Before hopefully no after.

[Heidi4DBT]

I know that it has been awhile since I last wrote here. I just got my own home computer so writing in here wil be more oftern if not on a daily base. I have been 5 months SI free. I am struggling right I am worring about my parents health. I feel that my anxiety has been high that I am not functioning as I should be. I am so angry about the traumas that has happened to me they are unfair and I should have been protected from my love ones. I wished that there was someone that I could have talked to and have them do something to end the abuse. The hardest thing for me is to think that my parents were aware of his past history of abusing but they still gave him easy acess to me. I want to SI right now but I know that their is more better ways of coping then that. It is just so hard right now.

[LoverlyLaurie]

hi heidi. i just wanted to say that i read your post and i'm listening. i know thinking about your family and past can make it hard to deal. maybe you could look at some coping strategies to help?....the "vastly long list of coping strategies" post helps me feel like i have more options sometimes...and maybe you'll find something you like to do that helps relieve the stress.

hugs! ...if hugs are ok?

<3
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