Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Geordie » Sat Jan 12, 2008 4:26 pm

Being told I'm "normal" is the worst thing someone could say to me. Hearing it hurts like stabbing. Wouldn't be a secret, but everyone I know reassures me that I am, and I can't bring myself to tell them how much damage they're doing.
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Post by vampirelover » Sat Jan 12, 2008 8:03 pm

I think im a lesbian
longest with no slips - 2 years , 6 months
time since last slip : 2 days

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Post by Holi » Sun Jan 13, 2008 12:08 pm

I hate myself, I hate how I can never do anything right, I just want to die, I just want to crawl into bed, and never wake up again.

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Post by xStarBright » Sun Jan 13, 2008 4:02 pm

I don't think I care if everything goes wrong, but that's not what makes a 'good' person..
don't worry if i'm not here - i come and go. :cowsleep:
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Post by Callisto » Sun Jan 13, 2008 9:51 pm

im becoming more and more scared of going to work these days.

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Post by silenceBROKEN » Mon Jan 14, 2008 3:07 am

I know I can do this, but I'going to need some help. I want yours because I can't get his.
:cystar: I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd. :cystar:

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Post by lily_trying » Mon Jan 14, 2008 11:28 pm

i keep feeling unsafe when i'm alone, and i'm afraid to bother anyone by telling them.

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Post by marshmallowfluff » Tue Jan 15, 2008 8:37 pm

i hate that she is keeping me alive.
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Post by xStarBright » Tue Jan 15, 2008 9:28 pm

i have an obsessive thought of death..

"oh wow, if i run out now i would be DEAD"

"i wish i was DEAD"

"well, i know x is going on in september, but i'm not sure if i'll be around"
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Post by lily_trying » Tue Jan 15, 2008 11:03 pm

i know it wouldn't be right, but right now it seems like everything would be so much easier if i was still together with them.

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Post by Cellardoor » Wed Jan 16, 2008 1:10 am

i think she feels it too. :o
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Wed Jan 16, 2008 2:58 am

i'm lonely.

all the time.
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Post by ShellyT » Wed Jan 16, 2008 3:33 am

It kills me to say this. I think I'm attracted to him because I'm not satisfied with our sex life.
Essentially SI free for a 10 years now. Go me!

After all that bus has done for me in the past, I'm giving back. :heart:

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Post by strmdncr » Thu Jan 17, 2008 9:29 am

Right now I completely despise you and your self centered, look no further than own self serving wants way of being. I am reluctant to admit I am related to you.
A friend is someone who believes in you even when you've ceased to believe in yourself. (unknown)

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Post by ShellyT » Thu Jan 17, 2008 2:03 pm

Even though I'm in a committed relationship, even though I love him with all my heart...I want to f*ck my best friend. :oops:
Essentially SI free for a 10 years now. Go me!

After all that bus has done for me in the past, I'm giving back. :heart:

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Post by mephistopheles » Thu Jan 17, 2008 3:32 pm

i'm bloody terrified of this exam
which is why im not revising enough
because then if i fail it's not because i'm stupid
it's because i didn't revise
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

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Post by Holi » Sat Jan 19, 2008 9:10 pm

Why am I feeling like this? I don't even know him, Its making me feel horrible, can't I just forget everything. I want to go back to sleep, to live in my dreams.
They are so much better than the real world

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Post by xStarBright » Sat Jan 19, 2008 9:11 pm

1 step forward two step's back. I'm still in contact with him

WHEN HE'S A FUCKING CUNT
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Post by Scatterbrain » Sat Jan 19, 2008 10:09 pm

I want so badly to tell you, but my fear of letting anyone in doesnt allow me to. I live with you.. I should be able to be open, and I'm pretty sure you wouldnt flip out. But I cant because that would constitute letting someone in.
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I miss having someone to talk to. Just anyone who already knows about the past and would just listen.. But there is no one like that anymore.

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I'm not here/This isn't happening"
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Post by Peege » Sat Jan 19, 2008 11:05 pm

i'm invisible

And the birds up on the wires and the telegraph poles
They can always fly away from this rain and this cold


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