Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

namaste · Post by **namaste** » Tue Jan 06, 2009 10:42 pm

I really want to be dead. I see no point in life. I'm trapped. I want to stop.

WorkDaySarcasm · Post by **WorkDaySarcasm** » Wed Jan 07, 2009 2:43 am

I don't want to have my secrets let known.

I don't want secrets either.

smr89 · Post by **smr89** » Wed Jan 07, 2009 8:45 pm

I want to kill myself so badly right now. But I probably won't. I guess I don't have the guts. How did life get this bad? How did I rack up this much pain? What can I do to make it go away?

marshmallowfluff · Post by **marshmallowfluff** » Thu Jan 08, 2009 12:40 am

i'm not sure if things are getting bad again, or whether its the bitterly cold weather thats making me feel so sad.

Inthebox · Post by **Inthebox** » Thu Jan 08, 2009 4:46 am

I'm not as well as you think. I just made myself seem better to make you happy.

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Fri Jan 09, 2009 4:32 am

Being in this house with my mother for days.. kills my mental health.

kgraff · Post by **kgraff** » Fri Jan 09, 2009 4:51 am

everytime you call me a pice of shit and make me feel so low. it hurts me dad.

TikkiLink · Post by **TikkiLink** » Sat Jan 10, 2009 4:03 pm

The only thing keeping me here is because I'm afraid I'll go to Hell if I kill myself. The suicidal urges never stop. For more than half my life. And the need for pain. And the emotional distress.

And I remember what you did, dad. The only times you pretended to want to listen to what I had to say, you were only trying to distract me while you violated me. Because you knew I wouldn't tell because it would hurt everyone, and ruin our family.

breathing · Post by **breathing** » Sun Jan 11, 2009 6:23 am

I haven't been doing drugs or anything, but quitting really seems worthless right now. I need a 'pick me up', seriously.

I've been praying and it doesn't work for me. Everyone around me seems to have better chances than I do with being content with Christianity.
Despite the fact that most of my friends are apathetic about religion.

ambivalent red · Post by **ambivalent red** » Mon Jan 12, 2009 6:23 pm

I have several ways of killing my self in my head.
I'm afraid if they dont work I will be confined to a bed somewhere. Or I will be hurt really bad but survive.
Also, I dont want my husband to have to explain that his wife SU'ed.

pelagic · Post by **pelagic** » Tue Jan 13, 2009 12:40 pm

I need someone right now, but in all honesty?
I'm alone, so very alone... and that scares me.

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Tue Jan 13, 2009 9:21 pm

There are some days I wish I never realized how large of a need I have for affection.. but then I remember how damn good it feels.

secrets1109 · Post by **secrets1109** » Mon Jan 19, 2009 7:53 am

i have so much self hate inside me... no one knows... no one close to me would ever understand... it kills me to hate myself this much.

i want to be "normal".

i feel without the si and eds that there will be nothing left of me. that i will be more of a nobody.

i do this all for control. control of what?... my life?... doesnt it just mess my life up more?... i think it does.

i wish i could of stopped all of the si and ed before they ever started.

i hate myself for who i am.

StevieLynn · Post by **StevieLynn** » Tue Jan 20, 2009 2:52 am

I am dating a 17 year old..... I'm 28.

vampirelover · Post by **vampirelover** » Tue Jan 20, 2009 1:52 pm

im scared

SplinteredGirl · Post by **SplinteredGirl** » Fri Jan 23, 2009 11:09 am

i havnt SIed in a month, but all i can think about is next time i will do it..
ive been meening to open up to friends but i just cant. i feel crazy. and just unfunctionaly out of it. i wish these bad moods would go away.. i wish i could sleep better and get things done. im useless

Stefani140 · Post by **Stefani140** » Fri Jan 23, 2009 6:32 pm

No one cares. I know they don't care if I'm around or not, but I inflict my presence on them anyway because I'm horribly selfish.

Mind Explorer · Post by **Mind Explorer** » Mon Jan 26, 2009 11:41 am

I feel like SI'ing. No one knows I haven't left it behind.
I hate the looks they give when I tell about something I have it difficult with, that of compasion. It makes me feel like it is really something to worry about, at the same time I like it because it makes me feel like they care.
I hate the way they wait till I answer and really listen, because I'm scared if I say it's real, but at the same time I'm grateful that they take the time for me.
I hate it if they care about me, but I love it too. I hate to be important for anyone in any way, but I like to be of mather for anyone. I don't find myself important, so how could they?
And I feel threatened by the way they call on me, 'cause what could I do, with me as my person, for them?

Beasty · Post by **Beasty** » Mon Jan 26, 2009 3:07 pm

I'm breaking inside. Little cracks and fissures. I'm across an ocean, so when I do shatter, there is no one around to help me pick me up again.

vampirelover · Post by **vampirelover** » Mon Jan 26, 2009 5:08 pm

im scared my dad will abanded me if he finds out im gay

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Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

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