Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
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Now is not the time to suddenly tell me that you're working all day on the day of the reg plat - you've known about this for months for crying out loud! And no I can't rearrange your tech slot at this stage
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"I get it now. You've said it yourself. I knew it from the start, but couldn't let go. Now I have to. I've tried this before, and it was not good. I felt so stupid back then and feel stupid again today. It's not fun anymore..it's not even good. I'm sad. Sad that it always ends this way. I'm letting you go. Because you don't want me "
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Now move to where I am so you can ACTUALLY hit on me. Ok?
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*language, drugs*
What the hell Becca!? You're like the older cousin I don't have but have always wanted. I look up to you. I need you to be the good person
in my life. You're stronger than this. Pot!?!?! How is that sensible. Yes I get it, you're experimenting and figuring out who you are. Fine.
But you're a fucking adult now! I swear sometimes *I'm* the adult in this friendship..Please, I'm not angry at you, I'm just hurt..I trusted
you to be smarter than this..I know you can be..I love my Becca bunches. I hate that you and D broke up. Atleast when you two were together
I had some claim on you, some reason to call you my cousin, cuz you pretty much were. I'm closer to you than I am him, always have been.
Please take care of yourself babe, I'm scared that if you get too used to doing these things, you'll take off and leave me like D did..I love you..
Please be careful.
What the hell Becca!? You're like the older cousin I don't have but have always wanted. I look up to you. I need you to be the good person
in my life. You're stronger than this. Pot!?!?! How is that sensible. Yes I get it, you're experimenting and figuring out who you are. Fine.
But you're a fucking adult now! I swear sometimes *I'm* the adult in this friendship..Please, I'm not angry at you, I'm just hurt..I trusted
you to be smarter than this..I know you can be..I love my Becca bunches. I hate that you and D broke up. Atleast when you two were together
I had some claim on you, some reason to call you my cousin, cuz you pretty much were. I'm closer to you than I am him, always have been.
Please take care of yourself babe, I'm scared that if you get too used to doing these things, you'll take off and leave me like D did..I love you..
Please be careful.
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im tired, brocken, exusted, i dont know if i can fight this anymore
but no matter what im not giving up
i am secure in christ
even when i am far away, he is still there
he is always there, i trust him, he died for me, he gave his life so that i may live
truly live
and live i shall
even when it hurts
cos its the least i can do
so stop trying to bring me down, there is no way that you are gonna take me down
im too strong for that, god is too strong for that, and wehave already won the battle, these little skirmishes aren't going to achieve anything! so back off, i'm not going down.
but no matter what im not giving up
i am secure in christ
even when i am far away, he is still there
he is always there, i trust him, he died for me, he gave his life so that i may live
truly live
and live i shall
even when it hurts
cos its the least i can do
so stop trying to bring me down, there is no way that you are gonna take me down
im too strong for that, god is too strong for that, and wehave already won the battle, these little skirmishes aren't going to achieve anything! so back off, i'm not going down.
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
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*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery]
*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
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This post inspired me.strider 151 wrote:im tired, brocken, exusted, i dont know if i can fight this anymore
but no matter what im not giving up
i am secure in christ
even when i am far away, he is still there
he is always there, i trust him, he died for me, he gave his life so that i may live
truly live
and live i shall
even when it hurts
cos its the least i can do
so stop trying to bring me down, there is no way that you are gonna take me down
im too strong for that, god is too strong for that, and wehave already won the battle, these little skirmishes aren't going to achieve anything! so back off, i'm not going down.
Take care
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thanks adamson (if ok)
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In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
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*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
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*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
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i cant do this anymore, really i cant. the lows aren't worth it, the highs are no longer high enough and i cant do this anymore, i'm an inch from breaking and i cant hold on anymore. i know its the low mood talking, but really, i'm not stong enough to fight it anymore
*si* *very graphic*
i want to bleed, i wanna cut my throat and see how much blood is in me, i want it to flow over my hands like a waterfall, a beautiful, red, river of broken dreams
i want to feel the tool in my hand as it diggs in, i want the pain, the relief, the freedom
*si end*
*rel* *language*
what the fuck G??????? you had your chance, you had plenty of chances, why dont you love me? why have you abandoned me?? i need you, if there was a time when you could save me then its now, please i cant do this anymore
*end*
*si* *very graphic*
i want to bleed, i wanna cut my throat and see how much blood is in me, i want it to flow over my hands like a waterfall, a beautiful, red, river of broken dreams
i want to feel the tool in my hand as it diggs in, i want the pain, the relief, the freedom
*si end*
*rel* *language*
what the fuck G??????? you had your chance, you had plenty of chances, why dont you love me? why have you abandoned me?? i need you, if there was a time when you could save me then its now, please i cant do this anymore
*end*
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In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
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*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery]
*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
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*hugs* for kimmi, U can do it hun,
ok here goes:
You're meant to love me. Not put me down, you're meant to protect me, not laugh at me, you're meant to tell me I'm your beautiful princess, not insult me. Get a grip. I need you to be who you're meant to be. I'm your teenager, I'm growing up, and I'm as sorry about that as you are, but I can't change it. I know you don't love me anywhere near as much as you do P, but you're not meant to show it, or tell me. Think about how that makes me feel.
ok here goes:
You're meant to love me. Not put me down, you're meant to protect me, not laugh at me, you're meant to tell me I'm your beautiful princess, not insult me. Get a grip. I need you to be who you're meant to be. I'm your teenager, I'm growing up, and I'm as sorry about that as you are, but I can't change it. I know you don't love me anywhere near as much as you do P, but you're not meant to show it, or tell me. Think about how that makes me feel.
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I AM NOT DOING THIS FOR ATTENTION!! I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS MY EMOTIONS ANY OTHER WAYS
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?f=19&t=138197
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finding hope
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http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?f=4&t=138280
My workshop place
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?f=37&t=138628
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You think you've got problems? You've had WEEKS to do that assessment. You leave it till the last minute, YOU pick up the pieces, I'm not your personal homework help. I havemy own stuff going on, and your complaints about getting a whole two sides of homework on the first lesson back isnt exactly high up in my list of priorities right now. I need you to be positive.
Look.. I dont mean to be judgemental or angry, I have stuff going on, ok? You wouldnt have any hope of understanding if I told you. Im not doing it for attention or to be cool, so thats your normal assumptions out. You're meant to be my best mate, but your not the same any more. I want the old, nice you back. You whinge and whine about EVERYTHING. You Bitch about everyone, probably me as well. You're self obsessed. You lie. You judge SO much. One look and you decide they're emo, or goth. What wouldI be if you knew? Not your friend anymore, that's what. PLease, i need the old you. youve changed for the worse, and its not good.
I used to have a web of friends at school, but they've changed. I have too I guess. But they've all changed differently. I hate judgemental-ness and I make an effort at least not to be judgemental, I ask you to do the same, you laugh.
I can't put up with you like this forever. I will snap, and it won't be pretty.
Look.. I dont mean to be judgemental or angry, I have stuff going on, ok? You wouldnt have any hope of understanding if I told you. Im not doing it for attention or to be cool, so thats your normal assumptions out. You're meant to be my best mate, but your not the same any more. I want the old, nice you back. You whinge and whine about EVERYTHING. You Bitch about everyone, probably me as well. You're self obsessed. You lie. You judge SO much. One look and you decide they're emo, or goth. What wouldI be if you knew? Not your friend anymore, that's what. PLease, i need the old you. youve changed for the worse, and its not good.
I used to have a web of friends at school, but they've changed. I have too I guess. But they've all changed differently. I hate judgemental-ness and I make an effort at least not to be judgemental, I ask you to do the same, you laugh.
I can't put up with you like this forever. I will snap, and it won't be pretty.
♥ "You're not a bad person. You're a very good person, who bad things have happened to. Besides, the world isn't split into good people and Death Eaters. We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are." ♥
♥ "My thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations." ♥
♥ "I lit up like a Christmas tree, Hazel Grace." ♥
♥ "Things haven't always been this bad, therefore, things won't always be this bad." ♥
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i know its wrong but i miss you so much. why do i have to love you? i'm sorry that i hurt you but being with you was hurting me in more ways than i thought. i never had the courage to tell you though. i know it was impossible to have a normal relatiohsip with you, but if we could have made it work, i would have been so happy. my heart is forever broken, when i left you i threw some pieces away, whats the point in keeping these memories when they make me sad? if only we could have met normally and you had been closer to my age. i miss you so much A. so so much. but i know this is for the best. please take care of yourself, i dont know what i would do if anything happened to you.
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery]
*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery]
*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
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thanks for scaring the crap out of me. you actually did help me get over my fear of losing you by telling me it was fine if I didnt want to talk to you any more.... Not sure what happened there but I feel secure now.
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I didn't get the job
I'm SO unhappy in my current job, this was my only hope of getting outl.
I don't know what the hell I'm doing with my life but it gives me an excuse to slip further.
I'm SO unhappy in my current job, this was my only hope of getting outl.
I don't know what the hell I'm doing with my life but it gives me an excuse to slip further.
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I WANT YOU BACK!!!!!!
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In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
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*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery]
*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
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No matter how much you think you like me its not worth it.I'm scarred.Physically & mentally.I'm broken and cant be fixed.
I wish I wasn't but that's just the way I am...
I wish I wasn't but that's just the way I am...
& PM's are ok with me!
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thats what i have been wanting to say for a long time but didnt have the words....thanksDorky&Weird2 wrote:No matter how much you think you like me its not worth it.I'm scarred.Physically & mentally.I'm broken and cant be fixed.
I wish I wasn't but that's just the way I am...
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In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
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*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
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im sorry. im sorry im not good enough for you..
im sorry you had kids, but thats yoru desicion.
im sorry your life is crap now, and that we arent
good enough for you.
but tough!!!
im you daughter for f* sake.
please!!! theres nothing else i can do..
why cant you just accept me for who i am?!
do you realise how much you hurt me????
do you honestly think i enjoy life with you??
i dont want you dead mum,
but i want you to notice me.
i want yo to see me for who i am,
not for all my mistakes.
im not perfect.
neither are yo.
the sooner you learn that,the sooner life can get back to semi-normal.
im sorry you had kids, but thats yoru desicion.
im sorry your life is crap now, and that we arent
good enough for you.
but tough!!!
im you daughter for f* sake.
please!!! theres nothing else i can do..
why cant you just accept me for who i am?!
do you realise how much you hurt me????
do you honestly think i enjoy life with you??
i dont want you dead mum,
but i want you to notice me.
i want yo to see me for who i am,
not for all my mistakes.
im not perfect.
neither are yo.
the sooner you learn that,the sooner life can get back to semi-normal.
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"
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kitti- i need to steal those words, because i cant find them myself.
"im sorry. im sorry im not good enough for you..
im sorry you had kids, but thats yoru desicion.
im sorry your life is crap now, and that we arent
good enough for you.
but tough!!!
im you daughter for f* sake.
please!!! theres nothing else i can do..
why cant you just accept me for who i am?!
do you realise how much you hurt me????
do you honestly think i enjoy life with you??"
*huggles babe*
"im sorry. im sorry im not good enough for you..
im sorry you had kids, but thats yoru desicion.
im sorry your life is crap now, and that we arent
good enough for you.
but tough!!!
im you daughter for f* sake.
please!!! theres nothing else i can do..
why cant you just accept me for who i am?!
do you realise how much you hurt me????
do you honestly think i enjoy life with you??"
*huggles babe*
♥ "You're not a bad person. You're a very good person, who bad things have happened to. Besides, the world isn't split into good people and Death Eaters. We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are." ♥
♥ "My thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations." ♥
♥ "I lit up like a Christmas tree, Hazel Grace." ♥
♥ "Things haven't always been this bad, therefore, things won't always be this bad." ♥
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You left be wounded and abused confused about everything. I want my life back and I am going to do whatever it takes to get it back
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?f=19&t=138197
finding hope
poetryl
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?f=4&t=138280
My workshop place
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?f=37&t=138628
finding hope
poetryl
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?f=4&t=138280
My workshop place
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?f=37&t=138628
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