Secrets Thread - Read first post!

[breathing]

I feel triggered by everything right now. This is such an unpleasant feeling.

[breathing]

Sometimes I wonder why I'm still here...

[Beasty]

You are starting to matter to me and it scares me because it delights me.

[capricorn]

I wore my ex-gf's ring all day today. It was a way of saying fuck you.

[fragmentedxdream]

I still miss my ex-boyfriend even though he hurt me in ways that no person should ever be hurt. Sometimes I even feel as though I hold feelings for him like I used to and that thought scares me.

[Licentia Poetica]

all I see of tomorrow is pain.

[xPeggiePatchx]

When people ask me what I'm listening to, I always lie.
Always.

[Beasty]

When you told me that, I wished it were me.

[volta]

whenever anyone asks me why i wasn't here last year for school, if i trust them, i tell them i developed an eating disorder in high school that got really bad last year and i had to go for treatment.

i don't dare tell them i was also - and perhaps first and foremost - in treatment for self-injury. yet, i get mad at my culture's lack of self-injury awareness.
i'm perpetuating the problem.
but i don't think they'd understand why i felt the need to cut myself.
i wish i could open up; maybe i'm selling them short? not giving them the benefit of the doubt?

i feel like a traitor.

[Forget Me]

Right now one of my best friends is in his room right next to mine, sleeping all cuddled up to his friend who just happens to be seriously in love with him. I know he's leadng him on and I know the situation probably sucks for both of them. I don't *like* either of them, I just wish I could take either of their places. If only someone wanted me as much as I know T wants C....

[DuchessN]

When you moved away years ago, I thought that was it. Then you found me online and opened yourself up to me. But you're thousands of miles away now.
You tell me so often how happy you are with her. And I'm happy for you. But I'm broken inside, too because I'm realizing how deeply I'm falling for you. All those miles between us wouldn't mean anything if you could just tell me what I want to hear . . .

[mande]

I can't stand it when people make their ugly babies their Facebook picture.

It just irks me.

[capricorn]

Sometimes I still want to let my alter egos/characters/imaginary friends take over.

[Isis]

i feel calmer now that i've told you i'm leaving.i couldn't take those up's and down's anymore, make up your mind.

[Beasty]

The reason I don't want you to meet her, mum, is because she is the person I wish I could have as my mother and you are the person that I am sometimes disgusted to share a genetic link with. I'd sell my leg shape from you for intelligence from her. Hell I'd take her legs, too, over yours. It's the same reason why I don't like you being with R without me. They are the women I would kill to be related to. You are the woman that gave me some beauty and nothing else.

[capricorn]

If she doesn't do this, I'm going to be so fucking disappointed.
Sometimes I don't think she will.

[Stawberry_Lollipops]

I hate being sick in the head like this, but I also love it. I like the comfort in being sick.

[xPeggiePatchx]

You are the pretty friend who the guys like.
It's shallow and bitchy of me, but I hate you for it.

[guest567]

What are you meant to do when your mum comes into your room, sits on your bed and then bursts into tears? I just sat beside her, told her I would help her and then put my arm around her. That didn't feel anywhere near enough but I didn't know what else to do.

[mande]

*Mild CSA, I guess*

My boyfriend blames himself for my broken ankle. He kept prying that there was something deep that happened to me that I won't tell anyone. I was trying to get away and not cry in front of him when I told him that my brother touched me sexually as a child. I have never told another soul in my entire life. I tripped over a rock wall trying to run from my secret.

I'm still in denial.