Just One Victory - Coping With Substance Abuse Problems

Touchtherainbow · Post by **Touchtherainbow** » Sun Aug 26, 2007 9:00 pm

hey guys. i know how u feel i ahve felt like m ylife has been constantly addiction jumping. ive managed to fight being anorexic and drugs and alcohol the only thing i have left to beat is SH. when i was anorexic i also go addicted to pills and exercise which i amaged to quit and now im a healthy size ten. And drugs i did heavily every day and i dont mean small amounts i mean big amounts for 6 years and i woke up one day and relaised if i didnt quit id be in the gutter so i stopped what i did was move dbak home where i knew the temptation was far less because i coulnt get hold of any and do you know what apart from occasional use once a year i ahve quit for 4 years which makes me so proud! and i can now be around plp doing drugs with it not botjereing me at all. I think i ahve an addictive personality so i get addicted to things too easily. and i ahve finalky managed to stop drinking as well now i have one a week and thats it so i have that far under control. . Because my dads dying sinc ei wa sten and i ahd to be a carer and didnt have a normal childhood i rebelled mxuh later in my 20s and i was tryign to forget the pain of everything. so it can be done if your strong enough. and i ahve lost a lot of plp because they didnt udnerstand why i turned back and quit scene but i knew in my heart it was right hing to do. so never give up hope.

Post by **splitimage** » Sun Sep 16, 2007 6:00 pm

I had a really bad craving to drink last week - the night before a job interview but I went to an AA meeting instead. This Wed., Sept. 19 will be 6 months sober for me which means I can apply to get my drivers licence back.

---splitimage

Chey Kizoxie · Post by **Chey Kizoxie** » Fri Oct 05, 2007 6:55 pm

I just relized it has been a very long time since ive abused cafeen pills.

lat65 · Post by **lat65** » Sun Oct 21, 2007 8:35 pm

I think I might be becoming addicted to prescription sedatives, but I don't know what to do. The panic attacks just get so bad, and come every day. I went all of yesterday without any pills, but lost it in the middle of the night and had to take something.

This isn't me. I just can't figure out how I got this desperate. And that only makes it all seem worse.

Rae Rae Badfingers · Post by **Rae Rae Badfingers** » Fri Nov 09, 2007 9:28 pm

I know I jump from addiction to addiction. Everything from alcohol, to cigarettes, to painkillers, to harder drugs. I thought I could stop whenever I wanted to, but I quickly learned that I haven't. Lately, all I have been doing is smoking cigarettes. I've had major major urges to drink or do drugs, but I've managed to not touch drugs since.. maybe 3 weeks ago. Last time I drank was about a week ago. It's really hard. Really freakin' hard. But, it's just such a natural reaction when things are going downhill to reach for those crutches and vices. I'm hoping that this stops soon.

Post by **Spidey** » Sat Nov 24, 2007 9:29 pm

I didn't take anything last weekend and this weekend, even though I've wanted to so, SO, SO BADLY. I still have my six-month streak of no misuse

Yay for white-knuckleing it through. I guess.

recovering4me · Post by **recovering4me** » Thu Dec 20, 2007 1:56 am

i haven't drank or smoked since monday, exept cigarettes of course

Chey Kizoxie · Post by **Chey Kizoxie** » Thu Dec 20, 2007 9:54 pm

I havnt overmedicated in a long time.

Librariana · Post by **Librariana** » Sat Dec 22, 2007 1:45 am

I have a year and two months sober now. For some reason, I don't give a golly doo darn about that. I'm struggling so much with the SI that if I even HAD a desire to drink, it would take a back seat to my desire to hurt myself. And they are one and the same, really.

I've discovered in the four months since I posted in this thread that I am an alcoholic, yes...but thank God for that. The drinking kept me alive. If I hadn't spent every night for a year and a half locked in my bedroom downing 1-2 fifths of vodka a night, I would not be here to tell the tale.

My problem isn't the alcohol, my problem is ME. The booze was covering up the greater shame, which was cutting. As long as I could pass out every night, I rarely got to the cutting part; maybe once-twice a month.

When I really got honest with myself, I realized that I would far rather cut than drink. But some part of my brain decided that being a drunk was better than being a cutter.

Since I've been sober, the SI has escalated dramatically. To the point of no return, just about. I'm in some VERY heavy treatment for this right now, and I'm stable most days. But what I really wish for were AA type meetings for SIers. I need them, badly. AA saved me from the bottle; I worked hard and gave up my obsession to drink. I turned it over. I'm not able to do that with the SI. Yet.

:sigh:

<<not comfy in my skin today. Ickaroonie.

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 2:03 am

I haven't used in almost three months. it scares the shit out of me.

gretchen.

Post by **splitimage** » Mon Mar 10, 2008 2:05 am

Been really triggered to both drink and to si this past week. I had 5 job interviews so my stress levels were really up. I won't drink though - I'm taking antabuse and my Nov. relapse really scared me. So far no si, I'm holding on, just barely. But I'll si before I drink.

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Tue Mar 11, 2008 5:24 am

glad you're holding on.

gretchen.

Angel12 · Post by **Angel12** » Tue Mar 11, 2008 11:56 am

I am 38 and have been on alcohol or dope or pills , or laxatives cause i want to loose weight soo bad. I finally don't feel like a freak, somebody is going through the same shit. It has been a week since i sh, but I am afraid because it has been a long time since I was off everything. I started drinking at 15. But hopefully some day I will be able to live my life without being under a cloud. I really want to stop using but I am afraid of who I am, cause I don't know anymore

. :1_week_si_free:

and sober
BUT STILL GETTING WASTED

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Wed Mar 12, 2008 6:34 am

I drank again.
somewhere I told myself I'd never drink again.

If I had gotten caught, I probably could've gotten arrested.

Angel12 · Post by **Angel12** » Wed Mar 12, 2008 11:46 am

I want to drink so bad,

breathing · Post by **breathing** » Thu Mar 20, 2008 3:38 am

I'm quitting again today.

It is 7:37 PM.
(where I am),

and I know I can do it.

recovering4me · Post by **recovering4me** » Thu Mar 27, 2008 4:02 am

Sober since march 15. only had a margarita at the bar last weekend. but now...

i really want to get drunk just to get away.

Angel12 · Post by **Angel12** » Tue Apr 01, 2008 12:10 am

PostPosted: Thu Mar 27, 2008 3:02 am Post subject:
Sober since march 15. only had a margarita at the bar last weekend. but now...
Hope you are ok, mind yourself

First day no whacky backy man is hard , 5 days sober

loveLights · Post by **loveLights** » Thu Apr 10, 2008 10:34 pm

i´ve been doing the whole 12 step thing, but i have trouble in the meetings. i know that without si i would be a total adict of any substance i could get my hands on, but the truth is that it´s hard to share in the meetings because i´m most likely to relaps on my si and not the drugs or alcohol.

Priceless · Post by **Priceless** » Fri Jun 06, 2008 11:23 pm

In 6 days i will have 3 years drugfree, and i can say it does get easier, at least i has for me.
And i have a little over 5 months cigarette free.
im so proud of myself.

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