did say that.
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Post by strmdncr » Mon Feb 14, 2011 5:51 am

I'm worried that this could bring things up again. I also disagree based on the way you are celebrating that there are as many changes as you believe.
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Post by Stawberry_Lollipops » Mon Feb 14, 2011 4:48 pm

I think I am bisexual and I think I'm actually okay with it.
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Post by a7xcncangel » Wed Feb 16, 2011 1:15 am

:lgrnstar: I slipped up two nights ago
:lblstar: I'm scared I'm trading one addiction for another
:lgrnstar: I'm really anxious right now
:lblstar: I have an urge to SI right now
:lgrnstar: I've slept for like 14 hours last night, and still feel tired. All I want to do is sleep.
:lblstar: I have no motivation to do anything right now
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Post by strider 151 » Sat Feb 19, 2011 5:01 pm

i cant believe your having this much of an effect on me, when ur with me i want you to go away, but when were apart i just want you close. im in love with the idea of love. and what you would be like as a farther
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

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Post by ForgottenMemories » Mon Feb 21, 2011 6:27 am

sometimes i'm not sure if i want to be si free.

i should probably tell my bf i'm in love with my best friend but i won't because there's no chance of it happening.

i have to pick between gloves or a new haircut. i'm picking the long gloves.
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One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter.
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You've got to burn me. Make me bleed. Turn my pain into fantasy. And if I scream it's only just, love can hurt much more than lust.
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Post by strider 151 » Mon Feb 21, 2011 1:22 pm

i hate that your never there for me when i need you, and that u never text me back straight away, and that u neve tell me what your thinking
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

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Post by strider 151 » Mon Feb 21, 2011 10:45 pm

if it keeps going this way i am scared of what i might do and what im capable of. im not coping half as well as everyone thinks i am, and they dont think im coping

j - im not gonna open up to you anymore, because of reasons i cant explain but u have already helped me enough
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

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it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.

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Post by Descent » Tue Feb 22, 2011 1:32 am

I'm sorry Mom, that you think I stopped cutting but I still do it, and I'm not sure if I want to stop.. Oh, and I'm on the verge of an eating disorder..
Please understand that this is the only control I have in my life, and I need it..
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Tue Feb 22, 2011 3:52 am

I haven't felt this bad in years.
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Post by a7xcncangel » Tue Feb 22, 2011 11:20 pm

:redstar: I don't give a shit about you, A.
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Wed Feb 23, 2011 6:38 pm

fuck this. i dont even know why im trying any more.

correction. i do know why im trying... i just cant seem to justify it anymore.
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Post by mande » Thu Feb 24, 2011 2:10 am

I'm so afraid this good feeling is just mania.
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Post by desperateforgrace » Thu Feb 24, 2011 2:27 am

I often appear to be fine, even though inside I feel like crying.
By day I wear a mask of happiness and openness
By night, I cry a flood of tears
Wanting so much to show my real face
And be enshrouded in grace

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Post by strider 151 » Thu Feb 24, 2011 7:12 pm

that was the best day i have had in a really long time
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
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Post by capricorn » Thu Feb 24, 2011 9:09 pm

I ... I don't know who I am if I'm happy.
I'm just waiting for the next shoe to fall.
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