last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

amok · Post by **amok** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 8:30 pm

i drank until i passed out

posting that in a forum called 'coping' feels silly but easy come easy go

Chey Kizoxie · Post by **Chey Kizoxie** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 11:17 pm

I didnt want to. I thought why cause more pain for myself. Id still have to deal with what triggered me in the first place.

NotWaving · Post by **NotWaving** » Tue Apr 08, 2008 12:35 am

butterflygirl348 wrote:too tired, not a good enough reason, and also didn't wanted to ruin my almost two years of being SI free... very long time... so is laziness an option?

Yes, laziness is most definitely an option, lol. Usually what stops me now (I have children so when I slip up it's always at night, and it's been a year now, plus before that 2 years SI free during my pregnancy and first year of youngest kids', my twins' lives) is LAZINESS seriously. I think "oh geez, another night at the hospital getting stitches, waiting in those rooms, getting talked to like crap, convincing them that after 20 years I *really* don't need to wait an extra 3 hours for some social worker who doesn't know me to come talk to me for 10 minutes just to let me go... I won't be home until 4-5 am, and then of course I've gotta get up at 6 am to start getting the kids going" ... by the time I'm done obsessing about pure logistics it's usually too late for me to do it, get stitches and get home in time, and I end up being able to fall asleep. How sad is that, lol.

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Tue Apr 08, 2008 2:47 am

beacuse i thought of the people that look up to me but even more so the ones that look down on me.

I thought of kw and how we had a talk about it and I said I was going to get it back under control. That I was si free for so long.

because people do worry.

because kC pointed out my new scars

Amneris · Post by **Amneris** » Thu Apr 24, 2008 4:54 am

because I know I'd feel even worse afterwards.

Chey Kizoxie · Post by **Chey Kizoxie** » Thu Apr 24, 2008 5:11 am

i didnt have anything to take care of it afterwords so i figured it wasnt worth it.

NobodyToYou · Post by **NobodyToYou** » Thu Apr 24, 2008 5:53 am

because I made the choice to quit and I am trying hard to stick with my decision...even though I don't feel like it all the time.

smr89 · Post by **smr89** » Thu Jun 12, 2008 5:44 pm

because its summer and i want to be able to wear dresses and sandles without giant cuts on my ankles

SarahBee · Post by **SarahBee** » Fri Jun 13, 2008 4:30 am

because I'm starting work in a week and the uniform shirt is short sleeves, and my Dad patrons the coffee shop. Because I decided to go to sleep instead. Because I was not going to let my anger at you for being cruel to me turn into myself being cruel.

Chey Kizoxie · Post by **Chey Kizoxie** » Fri Jun 13, 2008 4:32 pm

cause causing myself pain wasnt going to change the way i felt and id be more in a bad mood dealing with how to hide the si as well as still not having delt with the situation that was causing me problems in the first place.

5th section · Post by **5th section** » Sat Jun 14, 2008 12:58 pm

because I don't want to lose 6 months (& if I make it to 7 I'll have equalled my record, yay!)

Chey Kizoxie · Post by **Chey Kizoxie** » Sat Jun 14, 2008 2:09 pm

^^ Woot!

I didnt cause then i would be too busy taking care of my si instead of playing with my two cats

infectiousbrain89 · Post by **infectiousbrain89** » Tue Jun 17, 2008 10:42 pm

Because I'm afraid I wont be able to stop again if I do.

Everybody_Else's_Girl · Post by **Everybody_Else's_Girl** » Wed Jun 18, 2008 3:28 am

because i don't want my ex (hopefully soon to be bf) to think im crazy or unstable. maybe not the best reason in the world, but a bad reason is better than no reason.

Roxi · Post by **Roxi** » Mon Jun 23, 2008 7:20 pm

Too much clean time at stake - thoughts of the guilt afterwards made it worthwhile no to act on the urges

SarahBee · Post by **SarahBee** » Mon Jun 30, 2008 9:53 pm

Because I let myself cry instead.

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Tue Jul 01, 2008 6:15 am

because when I thought about it I felt stupid

screamtobreathe · Post by **screamtobreathe** » Sun Jul 06, 2008 10:32 pm

silverdragonfly wrote:i think that my natural tendency to procrastinate has actually served me well for this. i just keep putting it off, and putting it off . . .

ditto.
++i refuse to SH if it's because of *him. no more stupid reasons. i told myself that just because i couldn't cry doesn't mean i have to bleed to make up for the tears. and, it would hurt him if i did. which means he cares, and thinking that makes me smile. and if i'm smiling i don't need to anyways.....

joeygirl · Post by **joeygirl** » Wed Jul 09, 2008 10:53 pm

I didn't SI last time because I am stronger than my desire to do it. I wont let it beat me.

simplyme311 · Post by **simplyme311** » Thu Jul 10, 2008 8:41 am

because I knew it wouldn't solve any of my problems.

last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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