i'm trying to get thru and ajust not be able to see my son
since his mother is useing him aginst me to hurt me and just crush me as she think so is going to break me and boot me out of his life
now i am not going to give up the fight to be involed w/ him in anyway
she is useing my s/i'ing as her reson why
but he is aculty what makes me want to stop and i have explained that to her
anyways thoe i dont know how to handle the empty feeling i have inside of me its almost like i died inside i have already slipped and i am trying to prevent myself from going into a major S/I bing witch is quit common for me to do when i'm majorly distessed and trying to ajust to something massisive
so my questoin is how do counter act that dead empty failure worthless good for nothing pure rage feeling becuse my idenetly and insperashoin for fighting as been stripped from me
i'm not takeing things well can someone please help me out
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i'm not takeing things well can someone please help me out
Sometimes I feel like my sun as run away. Drifting from here to there and the feeling stays the same. The thoughts stay in my head and they always haunt me.......
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that's horrible, I'm sorry.
I don't know much about this, can you talk to a lawyer at all? I don't think they can keep you from *seeing* him, can they?
You aren't worthless, or horrible. It sounds like you have some issues with his mother, and *she's* being the unfair one in bringing those issues into your relationship with your son. She is really doing him a diservice in the end. Is there anyone you can get to speak to her on your behalf maybe?
Sometimes someone objective can see things clearer, and appeal to her reason.
I hope that you manage to get past those feelings. Hopefully the thoughts of how badly you want to be in his life will eventually get you where you need to be so you have the strength to fight for that.
I don't know much about this, can you talk to a lawyer at all? I don't think they can keep you from *seeing* him, can they?
You aren't worthless, or horrible. It sounds like you have some issues with his mother, and *she's* being the unfair one in bringing those issues into your relationship with your son. She is really doing him a diservice in the end. Is there anyone you can get to speak to her on your behalf maybe?
Sometimes someone objective can see things clearer, and appeal to her reason.
I hope that you manage to get past those feelings. Hopefully the thoughts of how badly you want to be in his life will eventually get you where you need to be so you have the strength to fight for that.
If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find.
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i know at some point i have to aloud to see him when i think rasalny about it
but its the getting to that point that is not eazy
for me atlest
but its the getting to that point that is not eazy
for me atlest
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Can you try and channel your emotions in regards to this situation into planning something nice for you and your son to do together?
Even if you do not have a date yet, have a nice event planned for the pair of you.
That way all of the overwhelming emotion you have is being channeled into something positive; instead of something negative which you have admitted your son's mother is using against you.
Adam
Even if you do not have a date yet, have a nice event planned for the pair of you.
That way all of the overwhelming emotion you have is being channeled into something positive; instead of something negative which you have admitted your son's mother is using against you.
Adam
"Sit with the pain" she says. "Stay with the emptiness; it can take shape if you don't fill it."
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thats a good idea i'm gonna try that one
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