Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

[stripysocks4christ]

im hurting. so much. and i dont know how to deal with it. ive never felt so unsecure and scared in my entire life. please help me. show me what to do. cos im nothing. im not even living anymroe.. i cant sustain happiness for more than a few hours. what sort of life is that?? please. take me away. take me away from all of this hurt and pain and emotion. take me to a safe place. with you. i feel safe with you. please dont leave me. i cant bear it if you go. i know im so undeserving. but im crying out to you. please. hear the agony in my voice. hear the pain inside. DO SOMETHING!!! your ment to be able to do everything. then please. help me out. cos i dont want to feel this way anymore. i dont want to be such a burden on people. i want freedom and independance. but the road is narrow and the path tough. and its gonna hurt. its already hurting. yet i know its only gonna get worse. take me out from this pain. i cant cope anymroe... ..

[Snow Belle1986]

I'm a person too ASSHOLE!

[Beasty]

You are such a lovely girl and my actions probably hurt you more than anything else. The remorse is tearing me apart

[stripysocks4christ]

please. dont judge me.

[strider 151]

what do i have to do to get you out of my head forever????

[kermit]

I don't like this job. It's draining me. I wish I could do something I want to do rather than something to pay the bills. Getting up this morning was so difficult, every fibre of me was against the idea. I'm worried that this job is going to be bad for me.

[strider 151]

i hate it when they are here but i cant tell you how much

i dont wanna live with them but i cant tell you that cos you will be crushed

i need to run away and live somewhere where i dont hurt anyone by my descisions

[stripysocks4christ]

i need to run away and live somewhere where i dont hurt anyone by my descisions

no hunni. no you dont. please dont leave....

[strider 151]

what other choice do i have?????? you could never understand, you have the perfect family life, you dont have pressure to choose which parent you love more or who you want to live with. you have never been in the middle or had the jelousy and fear that your parents dont love you or love the other family more, or that your parent lies and cheats and doesn't tell the truth and goes behing your back and introduces strange people to you who you can't trust because they might spit out some form of dirt on the other parent. you have never had to put up with the feeling that it was your fault that they split or that they where leaving because of something you said. you have never had to walk around with the empty, listless, heartbreaking feeling that you may never see one of your parents again. its the only choice i have that gets me out of alll those situations wothout making the other parent guilty! if you have a better suggestion, tell me please???????????

[Beasty]

Please don't let me down.

[Beasty]

Not joking. I feel like my heart is about to explode out of my chest. Please.

[stripysocks4christ]

i love you.

[Snow Belle1986]

I HATE YOU!

You're an asshole and I hate you and I wish you had just left me alone in the first place. I hope you fucking croak you sick dirty old fuck!

[Tish]

I want to ask the doctor to really help me, not just medicate me as if i have an infection or something. i want to talk to a psychiatric nurse but not the one that i nearly punched in the face for saying "well you've got your whole life ahead of you;you'l be fine"!!! i want you so stop treating me like some stupid little girl with stupid teenage problems that i'll just "grow out of"!!!
I HATE DOCTORS!!!

[stripysocks4christ]

C - i want so so badly to talk to you. to confide in you. i trust you. i want to tell you everything. even sharign a part of my life has brought me such relief and lifting of burdens. but im scared that if i get close to you, you will be taken away from me. that i will burden you. i dont want to have to depend on you 24/7. but at the same time, i want someone who will always be there... i think you might be an answer to prayer.. maybe. but i dont want to open up old wounds. and i deffo dont want to be a burden to you. im so confused... i dont want to affect your own recovery and journey.. but i need you. i want to be selfish - for once in my life. i know that ive got C and K and A around.. but i want you aswell. is that bad?? i dunno. i just dont know anymore.... sorry.

[swirlish]

Copying this from the secrets thread:

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This isn't a thing left said, just a question. Would it be okay for you guys if we started over with a new unsaid thread or do you really want to keep this? No one has done anything, really huge threads are just much more difficult to mod than shorter ones. What do you think?

Mia

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[strider 151]

if there is a new version, do all these posts get destroyed? i am thinking maybe somepeople may want to keep a record of the posts they posted here. i do

[stripysocks4christ]

i agree with kimmi.
i dont think we need pages and pages of 'old stuff', but
some people may want a record of some of the stuff on here..
if its just me and kim, then get a new thread.....
or maybe start a new one and leave this open but locked.
that way we can still read our old posts, but the new one will
be easier to control.
just an idea.

[Beasty]

You wouldn't give me your phone number if you didn't want me to use it, right?
You wouldn't say you would feed me unless you really intended to do so, right?
You wouldn't open your space to me whenever unless I'm welcome there, right?

You wouldn't be so kind to me or hug me when you do unless you care, right?

[Beasty]

And I'm fine with a version 4.0.