Things Left Unsaid *LA*
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*
im so sorry L, but for reasons that you know, and some i jut cant tell you, we cant be more than friends. i still cant understand why u like me. you know about A, my kinda BF and you know about my attention seeking ways with J and how i just want attention. i know you give me good attention, and i couldnt live without it now, but i need more that you can give. im so so sorry. all im doing is keeping you on the edge of my world, not letting you go and not pulling you in. i dont know what to say, but im so so sorry. you deserve so much better
A - i wish you were the prince charming perfect guy i want. i want a family. i want children, i want to feel like we are building a home and making plans and working towards something bigger and better. i want a husband who loves me unconditonally and does romatic things for me cos hes so crazy about me. i want him to do anything for me. i dont think your that guy. not the one i have been waiting for. but your the closest thing, so you will have to do, for now anyways. i hope you love me like you say, because i dont wanna be hurt again.
A - i wish you were the prince charming perfect guy i want. i want a family. i want children, i want to feel like we are building a home and making plans and working towards something bigger and better. i want a husband who loves me unconditonally and does romatic things for me cos hes so crazy about me. i want him to do anything for me. i dont think your that guy. not the one i have been waiting for. but your the closest thing, so you will have to do, for now anyways. i hope you love me like you say, because i dont wanna be hurt again.
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I wanted so much to meet you. Spend time with you, see where you live, have you show me around. Meet your family, hear your voice, see you in person.. you have my mobile number, you could have called me. Why didn't you talk to someone?
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あなたがいなくて寂しいです。
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I'm sorry that I never got to tell you again that I love you before you SUed. I feel like its my fault.
Was it my fault? Did you SU because I was such an awful person?
I wish you were here now to answer all of my questions. I wish I could give you one last hug.
I hope you died knowing that I still love you. No matter how hard I try to believe that I didn't love you,
I was wrong. I just didn't realize that i loved you so much until it was too late and you were already gone.
Why did you make plans with Mike? Why if you were going to go, did you do that?
Was it really an accident? Was it intentional? I just wish I knew. I dont think I can ever let these questions rest.
I wish you could come back for one day and talk to me.
I wish i could have been there to talk you out of it. I wish i just would have been there to save you one last time.
I will never forget you.
T, I love you.
Was it my fault? Did you SU because I was such an awful person?
I wish you were here now to answer all of my questions. I wish I could give you one last hug.
I hope you died knowing that I still love you. No matter how hard I try to believe that I didn't love you,
I was wrong. I just didn't realize that i loved you so much until it was too late and you were already gone.
Why did you make plans with Mike? Why if you were going to go, did you do that?
Was it really an accident? Was it intentional? I just wish I knew. I dont think I can ever let these questions rest.
I wish you could come back for one day and talk to me.
I wish i could have been there to talk you out of it. I wish i just would have been there to save you one last time.
I will never forget you.
T, I love you.
Hugs and PM's Welcome
I will miss you Helba.
I will miss you Helba.
Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*
Oh, cos you're so perfect.
And I'm sorry.. I guess Im partly jealous, but you make it harder, cos you're so damn nice BF, you really are!
And when you hurt Q, it hurts me.. and I only ever hear Q's side, cos you dont bother!
*sigh*
And I'm sorry.. I guess Im partly jealous, but you make it harder, cos you're so damn nice BF, you really are!
And when you hurt Q, it hurts me.. and I only ever hear Q's side, cos you dont bother!
*sigh*
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your rudeness pisses me off. you have no social skills and think that you're right all the time. worse yet, you have a 'yes man'. fucking seriously, why are you so vindictive toward everyone?
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*
YOU FUCKING PROMISED US. YOU FUCKING LIED TO US. AND IT HURTS.
Don't go.
I can't bear if it you go, and youdon't know.
but you were the one I'd have gone to, if I had gotten into a state at school.
I'd have chosen you.
In the back of my mind, you were there, as a coping mech, if I ever needed it.
But not anymore. Now Im truely alone there.
Don't go.
I can't bear if it you go, and youdon't know.
but you were the one I'd have gone to, if I had gotten into a state at school.
I'd have chosen you.
In the back of my mind, you were there, as a coping mech, if I ever needed it.
But not anymore. Now Im truely alone there.
♥ "You're not a bad person. You're a very good person, who bad things have happened to. Besides, the world isn't split into good people and Death Eaters. We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are." ♥
♥ "My thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations." ♥
♥ "I lit up like a Christmas tree, Hazel Grace." ♥
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dont. we cant be more than friends because of were i'm at right now, and were your at. its not going to work. get the hint. your talking way above your age L, and its scaring me because im not ready for that. sorry. i warned you that you would get hurt.....
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
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*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
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*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*
After months of not writing, I've started again. And it's coming out in a flood. I don't know what to do about it and I want you to be the one to help me fix it. But you can't be because you don't want to be.
Last night I dreamed that I was marrying you and I woke up and felt happy and calm. Then I realized it was only a dream.....
Chris, I love you.....
Last night I dreamed that I was marrying you and I woke up and felt happy and calm. Then I realized it was only a dream.....
Chris, I love you.....
For I am nothing more than a ghost and a shadow upon this earth. - Me
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i miss you
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I had a bad dream. You moved away. I was devastated. I felt so bad when I woke up, and I cried with pure relief when I realised it was only a dream. Please, please don't leave me!
♥ "You're not a bad person. You're a very good person, who bad things have happened to. Besides, the world isn't split into good people and Death Eaters. We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are." ♥
♥ "My thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations." ♥
♥ "I lit up like a Christmas tree, Hazel Grace." ♥
♥ "Things haven't always been this bad, therefore, things won't always be this bad." ♥
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I am starting to get nervous and overwhelmed. I am glad you offered and are going to help out. I just feel like I took on too big a task and now more people then I thought are going to be there and while this is really nice, I am getting worried and confused.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*
i miss you.
i miss you so fucking much.
i miss talking, and just sitting next to you
i miss listening to you joking around with our friends in the art room.
i miss the way you'd make sure that i was right next to you
i miss the way you hugged me.
and it still fucking hurts.
i miss you.
please, can't we just try?
so what if you're leaving at the end of the year.
yea, we'll miss each other, but at least we'll have been happy.
i just want to be happy.
i just want to not care.
do you miss me?
you probably don't...
i miss you so fucking much.
i miss talking, and just sitting next to you
i miss listening to you joking around with our friends in the art room.
i miss the way you'd make sure that i was right next to you
i miss the way you hugged me.
and it still fucking hurts.
i miss you.
please, can't we just try?
so what if you're leaving at the end of the year.
yea, we'll miss each other, but at least we'll have been happy.
i just want to be happy.
i just want to not care.
do you miss me?
you probably don't...
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-You will need to count your toes
-The f-ing Zebra will ALWAYS eat your cookie. Nothing will stop it
-Pooh Bear is dead
-There will always be a moose, don't fight it, it will win
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*
I don't know how I come across to you...but you say we're good friends and I should trust you. I just wish you'd talk to me, I don't know if I annoyed you or if we're both just being antisocial...Please talk to me, I need my friend. I miss you. I don't have anyone else.
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I've never felt more confident, and the both of you made me feel so important yesterday. Please don't be like everyone else and run off on me, I can't handle that right now.
And D - whoa saying that B and I would make a cute couple. Don't get his hopes up like that!
And D - whoa saying that B and I would make a cute couple. Don't get his hopes up like that!
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I know I have been improving in my stopping and getting out of a negative self talk loop, but I really wish I hadn't let it go so long this week. I am very frustrated with myself and I want someone to challenge me, give me strong but tactful advice. I just don't want to ask for *no hugs or fluff* without sounding like an ungrateful prick.
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I know exactly how you feel Chey.
Recovery is possible, I promise
My Aunt is Ultimate Starshine. My mom is snowangel_03. My big sisters are jadestarwalking and Birdie.
dont click this link
Facts of life:
-Purple monkeys eat grapes, not bananas.
-The answer to life is five point tomato [toe-may-toe]
-Zebra is not 'zee-brah' it's f-ing 'Z-eh-brah' like Debra
-You will need to count your toes
-The f-ing Zebra will ALWAYS eat your cookie. Nothing will stop it
-Pooh Bear is dead
-There will always be a moose, don't fight it, it will win
-----My Expressions-----
-----My Place-----
-----My PBH-----
*Stephanie*
My Aunt is Ultimate Starshine. My mom is snowangel_03. My big sisters are jadestarwalking and Birdie.
dont click this link
Facts of life:
-Purple monkeys eat grapes, not bananas.
-The answer to life is five point tomato [toe-may-toe]
-Zebra is not 'zee-brah' it's f-ing 'Z-eh-brah' like Debra
-You will need to count your toes
-The f-ing Zebra will ALWAYS eat your cookie. Nothing will stop it
-Pooh Bear is dead
-There will always be a moose, don't fight it, it will win
-----My Place-----
-----My PBH-----
*Stephanie*
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You still didn't speak to me...please do...I barely even feel like I exist, I feel so invisible. Even an automated email left my name out and just wrote Dear [blank] and everyone ignores me online and cuts me off in real life but you said you're my friend and I did make an effort so please talk to me, I feel terrible and I need a friend, even if you just say hello so I know you're still there...and that I am. Please. I feel so alone and I miss you
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*
your worried about taking medication while you are breastfeeding, I agree with this. But don't you realize the junk in the cigarette gets in your baby too when you breastfeed. I realize its your body, your baby and your choice, I just wish you wouldn't smoke.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*
What did you want to talk about, P?
Why did you change your mind a half hour later?
Why haven't you answered me?
Please, please talk to me.
I miss you.
Why did you change your mind a half hour later?
Why haven't you answered me?
Please, please talk to me.
I miss you.
Recovery is possible, I promise
My Aunt is Ultimate Starshine. My mom is snowangel_03. My big sisters are jadestarwalking and Birdie.
dont click this link
Facts of life:
-Purple monkeys eat grapes, not bananas.
-The answer to life is five point tomato [toe-may-toe]
-Zebra is not 'zee-brah' it's f-ing 'Z-eh-brah' like Debra
-You will need to count your toes
-The f-ing Zebra will ALWAYS eat your cookie. Nothing will stop it
-Pooh Bear is dead
-There will always be a moose, don't fight it, it will win
-----My Expressions-----
-----My Place-----
-----My PBH-----
*Stephanie*
My Aunt is Ultimate Starshine. My mom is snowangel_03. My big sisters are jadestarwalking and Birdie.
dont click this link
Facts of life:
-Purple monkeys eat grapes, not bananas.
-The answer to life is five point tomato [toe-may-toe]
-Zebra is not 'zee-brah' it's f-ing 'Z-eh-brah' like Debra
-You will need to count your toes
-The f-ing Zebra will ALWAYS eat your cookie. Nothing will stop it
-Pooh Bear is dead
-There will always be a moose, don't fight it, it will win
-----My Place-----
-----My PBH-----
*Stephanie*
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