Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
- red umbrellas
- beyond inspiring
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I don't believe you. You and her...no way. Seriously. You're wasting her time and yours and the worst thing is, you'll come out of it fine all over again. I wish she would dump you...not because I'm a bitch, but because you have no idea how to treat people.
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What is wrong? Please talk to me? Sitting with you, not knowing how to help was the hardest thing.
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I want you to tell me that this will be ok.
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What is wrong? Please talk to me? Sitting with you, not knowing how to help was the hardest thing.
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I want you to tell me that this will be ok.
And excuses and excuses and excuses
Hold On To Yourself - Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
"We paint a picture of a scenario - and then we become afraid of it" - Andrea Fella
- DecemberLivy
- just plain inspiring
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- Location: London
I no longer think of you as my brother. You are nothing to me but a selfish, abusive bastard who gets way more than he ever deserved. You suck the life out of this house. The worst thing is you think you're the victim in all this, that we are ganging up on you. When you leave next week I want nothing more to do with you, you are not coming back. I refuse to have to drag down my life any longer. You are not my brother.
<center>my walpole cafe
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
- 5th section
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Please do it. Give me an excuse to get out...then you can all go to hell, or maybe go the the BNP, because from what you were saying yesterday it sounds like you'd get on very well with them.
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
- my place
- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
GOING STRAIGHT SINCE 1ST DECEMBER 2009
- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
- my place
- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
GOING STRAIGHT SINCE 1ST DECEMBER 2009
- faegirl
- building community
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- Location: New England. Age: 30ish
i miss you more than i can ever tell you... more than i should... we're really pretty superficial friends, but you're the only one who calls me anymore... the only one who sends me real emails and not that "forward this to 10 friends" crap... the only one whose opinion seems to matter to me anymore...
and other than a 3 sentence "i'm busy" email, i haven't heard from you in almost 2 whole weeks...
...but you're not too busy to play beer pong and go to parties. and i know that just because i'm a lonely pathetic loser, that's no reason you can't go off with your friends and do whatever you want... after all, i don't own you, you're not my boyfriend, you're not even my best friend...
but it still hurts me... that once again there's someone in my life who's so much more important to me than i am to them.
and it hurts me that my fear that you were only calling/emailing me all the time because you were on restriction and *couldn't* go out with your friends and i was just always available to kill time with is true... it took about 2 weeks for it to fully happen, but it happened - you're "real" friends all realized you're available again, and i'm thrown aside.
and it really, really hurts. and it hurts that's there's really no way i could ever tell you that.
and other than a 3 sentence "i'm busy" email, i haven't heard from you in almost 2 whole weeks...
...but you're not too busy to play beer pong and go to parties. and i know that just because i'm a lonely pathetic loser, that's no reason you can't go off with your friends and do whatever you want... after all, i don't own you, you're not my boyfriend, you're not even my best friend...
but it still hurts me... that once again there's someone in my life who's so much more important to me than i am to them.
and it hurts me that my fear that you were only calling/emailing me all the time because you were on restriction and *couldn't* go out with your friends and i was just always available to kill time with is true... it took about 2 weeks for it to fully happen, but it happened - you're "real" friends all realized you're available again, and i'm thrown aside.
and it really, really hurts. and it hurts that's there's really no way i could ever tell you that.
"lonely doesn't even begin to cover it."
faegirl is notoriously bad at keeping up with places
i the disco cow
faegirl is notoriously bad at keeping up with places
i the disco cow
- Stefani140
- just plain inspiring
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why the fuck did you have to chose today to want to pick a fight?! I can hardly string a coherent thought together, let alone a damn sentence! yet today is the day you decide to challenge me on everything and be difficult. do you want to fucking fight with me? Is that it? you want an argument when I'm not at my best? Then you immediately say you didn't mean it that way when I argue? I don't have the energy for this today, so for now...fuck you.
"Even if you're the lone voice in the wilderness, it does not mean you're wrong."
PMs, comments, challenges, advice and hugs welcome.
My Place: http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=128060
PMs, comments, challenges, advice and hugs welcome.
My Place: http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=128060
- ambivalent red
- growing roots
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- Joined: Wed Aug 20, 2008 7:58 pm
- Location: buried deep inside of me
You are a bitch. You are a whore. You are the most selfish person in the world. Why did you not tell me Dad was ok? I could not reach him. Dont blame him, you bitch. It's your fault, it's always your fault! You are his wife, be a fucking wife and keep his children in the loop! And when we call pick up your fucking phone!!!!!!!!
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Hello my love. I thought of you today. I feel guilty to think of you, but I know who you are to me. You know it, too, dont you?
Please just ask me. Please just confirm I'm not the only one trapped in the ring.
Why cant you get out of my head?? Why did you take my heart when you moved?? Why the fuck cant I get it back and give it to my husband? I have your heart, what did you give your wife?
Why did you put thoses pictures on your myspace? I dont want to see your beautiful wedding. I want to see you happy, but I want you to want me, too.
I'm sorry I deleated your myspace from mine. I have to love my husband. I'm trying so hard. My doc says you are a ghost to me.
QUIT HAUNTING ME!!! I want my heart back, but I also want you to always have it. No matter what you will always have it.
When Borderline kicks in, it really kicks in!
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Hello my love. I thought of you today. I feel guilty to think of you, but I know who you are to me. You know it, too, dont you?
Please just ask me. Please just confirm I'm not the only one trapped in the ring.
Why cant you get out of my head?? Why did you take my heart when you moved?? Why the fuck cant I get it back and give it to my husband? I have your heart, what did you give your wife?
Why did you put thoses pictures on your myspace? I dont want to see your beautiful wedding. I want to see you happy, but I want you to want me, too.
I'm sorry I deleated your myspace from mine. I have to love my husband. I'm trying so hard. My doc says you are a ghost to me.
QUIT HAUNTING ME!!! I want my heart back, but I also want you to always have it. No matter what you will always have it.
When Borderline kicks in, it really kicks in!
There's no where to run
There's no where to hide
From what's in your mind - It's a Ghetto
-Supreme Beings Leisure
There's no where to hide
From what's in your mind - It's a Ghetto
-Supreme Beings Leisure
Part of my heart will always belong to you. Always.
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Friends like to tell me that I'm very pretty, that my personality is great, that my body rocks, and that I will never ever have trouble finding people. So, now that I'm elsewhere, why does no one notice me? Were they lying or are they blinded? Either way, they are wrong.
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Friends like to tell me that I'm very pretty, that my personality is great, that my body rocks, and that I will never ever have trouble finding people. So, now that I'm elsewhere, why does no one notice me? Were they lying or are they blinded? Either way, they are wrong.
Eisa = Beasty's Twin
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- ultimate starshine
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Please dont tell me this stuff. He is my boyfriend, dont fucking tell me i can do better, he can do better, that he is fat
I DONT GIVE A SHIT
there is obviously a reason why i have chosen him, you are meant to be my best friend, cant you juast be happy for me.
You have always had the cute boys, the fun, the attention, dont you think it might be nice for once if i had some attention. cant you do what i did and sit back and enjoy me being happy
do i not even deserve that!!!!
please!!!
I DONT GIVE A SHIT
there is obviously a reason why i have chosen him, you are meant to be my best friend, cant you juast be happy for me.
You have always had the cute boys, the fun, the attention, dont you think it might be nice for once if i had some attention. cant you do what i did and sit back and enjoy me being happy
do i not even deserve that!!!!
please!!!
I am 5th Sections mummy
RDS is my amazing sister
Elmoscaresme is my adorable niece
I am Eisa's Fairy
"The marks I make, The steps I take, Prove i still exist" ~ written by me."
"Never let the fear of striking out... stop you from playing the game" - A cinderella story
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- Pink_Stars
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- Ruby Tuesday
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there's always room for you within me.
"I saw spiders where there were no spiders" - patti smith
"'My hands', she said, 'I've left them somewhere and now I can't find them.' She was holding her hands in the air, helplessly, as if she couldn't move them.
'They're right there', I said, 'On the end of your arms'
'No, no', she said impatiently, 'Not those , those are no good anymore. My other hands, the ones I had before, the ones I could touch things with.'" - margaret atwood
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"'My hands', she said, 'I've left them somewhere and now I can't find them.' She was holding her hands in the air, helplessly, as if she couldn't move them.
'They're right there', I said, 'On the end of your arms'
'No, no', she said impatiently, 'Not those , those are no good anymore. My other hands, the ones I had before, the ones I could touch things with.'" - margaret atwood
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Am I forever meant to be the girl that doesn't fit in? The one who dresses a bit different, doesn't quite mesh with everyone else? The one that doesn't drink. The one that just sits at her computer and reads. The one who is shy beyond all measure. Me.
Eisa = Beasty's Twin
Beasty's Place!
- DecemberLivy
- just plain inspiring
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- Location: London
you are a selfish, hypocritical, awful person. sometimes I honestly don't know why I'm friends with you.
when you left me to go off with someone else today you have no idea how much that hurt me. you have no idea. but also, it made me angry, angry because I try so hard to improve your life and be everything to you and I get nothing in return. I'm not asking for the earth, I'm just asking for you to keep your promises. friends keep promises. if that's true then you, by definition, are not my friend.
you are always hurting me and I always forgive you. some part of me knows I'll forgive you for this as well. but how long will it be before you break another promise? before you prove, once again, that my friendship means absolutely nothing to you?
when you left me to go off with someone else today you have no idea how much that hurt me. you have no idea. but also, it made me angry, angry because I try so hard to improve your life and be everything to you and I get nothing in return. I'm not asking for the earth, I'm just asking for you to keep your promises. friends keep promises. if that's true then you, by definition, are not my friend.
you are always hurting me and I always forgive you. some part of me knows I'll forgive you for this as well. but how long will it be before you break another promise? before you prove, once again, that my friendship means absolutely nothing to you?
<center>my walpole cafe
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
I hate you so much for pretending to care, for hurting yourself because of me and then getting over it so quickly thinking that I'm a weak person for not being able to. I hate you for now being so fucking confident and constantly berating us for not doing as much as you, for me being anxious and scared. You know what? Don't you fucking getting shitty at me for not wanting to give you all my food from the food vouchers, they're not 'free' because they come with a fucking terrible mental illness that is eating me away slowly. They're not 'free' because I can't work because of this fucking mental illness. I'm NOT JUST LAZY and will you see that at some point? Or will you spend the entirety of our time together thinking like I'm a lesser person? Yes, I know you will. Maybe I am, but please stop making me feel like even more of a piece of shit because of it. Thank you. (Not really.)
- red umbrellas
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i'm sorry that i'm jealous. truly, i am happy for you. it's just that i'm sad for myself.
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seriously, why? why why why?
you are going to get sick of the sound of your own voice, methinks.
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seriously, why? why why why?
you are going to get sick of the sound of your own voice, methinks.
And excuses and excuses and excuses
Hold On To Yourself - Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
"We paint a picture of a scenario - and then we become afraid of it" - Andrea Fella
- Dorky&Weird2
- part of the fixtures
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i wish you guys would stop telling me all of your problems ,its not that i dont care its just that im sick of listening to you but you never wanna hear what I have to say!
& PM's are ok with me!
~My Place-*She* will be ~Loved~...{SI}
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"They took her moments of feeling alive,And made them moments of dying inside."~Annie-SafetySuit
~Tree Avvy made by the wonderful WDS
I love my cats
~My Place-*She* will be ~Loved~...{SI}
LAST SI-{2/8/10} <1year>
R.I.P.-Steve Irwin-9/4/06<3
"They took her moments of feeling alive,And made them moments of dying inside."~Annie-SafetySuit
~Tree Avvy made by the wonderful WDS
I love my cats
I wanted you to have text me. And told me I was better than the others. That there was only one other. That she doesn't matter. That I'm more important.
and tomorrow will come
When today is done...
"To me, photographyis an art of observation. It's all about finding something interesting in an ordinary place... I've found it has little to do with the things you see, and everything to do with the way you see them."
- Elliott Erwitt
When today is done...
"To me, photographyis an art of observation. It's all about finding something interesting in an ordinary place... I've found it has little to do with the things you see, and everything to do with the way you see them."
- Elliott Erwitt
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