How you feel & what you're going to DO about it.

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by vampirelover » Thu Jan 29, 2009 10:41 pm

triggered
so i will stay in company until a feel better or go to bed
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Post by pretty » Sat Jan 31, 2009 1:34 pm

Exhausted and drained and overwhelmed and excited.
Focus on the excited part, try to rest and take care of myself. Eat lunch.
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"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world

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Post by handmade mute » Mon Feb 02, 2009 10:33 am

I feel depressed, hurt, rejected, overwhelmed, urgy and clingy. I feel guilty for only seeming to turn up at BUS on bad days, when I want to be here more. I feel bad that a lot of nice people are reaching out to me online and I never seem to have energy to reach out to them.

I am going to admit that the whole thing has hurt me more than I would like, and keep trying to understand how it is impacting my behaviour now rather than blindly being overemotional without knowing why.

I am going to remind myself that there are people out there who do love me, and who are willing to support me if only I let them in, and I am going to be open to them, and will try harder to communicate.

I am going to post a thank you on BUS for all the help. Because I would not cope without this forum and the people who come here.

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Post by ausnat88 » Sun May 03, 2009 10:43 am

I feel dread and self disgust- like I'm steadily cutting off all the positive options in my life and creating only negative consequences. I feel like punishing myself for being so stupid/useless/incapable.

I will channel the self disgust and the uneasiness created by the sense of dread into awkward dancing to music. I will choose music that is loud and energizing but not fully of angry or depressing lyrics.

I will create a manageable to-do list for this week. I will break it into small steps for each day or even part of day. I will describe how each step will benefit me.
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Post by zazie » Sun May 03, 2009 4:48 pm

I feel icky.

I will take a long, hot shower and put on something clean, then go out for a bit and do the shopping.
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Post by pretty » Sun May 03, 2009 7:48 pm

Really tired and drained.

Relax and get a good nights sleep. Maybe demand a bath and candles and pampering on the way.
'this is what she says gets her through it,
"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world

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Post by Inthebox » Fri May 08, 2009 5:20 am

I feel like I'm going down , down , down.

I am either going to fight it and keep up the functioning
or
give in and go for a ride down
"We think the point is to pass the test or overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don't really get solved. They come together and they fall apart. The healing comes from letting there be room for it all to happen: Room for grief, for relief, for misery, for joy." Pema Chodron

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Post by Green Beauty » Sat May 09, 2009 9:34 pm

Stressed and full of angst. I’m going to try to just settle in bed and watch some tv.

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Post by Beasty » Wed May 13, 2009 10:40 pm

I feel like a failure- no friends, no sex life, about to fail an exam, annoyed with a stomach pooch that appeared.

I am going to go to bed. I'll read until I can't read anymore and then cry until I fall asleep. I'll dream something great or not dream at all and when I wake up, the world will be alright again. It WILL be alright again.
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Post by amyfairy » Wed May 13, 2009 10:42 pm

I'm feeling anxious, maybe a little sad.. I can't really tell. I'm going to turn my music off as the radio keeps playing songs which is making my mood worse, i'm going to change into night clothes, clean my teeth so I won't be tempted to eat anymore and watch tv and try and turn my fricking brain off.

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Post by a7xcncangel » Fri May 22, 2009 7:17 pm

happy and I'm going to celebrate!! :smilecolros:
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Post by vampirelover » Fri May 22, 2009 10:00 pm

nervous telling my parents about my new boyfriend
i should just tell them
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Post by pretty » Wed May 27, 2009 9:03 pm

Really tired. Lonely.

Sign out and go to bed now. Sleep til Andrew gets home in a couple of hours. Maybe take a bear with me.
'this is what she says gets her through it,
"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world

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Post by vampirelover » Wed May 27, 2009 10:06 pm

happy and im going to smile :D :D
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Post by amyfairy » Sun May 31, 2009 11:45 pm

I'm feel really hot and tired, so I'm going to turn off my laptop after writing this as my laptop is sending out heat and making it worse.

I'm feeling tired so I'm going to seduce a good book in bed and then try to sleep.

I'm feeling fat but I'm reminding myself that this isn't true.

I'm feeling dizzy but I think cooling down and getting sleep will help with this - and I'm going to try and eat an actual meal tomorrow.

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Post by ChangeTheWorld » Thu Jun 11, 2009 4:09 am

stressed and anxious regarding uni.

i will go for a long walk
and play with my kitties.
Strength.Compassion.Creativity.

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Post by handmade mute » Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:55 am

I feel exhausted, urgy and unloved.

I'm going to try and write it all out, and take it as easy as possible. I will try really hard to not dwell on the relationship issues, but to instead focus on me and my needs.

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Post by one out of none » Wed Jun 24, 2009 10:31 pm

All over the place. I'm going to go to bed.

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Post by balletomane » Thu Jun 25, 2009 2:53 am

thirsty. get lemonade!

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Post by sunflowerwoman » Thu Jun 25, 2009 4:49 am

tired, will go to bed
anixous, write on bus
want to si, know that i don't need to, people love me for me
want to over med, know that i can live and deal without doing it
frustrated, verbalize and/or write
angry, take time for me.read. :roll:

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