Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

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Post by stripysocks4christ » Fri Feb 26, 2010 8:02 pm

you can steal my words if yuo want annybelly :tongue:
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Post by -manda- » Fri Feb 26, 2010 8:37 pm

I'm sorry you have to put up with all my issues and all my bad days. I'm sorry I have so much emotional baggage. I don't want you to leave me. It may be true that you're one of the first people that have actually cared about me, but that doesn't change anything. You are still my soul mate and I can't live without you.
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Post by Eisa » Fri Feb 26, 2010 11:15 pm

**SA** **violence**


Dear T,

You still make me sick just when the thought of you crosses my head. It infuriates me that you don't realize what you did wrong. It wasn't "rape" to you. It was "normal." What's wrong with your girlfriend telling you no and you going ahead and doing it anyway? What's wrong with your girlfriend crying and telling you she doesn't want to do something, and you tying her down to the bed and trying to do it anyway?

EVERYTHING, THAT'S WHAT, YOU SICK MOTHERFUCKER.

I have not forgiven you. I don't know if I ever WILL be able to forgive you. I want it not to affect me anymore, but I don't think that I need to forgive you to get that.

I hate that I still have revenge fantasies about what I want to do to you. How I want to make you drink gasoline or motor oil, fasten leeches on your skin, chop off your fingers with hedge trimmers and rub broken glass and lemon juice onto them...:o It's scary the depths of anger I feel when I think about you and what you did to me. I know that I could never act on them, but I would prefer not to have those thoughts in the first place.

And yet I do. Because of what YOU did to me. You sick, disgusting bastard, I hope you rot in Hell.
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Post by amyfairy » Fri Feb 26, 2010 11:45 pm

I have given up. It feels great (at the moment). I'm looking forward to going back and getting in control and I don't care how weak or crappy it makes me feel. I am excited for it. I don't care anymore.

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Post by 5th section » Sat Feb 27, 2010 2:34 am


Is something wrong, my love? please tell me...
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Post by Beasty » Sat Feb 27, 2010 4:41 am

A: YOU FUCKING LIAR... and the part that angers me the most is that I'm not all that mad.

DM: You don't want to know what I think about you... unless I'm somehow the luckiest person ever.

K: I'm scaring that I'm falling in love with you, for reals. I wish I could tell you how beautiful you are.
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Post by strider 151 » Sat Feb 27, 2010 7:49 pm

GET OUT OF MY HEAD AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!! I DONT WANT TO CONSTANTLY THINK ABOUT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

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Post by Beasty » Sat Feb 27, 2010 8:34 pm

I hope you realise how difficult it is to write my midterm paper when all I can think about is your lovely smile.
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Post by Annybelly » Sun Feb 28, 2010 3:13 pm

I love you. Do you feel that way? because if u do you spend fuck all of your time showing it, dont u?

but nvm, i dont need u. ur just an insignificant person, i have others, and today YOU ARE NOT GOING TO BRING ME DOWN
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Post by amyfairy » Sun Feb 28, 2010 8:57 pm

I look so fat and I don't want to go back to work tomorrow :cry:

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Post by Lynds » Sun Feb 28, 2010 10:56 pm

D: You know what I was trying to achieve you fucking idiot

MUS: Shut the fuck up my husband is trying to sleep!
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Post by Dorky&Weird2 » Mon Mar 01, 2010 10:50 am

FG:Do you really like me or do you just think I'm pretty? I dont know why I keep talking to you but I cant stop..I like attention sometimes.Whats so wrong with that?
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Post by amyfairy » Mon Mar 01, 2010 8:20 pm

I am SO SO SO lost! I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I'm wasting it and making myself ill. There is no POINT to my life!

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Post by strider 151 » Mon Mar 01, 2010 10:36 pm

im so sick of this
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.


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Post by xXelmoscaresmeXx » Wed Mar 03, 2010 3:26 am

i don't want to get help.
you weren't supposed to find out about my ed.
my weren't.
i don't wanna talk about it.
i don't wanna be 'healthy'
i wanna be 'xx'lbs.
i want to look sick.
i want to be sick.
i want people to look at me and be worried,
even if they don't know me.
i don't want to recover.
i know that there's a good chance that this will kill me.
i don't care.
i just want to be bones.
beautiful, beautiful.
bones.
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Post by strider 151 » Thu Mar 04, 2010 8:23 pm

i'm sick of these secrets!!!!
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.


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Post by Chey Kizoxie » Fri Mar 05, 2010 1:35 am

you are up to something.... what are you on?

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Post by strider 151 » Fri Mar 05, 2010 11:12 pm

fuck myself, im such an idiot!!! how could i forget that he has 2 msn addys??????? im such a shit bag!!!!!! i had forgetten all about him aswell, then i see him log on and now im talking gain. im so stupid. fuck my memory.
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.


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Post by Chey Kizoxie » Fri Mar 05, 2010 11:58 pm

incase you didnt know, yes i chuckled as I walked past your office

i chuckled cause im happy you are not working with me any more, not that i think you were doing anything to begin with.

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Post by amyfairy » Sun Mar 07, 2010 12:13 am

I'm okay. Please don't worry. If you could see me then you'd realise there's nothing to be concerned about; I look and feel fine!

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