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Post by Beasty » Wed Jul 09, 2008 5:18 am

I am afraid that I did the wrong thing by allowing myself to hope. So far it has gotten me nothing but tears and wrenching feelings in my gut.
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Post by prettyvacant » Sun Jul 13, 2008 2:42 pm

I wish I'd brought his letters with me. They're more reassuring than anything else. I wish there was a new one soon. I wish it didn't feel like he was just somewhere far away writing them. And sometimes I wonder if all this travelling is just to try and find where he is. Even though I don't want him and never really did.

I'm still terrified you're going to leave me. I never tell you because you said once it made you paranoid. So now I just squirrel it away with everything else. Safer there.
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sun Jul 13, 2008 11:19 pm

I have to dry my clothes this morning with a hair dryer :lol: sigh!
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Post by InsrSanityHere » Mon Jul 14, 2008 2:13 am

I am so, so deathly afraid of getting help.

I'm even more afraid of letting go.
In the deepest, darkest hour of the night, admit to yourself that you would die if you were forbidden to write. And ask yourself, the answer, where your heart spreads it roots to the deepest part, Must I write?
If there were no rewards to reap
I certainly would have walked away by now...
...and I still may.
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Post by Spidey » Mon Jul 14, 2008 2:42 am

I can't make the shaking stop.

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Mon Jul 14, 2008 4:16 am

i have been thinking about purging again.

*sigh*
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a :lpurpstar:

I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.

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Post by yellow_submarine » Mon Jul 14, 2008 8:18 am

I'm scared that I'm going to fail.
Keep Moving Forward. ~Meet the Robinsons
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Mon Jul 14, 2008 11:41 am

I just ate a whole bag of fruit chews instead of dinner, and I don't even care :roll:
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Post by Skyeler » Mon Jul 14, 2008 4:09 pm

Licentia Poetica wrote:I have to dry my clothes this morning with a hair dryer :lol: sigh!
Sometimes, if all my shirts are dirty, I wash one in the shower while I'm in it....


Most of the time I feel like I don't belong.
But I got my new favorite record today.
My favorites change every single day.
Except you,
You'll always be number one.
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Post by Callisto » Mon Jul 14, 2008 9:13 pm

i make myself be nihilistic about it all on purpose...because i'm fucking terrified of having hope in someone or something and letting myself be loved in case it never happens.
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Mon Jul 14, 2008 11:37 pm

Skyeler wrote:
Licentia Poetica wrote:I have to dry my clothes this morning with a hair dryer :lol: sigh!
Sometimes, if all my shirts are dirty, I wash one in the shower while I'm in it....
:1roflmao:
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Tue Jul 15, 2008 12:24 am

i want to give up,
but i'm one of those people that never does, ever.

And it kills me to keep picking up & being "fine" day after day.
when really i just want to lay in my bed and play dead.
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a :lpurpstar:

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Post by Ruby Tuesday » Tue Jul 15, 2008 1:16 pm

I can't rid myself of the feeling that I'm not worth it.
"I saw spiders where there were no spiders" - patti smith
"'My hands', she said, 'I've left them somewhere and now I can't find them.' She was holding her hands in the air, helplessly, as if she couldn't move them.
'They're right there', I said, 'On the end of your arms'
'No, no', she said impatiently, 'Not those , those are no good anymore. My other hands, the ones I had before, the ones I could touch things with.'" - margaret atwood

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Tue Jul 15, 2008 1:18 pm

I'm supposed to help a friend build a portfolio, so I got out all my uni stuff from the last 2 and a half years and.. - I've done a shitload of work! :o
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Post by HakunaMatata » Tue Jul 15, 2008 4:44 pm

That post was one of my most honest ones ever, cause I was having to be honest with myself and my feelings too.

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Post by underlife » Thu Jul 17, 2008 4:59 am

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Post by theunspoken » Thu Jul 17, 2008 6:32 am

I act like I’m confident and people depend on me being confident.

But I’m really just faking. I don’t know what the hell I’m doing most of the time.
Searching my way to perplexion

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"Why are you so negative?"
"Because I'm unhappy."
"And whose fault is that?"
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Post by smr89 » Thu Jul 17, 2008 11:27 am

I'm really hurting, I don't think you know how much. Do you wish I would just keep my mouth shut and go with it, even though it hurts me, makes me uncomfortable and I'm not at all OK with it?
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Post by prettyvacant » Thu Jul 17, 2008 3:27 pm

Unless a rat is fucking clamped to and swinging from your leg you really aren't going to get the plague. Or rabies. A rat ten feet away is no big fucking deal.
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Post by marshmallowfluff » Fri Jul 18, 2008 12:05 am

when im on the train or at the train station i always wonder if it would be going fast enough for me to die instantly if i was to jump onto the track...
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