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Post by DecemberLivy » Sun Mar 01, 2009 3:42 am

People think I'm the last person in the world to think about suicide, but I do. I don't plan to, but sometimes, recently, I often think there's not much more of this I can take.
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Post by SplinteredGirl » Fri Mar 06, 2009 8:17 am

the main reason i have been holding off SI lately, is becuase i fear i'll take it further then i ever have before..
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Post by snowangel_03 » Sat Mar 07, 2009 12:37 am

I still love him, despite what he's done.
Even though I can't forgive him.

I still love him, despite what he's done.
And I know I will never stop loving him.

I will never tell him she might be his.
I will never tell him she might not be.

I regret every guy I've slept with.
I regret the day I lost my virginity.

I want to be fixed.
I want to be loved.
I can't fix me.
I won't find mutual love.
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Post by shannie1985 » Mon Mar 09, 2009 5:42 pm

I'm scared that I don't know if I really want to get better.
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Post by ambivalent red » Tue Mar 10, 2009 6:01 am

I wish I would'nt have gotten married.
I wish I was with RJW.
I wish I didnt have the scars.
I wish I could get up and leave.
I wish I was with my Mom... but I'm 30 and across the US from her.
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Post by snowangel_03 » Fri Mar 13, 2009 6:07 pm

I wish I'd left you when I had the chance.
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Post by Beasty » Sun Mar 15, 2009 1:11 pm

I'd break my leg/arm if it meant that I could be anesthetized in the hospital for awhile. Then I could miss the rest of the practises I despise and the days until I could go home would go by more swiftly.

Only, I don't really want a broken arm/leg all that much. Well, I don't think I'd mind right now but I don't want to actually break anything and I suspect that if it did get broken, I'd immediately hate having a broken bone. Obviously I've never broken a bone before. Plus, I'm not sure they let you fly if your arm/leg is broken. And I need to fly across an ocean to get home.


I just want to be home so badly. A little over 12 more days and I can barely stand it. And the thought of going to crew practise four more times makes me want to rip my eyes out. I love the sport. I hate the sport here. The program makes me miserable.
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Post by kalayla » Sun Mar 15, 2009 9:40 pm

i want to just end this relationship, it seems so unhealthy
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Post by Beasty » Mon Mar 16, 2009 11:31 pm

I'm faking an injury to get out of the rest of the practises. I can't take this shit anymore. I am determined to pull it off.
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Wed Mar 18, 2009 7:19 am

I failed out of college... again.
I'm madly in love with a heroin addict...
no one knows.
I want to marry him. He asked me before & I said we'd discuss it later.
I know I'm only 19, but now is later.
I hope he doesn't go to jail.
*Challenges welcome*
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Post by ultimate starshine » Wed Mar 18, 2009 7:23 am

i dont care anymore.
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Post by purplefroggydishwasher » Sat Mar 21, 2009 5:31 am

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Post by snowangel_03 » Sun Mar 22, 2009 12:37 am

I'm scared to find out the answer to my secret, it could ruin everything.
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Post by steady hands » Sun Mar 22, 2009 7:18 am

I HATE being sober.
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Post by vampirelover » Sun Mar 22, 2009 1:15 pm

no im not okay
longest with no slips - 2 years , 6 months
time since last slip : 2 days
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Post by HakunaMatata » Mon Mar 23, 2009 6:18 pm

Sh*****t. What if he's done as he said. Found out and upped sticks and gone, which is why he's not answering. Logically he's asleep or not got his phone on him. But *paranoid* I shouldn't have gone out on Saturday. F*ck.

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Post by snowangel_03 » Wed Mar 25, 2009 9:39 pm

I can't do this any more. It's not working. There's no point.
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Oftentimes all we need is a thought or a message to help us see another side to the problem,
or just some hope that life will be better - magicmum
Hugs & PM's are fine
The Truth that can set Souls Free is Buried within Sweet Pandemonium
To cry is to know that you're alive
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Post by styled_wrong » Wed Mar 25, 2009 11:39 pm

i am so lonely it hurts
scars are tattoos with better stories
it's hard to answer the question whats wrong, when nothing is 'right'
Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you cant always see the pain someone feels
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Post by DecemberLivy » Sun Mar 29, 2009 7:07 pm

I think I'm slowly going really mad. I thought it would help me be more myself but it just put me in a box. When am I going to learn not to try and define myself?
<center>my walpole cafe

"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
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I think I'll paint roads
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Post by Callisto » Sun Mar 29, 2009 8:21 pm

I can't decide which is better to have: ambition or love....
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