Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
- Licentia Poetica
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I know you've been fucked around. But so have I. I can't promise it will be all okay, but I'm not her. And I can't prove that to you if you don't give me the chance. We don't *get* unlimited opportunities in this world to have the things that we want. And I want you. Please please please... want me too?
If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find.
John Churton Collins
- kittyfever
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- ultimate starshine
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I ,oved you and you fcking threw it back im my face. your not a man, your a monster and i can never foget your face yo have ruined my fucking life
I am 5th Sections mummy
RDS is my amazing sister
Elmoscaresme is my adorable niece
I am Eisa's Fairy
"The marks I make, The steps I take, Prove i still exist" ~ written by me."
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- Licentia Poetica
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oh please ali i need you. youre the only person i could talk to totally like i needed to, I need you please dont be dead. please, just for a day please
If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find.
John Churton Collins
- mephistopheles
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I know you won't come over this afternoon.
I wish you'd stop saying you'll do things and then not. I don't mind if you don't come round. It only hurts if you say you will and then don't. If you don't say anything then I don't expect it. Really, I expect nothing. So if you did nothing this would be fine. So next time, just shh.
I wish you'd stop saying you'll do things and then not. I don't mind if you don't come round. It only hurts if you say you will and then don't. If you don't say anything then I don't expect it. Really, I expect nothing. So if you did nothing this would be fine. So next time, just shh.
- DecemberLivy
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Ross: You're incredible. I honestly think you are one of the most incredible people I've ever met, and I have never used that word to describe a man before. They have always been wankers, losers, boring, selfish... it's like you've wiped the slate clean for all of mankind, just by existing.
You are not just incredible because of your energy and truth, but because of the circumstances in which we met. I was in a place I was clearly not comfortable, staring at people who oozed confidence and intelligence socialising around me. I thought I could never be one of them. And then, there you were. You didn't say a word, you just walked right over and beamed at me. We talked, I talked and you listened so intensely. I've never had that before.
One thing I remember vividly was when I was feeling very uncomfortable and claustraphobic, and I apologised to you and went over to the official to ask if it was ok if I could leave. He said yes, and I turned to go, and you slipped your hand into mine to go with me. You followed me, to make sure I was ok.
Do you know how it feels to know someone who is totally happy with who you are? Someone who notices things about you that others don't? I'll tell you, it's incredible. But for a little bit, I hated you. There were times when I honestly thought you were playing with me, pitying me. I hated you because of the way you made me feel. When you weren't there I felt so sad because, as a friend, I really loved you.
On the last day I wasn't sad it would be a while until we saw eachother again because I knew you'd make sure we said goodbye properly. And you did, you found me, hugged me, and told me you loved me. Then we said goodbye.
I saw you everday for just four days, while we were at this event, and you changed me beyond belief. I'm not afraid of people anymore. I really love you.
You are not just incredible because of your energy and truth, but because of the circumstances in which we met. I was in a place I was clearly not comfortable, staring at people who oozed confidence and intelligence socialising around me. I thought I could never be one of them. And then, there you were. You didn't say a word, you just walked right over and beamed at me. We talked, I talked and you listened so intensely. I've never had that before.
One thing I remember vividly was when I was feeling very uncomfortable and claustraphobic, and I apologised to you and went over to the official to ask if it was ok if I could leave. He said yes, and I turned to go, and you slipped your hand into mine to go with me. You followed me, to make sure I was ok.
Do you know how it feels to know someone who is totally happy with who you are? Someone who notices things about you that others don't? I'll tell you, it's incredible. But for a little bit, I hated you. There were times when I honestly thought you were playing with me, pitying me. I hated you because of the way you made me feel. When you weren't there I felt so sad because, as a friend, I really loved you.
On the last day I wasn't sad it would be a while until we saw eachother again because I knew you'd make sure we said goodbye properly. And you did, you found me, hugged me, and told me you loved me. Then we said goodbye.
I saw you everday for just four days, while we were at this event, and you changed me beyond belief. I'm not afraid of people anymore. I really love you.
<center>my walpole cafe
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
- mephistopheles
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I wish you could at least pretend it doesn't make you want to abandon me. This unspoken conversation and understanding between us is tearing me up.
If you hate me for my SI, just tell me, goddamnit.
I fucked everything up by just standing there and existing, didn't I? Why can't you just give me permission to stop being? Because I'm too much of a coward to decide on my own.
I've planted myself between living and dead and I don't want you to wind up somewhere in this nowhere with me.
If you hate me for my SI, just tell me, goddamnit.
I fucked everything up by just standing there and existing, didn't I? Why can't you just give me permission to stop being? Because I'm too much of a coward to decide on my own.
I've planted myself between living and dead and I don't want you to wind up somewhere in this nowhere with me.
<center>N’oublie jamais que le corps n’oublie jamais.
Never forget that the body never forgets.
0 days SI free
[since 3/29/08]
Slips: 5
I screwed up. Again.
Maiden and Chaos
The Luscious Shadow</center>
Never forget that the body never forgets.
0 days SI free
[since 3/29/08]
Slips: 5
I screwed up. Again.
Maiden and Chaos
The Luscious Shadow</center>
- kittyfever
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- 5th section
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will you just tell me what's going on? i've tried. I don't see what more I'm supposed to do
Do I deserve this?
probably.
Do I deserve this?
probably.
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
- my place
- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
GOING STRAIGHT SINCE 1ST DECEMBER 2009
- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
- my place
- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
GOING STRAIGHT SINCE 1ST DECEMBER 2009
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oh well now I feel really silly...but relieved. Thank you.
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
- my place
- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
GOING STRAIGHT SINCE 1ST DECEMBER 2009
- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
- my place
- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
GOING STRAIGHT SINCE 1ST DECEMBER 2009
- DecemberLivy
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I can't take your mood swings. I really need you to decide whether I'm your friend or not. You don't support me in anything I do, when I told you I was giving up dairy products you just lectured me on how stupid and naive I was being. I still haven't forgiven you for not turning up to the fairtade fashion show I organised that meant so much to me. (and I know you know how much it meant to me.)
How can you think it's ok to just blank me for hours at a time? I'm a person, not a rock and I hate being treated this way. A friend is supposed to be there for you no matter how bad OR good you feel! It's like as soon as my life improves and I'm in a good mood you get jealous and start treating me like crap. I'm sorry, but I won't sacrifice my own happiness to keep you and your low standards satisfied. You've become agressive, and harsh, and sometimes I just don't recognise you at all. Do you know how long it's been since I heard you laugh?
I just want you to act like my friend.
How can you think it's ok to just blank me for hours at a time? I'm a person, not a rock and I hate being treated this way. A friend is supposed to be there for you no matter how bad OR good you feel! It's like as soon as my life improves and I'm in a good mood you get jealous and start treating me like crap. I'm sorry, but I won't sacrifice my own happiness to keep you and your low standards satisfied. You've become agressive, and harsh, and sometimes I just don't recognise you at all. Do you know how long it's been since I heard you laugh?
I just want you to act like my friend.
<center>my walpole cafe
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
- fadingbutterfly
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- daisy_chain
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i wish i could tell people,
those who wanted to od.
please don't.
it kills those around you.
it's awful visiting the hospital.
it's awful wondering why,
wondering if there was something you could have done,
could have stopped it.
it makes people question their own lives
it's the most unsettling experience.
please, re-consider.
those who wanted to od.
please don't.
it kills those around you.
it's awful visiting the hospital.
it's awful wondering why,
wondering if there was something you could have done,
could have stopped it.
it makes people question their own lives
it's the most unsettling experience.
please, re-consider.
- caged bird
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i hate that you're so fucking sceptical, that this job, this line of work has made you all doubt the things that come out of people's mouths. i get it, you're lied to a lot, you 'know' people it's 'waht they do' but what if you're wrong, could you genuinely live with that on your conscience if you did nothing.
you bailed on her when she asked for help, what sort of a health system is that. it frightens me that i was talked about the same way, it frightens me more that i could turn into you.
you bailed on her when she asked for help, what sort of a health system is that. it frightens me that i was talked about the same way, it frightens me more that i could turn into you.
Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
Thieves and Kings: Volume Two by Mark Oakly
The line between normal and crazy seemed impossibly thin. A person would have to be an expert tightrope walker in order not to fall.
Running with scissors - Augusten Burroughs
- kittyfever
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- powdahchica
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I'm really happy we're back together, but if you come over now and end things again, I'm not sure we'll ever be the same.
Please don't. I like you a lot.
Please don't. I like you a lot.
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