before i think i can i think i can i think i can

[mikedemons]

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
i am very jigtery and urgey i have lot of odd feeling and thoughts running thru my mind damn x girlfreinds that over my house unanounsed

Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? well i thought i burryed all this crap back when i got over her but damn it i did the same thing i want to do now and even worse but i only want si nothing else from then


What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me? kicked her out of my house and now i'm here


How do I feel right now? mad mad mad aAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH sad and i do f'i in miss her so i am confused


How will I feel when I am hurting myself? i dont care i want clam my jigitery urges


How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
sad becuse i'll break my streak

Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future? move just f'in move to mexico and change my name to taco or something i dont f'in know


Do I need to hurt myself? i want say no but i dont know but thanks for askin becuse so damn up in this mania dont help

[ChaseThisLight]

Ex's can really be a big trigger. I'm glad you're able to identify what's causing you to feel the urge to SI. Is there any way you can talk things out with her? Would that be helpful? I know with some of my ex-boyfriends it would be helpful to be able to talk through what went wrong, so we can both learn from it, but with others it wouldn't be helpful. Anger can be a problem for me too. Do you have a favorite way to relax? Mine is taking a walk outside. It helps clear my head.

[mikedemons]

well when we slipt i kind of came home to find her sitting on top some dude that wasnt me so talking to her about it then or this long after the fact ranks right up there w/ pullin out my teeth so i am gonna have to say no but it sucks becuse i was really invested into her and for some reason still kind miss her and all that junk
i'm really into music singing and playing drums so my favort thing is to go into my music room grab a mic and crank up the pa as loud as i can and sing along w/ the cds i make to fit my mood i kind of disconnet the same way i would when si and ose myself in the music and feeling if that dont work and i sit need to si i have been useing a red marker on the spots i want to si in and its been helping me