last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

pelagic · Post by **pelagic** » Mon Dec 31, 2007 12:57 pm

Because things will get better... right?

Nursing_girl · Post by **Nursing_girl** » Mon Dec 31, 2007 7:47 pm

I read a book and tried to think positively.

porcelain · Post by **porcelain** » Thu Jan 03, 2008 1:04 am

I told myself it wasn't worth all the hassle and the consequences.

5th section · Post by **5th section** » Sun Jan 06, 2008 12:56 pm

I was 1 day off a month and wasn't going to spoil it

Glockenspiel · Post by **Glockenspiel** » Tue Jan 15, 2008 6:37 pm

I performed all my morning tasks and then took care of what was causing the urge.

red_viola · Post by **red_viola** » Wed Jan 16, 2008 5:07 am

I told myself to go on BUS and respond to 5 posts before I did anything I got totally sidetracked (I'm good at that.)

lily_trying · Post by **lily_trying** » Mon Jan 21, 2008 5:12 am

i was able to wait out the urges.

ShellyT · Post by **ShellyT** » Wed Jan 23, 2008 6:03 pm

I guess I just really didn't want to.

zombiepeople · Post by **zombiepeople** » Thu Jan 24, 2008 1:57 am

I was at school and I didnt' want them to send me to CAPS.

ComfortablyNumb · Post by **ComfortablyNumb** » Thu Jan 24, 2008 8:28 am

Because I didn't want to lose my time that I haven't si-ed.

fadingbutterfly · Post by **fadingbutterfly** » Thu Jan 24, 2008 1:10 pm

Because it was too late at night to pull myself out of bed to do it.

Decrescendo · Post by **Decrescendo** » Sat Jan 26, 2008 1:17 am

i ran out of room.

5th section · Post by **5th section** » Sat Jan 26, 2008 9:41 pm

I found a red pen before I could find a tool

Blake 1 · Post by **Blake 1** » Sat Jan 26, 2008 9:42 pm

I didn't want to disapoint you.

smr89 · Post by **smr89** » Sun Jan 27, 2008 9:16 am

I'm over it. Thats a whole other life for me. If I do it again that mean I havent really changed and I wont go back to that place. Plus, he would find out and I'd just die if that happened because he would be disappointed and likely a little bit disgusted.

KittyCath · Post by **KittyCath** » Mon Jan 28, 2008 12:53 am

I could hear my T's voice in the back of my mind, Dont do it just try to make it through and breath damn it breath. It worked and I didnt...........Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

searching_for_solace · Post by **searching_for_solace** » Thu Jan 31, 2008 7:07 pm

Because everyone knows now, and will be disipointed in me if I do.
Because everyone knows now, and will make fun of me and hurt my feelings.
Because my best friend loves me, and doesn't want me to hurt myself.
Because a trip to the hospital would set me behind in my collage classes.
Because I don't have blades,
because a trip to the hospital again would cost a LOT
because I want to move on in life
Because I don't want to go even more often to the councilar who thinks I'm a satinist
Because I will never move on in life if I don't quit

Instead I caleld a friend. Unfortunatly I started crying, and he hung up on me, and wouldn't call back even though I left a bazillion messages and called a buncha times. That made things worse and I was franticly searching the house home alone for something to tear myself up with when I found my sleeping pills. (fortunitly I am only allowed access to one at a time, so no I wasn't planning on killing myself.)

So I took a half a pill and went to sleep for 15 hours. When I woke up the voices were gone.

amyfairy · Post by **amyfairy** » Sat Feb 02, 2008 12:21 am

i don't think it is what i really want.
because it wouldn't change anything,
and i've moved on.

Post by **Spidey** » Sat Feb 02, 2008 1:30 am

because GODDAMN is TMN a good distraction

lily_trying · Post by **lily_trying** » Mon Feb 04, 2008 5:37 am

i was able to keep distracting.

bus

last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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