who are you right now? *lang trigs*

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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by myfriendscallmeerika » Sun Oct 04, 2009 3:24 am

i am...
a mother
a wife
a daughter
an employee
a drug addict
a si'er
a survivor


i am not...
a dope whore
irresponsible
using
interested in ur bullshit

i feel...
edgy
restless
aimless
impatient
wound tight
overworked
lonely


i want...
to never use meth again
to be a good mother
to not have to worry about the bills getting paid
to be able to give my family a good xmas
to hurry up and have this baby
for this baby to turn and drop

i love...
it when someone "gets me"
my son
my husband
my mum
when i feel like i have a true friend
to shop
to paint my nails funky colors

i hate...
ignorance
intolerance
those who judge others
the righteous

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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by pelagic » Sun Oct 18, 2009 5:31 am

I am...
Lonely. Withdrawn. Overwhelmed.

I am not...
Motivated. In control. Accomplished.

I feel...
Abandoned. Bitter. Miserable.

I want...
an apology. I want to be hugged and told that it's not my fault, there's nothing wrong with me, that they'll do the sacrificing and not me.

I need...
to get a new job.

I have...
to clean my room, redo a bunch of assignments, get good grades, exercise and eat better.

I love...
too many selfish people.

I hate...
who I am and how I live my life.

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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by ThanksALatte » Sun Nov 01, 2009 4:37 am

i am...
-broken
-weary
-drowning

i am not...
-a liar
-sure of myself

i feel...
-sick
-anxious
-drained

i want...
-the truth to come out
-my life as it is now to cease
-change

i need...
-renewal
-a support system that i can rely on
-an escape

i have...
-to get off my butt and do something
-to learn to move on despite the lies somehow.

i love...
-music
-writing
-fall

i hate...
-what you did to me
-my job
-that i will never be the same
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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by steff » Tue Nov 03, 2009 2:40 am

i am:
stefanie

i am not:
a bitch, unless provoked
a skank
a retard
dirty
bad.

i feel:
like shit
pain
dirty
bad

i want:
to be skinny
to be perfect

i need:
to feel wanted
to be loved
validation
stability

i have:
to get better grades
to graduate high school
go to college
move.

i love:
my doggy
him

i hate:
his new bitch
him
feeling alone
being wrong
not having control

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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by _kbo_ » Tue Nov 03, 2009 4:39 am

I am:
lost, teary, falling deeper and deeper, afraid

I'm not:
a cheater, a slut, a horrible person, his friend, perfect

I feel:
cold, hungry, urgey, tired, insane

I want:
God to help me, answers, to find myself, happiness

I need:
my T, my boy to hug me, assurance that I'll be okay, a good night's sleep

I have:
reasons to be happy, to do my homework, to lose weight, scars

I love:
Christopher, my family, my best friends, my T, God, music, the color purple, driving

I hate:
Christopher, my choices and decisions, my past, daily temptations, roaches, not knowing what's gonna happen next
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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by Eva » Wed Nov 25, 2009 10:04 am

i am...
really, really sad
i am not...
happy
i feel...
pain inside
i want...
to turn back time
someone to love and who will love me back
him to write to me and ask if we should meet again
i need...
some peace
to get away from here
i have...
a lot to do, but can't get the things done
i love...
-
i hate...
feeling like this

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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by septemberstorm11 » Sat Nov 28, 2009 12:57 am

i am...
confused
happy
sad
guilty
alone
okay
totally mixed up

i am not...
all the way "here"

i feel...
disconnected and overwhelmed at the same time

i want...
to just feel one thing at a time, not all of this mixed up confusing crap...

i need...
sleep

i have...
n/a

i love...
n/a

i hate...
too many things to list.

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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by Eva » Tue Dec 08, 2009 7:33 pm

i am...
sad
scared
single
i am not...
happy
calm
in a relationship with him
i feel...
emotional pain
pain in my stomach
i want...
him
i need...
him
him to say that he wants me and no one else
to know where I stand
i have...
no hope left
i love...
-
i hate...
that I have tried this so many times before and it will happen over and over again

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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by pelagic » Wed Dec 23, 2009 9:42 am

I am...
A good kid.

I am not...
Good enough.

I feel...
hated, shamed, forgotten, misplaced.

I want...
this bullshit to end.

I need...
to get a grip

I have...
no hope

I love...
my family

I hate...
my family's opinion of me

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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by stripysocks4christ » Sat Jan 02, 2010 10:41 pm

i am:
hurting.
a failure
not enough
too hard on myself
a dissapointment

i am not:
giving up hope
dead yet
unloved

i feel:
in pain
lost
exposed

i want:
to be free
to be skinny
to be beautiful
to be pain free
to be loved

i need:
sleep
rest
to focus
to care for my cuts
keep this a secret

i have:
cuts
friends
family who love me
life

i love:
teddy bears
hot chocolate
love
peace
god

i hate:
temptation
feeling lost and alone
lieing to my loved ones
having to keep things secret
"Love does not make the world go round... It’s what makes the ride worth while"
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"

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"God will never let us fall without a plan on how to save us"
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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by Eva » Mon Feb 15, 2010 9:00 pm

i am...
back to the start
tired of this
lonely
angry
i am not...
loved
well
i feel...
dumb
empty
used
i want...
something good to happen
i need...
him to want me
a hug
to be strong
i have...
some good people in my life
i love...
the thought that
i hate...
feeling like this
that it always ends this way

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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by KittyCath » Mon Feb 22, 2010 2:21 am

Im not that computer savy, this probably will not work anyway.

i am...alone, pathetic, loser, weak, needy, insane

i am not...worthy of breathe

i feel...stupid........

i want...my mind to leave me alone

i need...????????

i have...???????

i love...my sons and husband

i hate...[/quote]me

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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by breathing » Mon Feb 22, 2010 6:30 am

i am...
depressed
anxious
irritable

i am not...
relaxed
happy
pleasant

i feel...
like I'm alone
tired

i want...
alone time
to be wanted
happiness

i need...
solitude

i have...
confusion
anxiety

i love...
nature
rain sounds

i hate...
feeling this way
being myself

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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by xPeggiePatchx » Mon Feb 22, 2010 2:49 pm

i am...
~ smart
~ liked
~ fed-up
~ self-centred
~ weird

i am not...
~ okay
~ content
~ hated
~ worthless

i feel...
~ confused
~ used up
~ strange feelings for this one guy...
~ like shit usually
~ somewhat indifferent

i want...
~ my ridiculus dreams about him to become a reality
~ a life
~ faith
~ things to be okay
~ to be an actor and a writer

i need...
~ a job
~ Jesus
~ a bigger ipod
~ friendship
~ motivation

i have...
~ issues
~ things I should get rid of
~ scars I sometimes weren't there
~ some amazing friends
~ talent

i love...
~ my entire extended family
~ my friends
~ my ipod
~ drama
~ being with him

i hate...
~ Northern Ireland and society
~ rich people
~ school
~ bitchiness
~ opinions different from my own ;)
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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by stripysocks4christ » Wed Feb 24, 2010 9:32 pm

i am...
~ tired
~ uspet
~ pathetic
~ worthless
~ selfish

i am not...
~ okay
~ happy
~ a good little girl
~ gonna tell you what happened

i feel...
~ stupid
~ sad
~ confused
~ like shit
~ broken

i want...
~ out
~ bed
~ numbness
~ things to be okay
~ my life back

i need...
~ love
~ praise
~ positive attention
~ safety


i have...
~ issues
~ friends who care about me
~ secrets
~ guilt
~ no life

i love...
~ peace
~ my friends
~ A, K, C, J

i hate...
~ my life
~ the atmisphere at home
~ school
~ me
~ pain and anger and hurt and destructive-ness
"Love does not make the world go round... It’s what makes the ride worth while"
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"

"Let Go and Let God"
"God will never let us fall without a plan on how to save us"
"For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" – Philippians 4:13

"I only lied so I didn't have to see the tears of disappointment in your eyes"
"I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand..."


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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by Eisa » Fri Feb 26, 2010 11:10 pm

i am...a precious little girl

i am not...broken

i feel...unbelievably sad

i want...to be held

i need...love and comfort

i have...shattered bits and pieces of memories

i love...my boyfriend

i hate...the people who did such awful things to me
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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by MapleSyrup » Wed Mar 10, 2010 7:24 am

I Am; A stupid girl, who does stupid things
I Am Not; Going to lie about it, going to make excuses
I Feel; Better, calmer, confused, lost
I Want; To know how to tell him, to sleep
I Need; A way out, a decent therapist
I Have; A bed, a boyfriend who loved me entirely more than I deserve
I Love; My Boyfriend, my two best friends
I Hate; Myself, my thoughts, my actions, my reactions, my guilt
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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by Eva » Sun Mar 28, 2010 7:26 pm

i am...
tired
not liked
scared
blank
i am not...
happy
liked
calm
i feel...
pain everywhere
anger
tears on their way
i want...
him
a good result tomorrow
her to stop being after me and be more friendly
i need...
someone who loves me
to get through this
i have...
to live
i love...
-
i hate...
this feeling

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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by Rodwy » Mon Mar 29, 2010 8:34 am

i am...
numb
scared
angry
i am not...
happy
okay
i feel...
nothing but anger and pain
i want...
To be normal again
My family to understand
i need...
work to understand
i have...
to get through this
i love...
My mom
i hate...
my life
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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by flyingturtle » Sat May 15, 2010 6:00 am

i am...
strong (physically and mentally), good at math, adorable, honest, loving, caring.

i am not...
going to SI, giving in, fat, ugly, friendless, alone.

i feel...
lonely, worried, gross, tired, okay.

i want...
someone to cuddle with, sleep and to sleep in, summer, short sleeves.

i need...
a hug, food, air, music, hope.

i have...
hope, friends, a social life, decent grades, a roof, clothes, a job.

i love...
myself, music, TWLOHA, my friends, fuzzy & warm things, iced coffee.

i hate...
90% of my generation, people with no common sense, annoying noises, homework, being overly busy.
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