i want to show you who i really am, please give me the courage to do this
*SI trigg*
need to tell you something........i am a self harmer, i have been for about 2/3 years. I shreded my arm up, it hurt like hell, but it helped me. i know you wont understand, but i felt like i needed to tell you. i have felt like i needed to tell you for a while, but i thought it was better. didnt hurt myself for about half a year, but then it got worse. becuse i was better, i thought i didnt need to tell you, im sorry. i should have told you ages ago. please pray for me. please dont tell anyone about this.
Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
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strider 151
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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok 
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery]
*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery] *I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
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stripysocks4christ
- awe-inspiring
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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
well dont for writing that kim....
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"
"Let Go and Let God"
"God will never let us fall without a plan on how to save us"
"For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" – Philippians 4:13
"I only lied so I didn't have to see the tears of disappointment in your eyes"
"I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand..."
xx Kitti xx
my place
my poems
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Chey Kizoxie
Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
oh god what am i doing to myself, im going to be so sick tomorrow....
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You fucking arsehole. Welcome to my world. I don't wana fucking get up and do the shit that I do but I choose to because I have responsibilities. Get real and get a life.
"She would never know, because he would never tell her. Somehow if she’d known the worst parts, she couldn’t have gone on being a haven for him… He needed her ignorance to hide in. Yet at the same time, he wanted to know and be known as deeply as possible. And the two desires were irreconcilable"
From Regeneration by Pat Barker
From Regeneration by Pat Barker
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strider 151
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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
im sorry for what i have become, and im sorry that i cant change. im sorry that sometimes i dont want to change, and im sorry for the reasons that i do this
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery]
*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery] *I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
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guest567
Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
I find it interesting that you have blocked me. It made me smile to be truthful!
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I want you to be proud of me. I'm scared I've made that impossible for you to feel.
♥ Let me hide in this sunflower meadow ♥
I made it 93 days without cutting. It's been 20+ days since then.
You can call me V (or Anna, whichever
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strider 151
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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
i want to be with you so much, i know it would be a good relationship. i like you so much. but love? nah. I just aren't stable enough. and i couldnt be honest with you, when could i tell you about how awful i feel, my SI or ED or my fears?? I'm sorry, its safer if we stay friends. your better off without me anyways, i would drag you down. you deserve someone who is kind, caring, not a SIer, isnt insane, isnt insecure, trustworthy. i just want you to be so happy.
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery]
*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery] *I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
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strider 151
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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
i know its not going to happen when they move in, but these are my fears;
d - you like L more, i am afraid that she will become your fav. you get in so well with her, i get so jelouse when you talk 2 her. i cant help it. i am so scared
Gs - same for you. you act so nice to them. they call you gran & grandad already. am i being pushed out of the picture? sometimes i just wish you all would be mean to L and B so i know im loved more. its the same at church aswell. i cant help it. everyone likes them more than me, is it me? whats so repulsive about me? why cant i be loved like her aswell??
shes so fake, a hair dying, revealing outfit wearing barbie.
help me
d - you like L more, i am afraid that she will become your fav. you get in so well with her, i get so jelouse when you talk 2 her. i cant help it. i am so scared
Gs - same for you. you act so nice to them. they call you gran & grandad already. am i being pushed out of the picture? sometimes i just wish you all would be mean to L and B so i know im loved more. its the same at church aswell. i cant help it. everyone likes them more than me, is it me? whats so repulsive about me? why cant i be loved like her aswell??
shes so fake, a hair dying, revealing outfit wearing barbie.
help me
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery]
*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery] *I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
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Chey Kizoxie
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ugh why did i do this to myself. i feel so sick
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Dorky&Weird2
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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
... 
& PM's are ok with me! ~My Place-*She* will be ~Loved~...{SI}
LAST SI-{2/8/10}
<1year>
R.I.P.-Steve Irwin-9/4/06<3
"They took her moments of feeling alive,And made them moments of dying inside."~Annie-SafetySuit
~Tree Avvy made by the wonderful WDS
I love my cats
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xXelmoscaresmeXx
- knows the ropes
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- Gender: Girl
- Location: MD Age:23
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1--Yes, I forgive you.
2--No, you did not make that up. That is an old internet meme. You do not need to lie to me.
2--No, you did not make that up. That is an old internet meme. You do not need to lie to me.
Recovery is possible, I promise
My Aunt is Ultimate Starshine. My mom is snowangel_03. My big sisters are jadestarwalking and Birdie.
dont click this link
Facts of life:
-Purple monkeys eat grapes, not bananas.
-The answer to life is five point tomato [toe-may-toe]
-Zebra is not 'zee-brah' it's f-ing 'Z-eh-brah' like Debra
-You will need to count your toes
-The f-ing Zebra will ALWAYS eat your cookie. Nothing will stop it
-Pooh Bear is dead
-There will always be a moose, don't fight it, it will win
-----My Expressions-----
-----My Place-----
-----My PBH-----
*Stephanie*
My Aunt is Ultimate Starshine. My mom is snowangel_03. My big sisters are jadestarwalking and Birdie.
dont click this link
Facts of life:
-Purple monkeys eat grapes, not bananas.
-The answer to life is five point tomato [toe-may-toe]
-Zebra is not 'zee-brah' it's f-ing 'Z-eh-brah' like Debra
-You will need to count your toes
-The f-ing Zebra will ALWAYS eat your cookie. Nothing will stop it
-Pooh Bear is dead
-There will always be a moose, don't fight it, it will win
-----My Place-----
-----My PBH-----
*Stephanie*
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Chey Kizoxie
Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
I hope you get to visit you dad and A soon i wish your work would have giving you the christmas off sooner so you could have went. I really think your a great person and I am glad your my friend. Im rather p'd off at your work. I hope things get better once you are in college. I wish employers were all as good as the ones where I had my placement.
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Dorky&Weird2
- part of the fixtures
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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
Why do you never listen to me?
Why do I always feel so invisable?
Why do I always feel so invisable?
& PM's are ok with me! ~My Place-*She* will be ~Loved~...{SI}
LAST SI-{2/8/10}
<1year>R.I.P.-Steve Irwin-9/4/06<3
"They took her moments of feeling alive,And made them moments of dying inside."~Annie-SafetySuit
~Tree Avvy made by the wonderful WDS
I love my cats
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stripysocks4christ
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im an attention seeking b****. theyd be better off without me. im a burden. i bring them down. they dont need me in they're lives.. im a waste of time and space.
yet god can still make this better??
yet god can still make this better??
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"
"Let Go and Let God"
"God will never let us fall without a plan on how to save us"
"For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" – Philippians 4:13
"I only lied so I didn't have to see the tears of disappointment in your eyes"
"I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand..."
xx Kitti xx
my place
my poems
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strider 151
- bus mechanic
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- Joined: Thu Jun 19, 2008 7:47 pm
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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
i hate you! why do you always have to be the centre of attention???? stop trying to steal everyone from me!
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery]
*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery] *I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
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xXelmoscaresmeXx
- knows the ropes
- Posts: 4533
- Joined: Thu May 07, 2009 10:40 pm
- Gender: Girl
- Location: MD Age:23
Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
Daddy--Thank you for bringing the puppy, it made seeing you a lot less awkward...it's funny how one little thing can change years of built up tension.
Recovery is possible, I promise
My Aunt is Ultimate Starshine. My mom is snowangel_03. My big sisters are jadestarwalking and Birdie.
dont click this link
Facts of life:
-Purple monkeys eat grapes, not bananas.
-The answer to life is five point tomato [toe-may-toe]
-Zebra is not 'zee-brah' it's f-ing 'Z-eh-brah' like Debra
-You will need to count your toes
-The f-ing Zebra will ALWAYS eat your cookie. Nothing will stop it
-Pooh Bear is dead
-There will always be a moose, don't fight it, it will win
-----My Expressions-----
-----My Place-----
-----My PBH-----
*Stephanie*
My Aunt is Ultimate Starshine. My mom is snowangel_03. My big sisters are jadestarwalking and Birdie.
dont click this link
Facts of life:
-Purple monkeys eat grapes, not bananas.
-The answer to life is five point tomato [toe-may-toe]
-Zebra is not 'zee-brah' it's f-ing 'Z-eh-brah' like Debra
-You will need to count your toes
-The f-ing Zebra will ALWAYS eat your cookie. Nothing will stop it
-Pooh Bear is dead
-There will always be a moose, don't fight it, it will win
-----My Place-----
-----My PBH-----
*Stephanie*
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strider 151
- bus mechanic
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- Joined: Thu Jun 19, 2008 7:47 pm
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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
im so sorry
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery]
*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.
[Working Towards Recovery] *I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
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Chey Kizoxie
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I have a crush on someone here but im afraid to tell them because idk. I dont have a reason. I just can't tell.
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