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* how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? The situation wont change, but I'll be able to feel better for a little while
* what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? umm....well it will take away my negative feelings for a little while but then again it will bring up more bad feelings because it will make me feel as though I'm not doing better
* how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way? In the long run I want to feel like I'm worth something to somebody. cutting isn't going to get me closer or farther away from that feeling though
* if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then? I'll probably only feel better for a couple hours at most
* what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then? Instead of hurting myself I can try to focus my attention somewhere else by reading or drawing but it will probably only distract me for a little while
* how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with? I'll probably still feel stupid either way
* what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now? what i really want to do is talk to the person who is making me feel this way, but that's not an option


* Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? I feel like hurting myself because I don't know how else to make myself feel better about getting myself into the mess that I'm in. I'm basically in this situation because I put myself here.
* Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? I've been in the same place for the past six months and I deal with it negatively everytime with cutting, sleeping pills and I feel as though at least it gets me through the night
* What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me? login to bus and complete these questions.
* How do I feel right now? stupid
* How will I feel when I am hurting myself? calm
* How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning? after hurting myself i'll be able to calm down and maybe i can get a little rest. tomorrow morning I'll probably just be pissed at myself.
* Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future? No, because i'm going to always be me
* Do I need to hurt myself? not really