i need to know (could i be feeding my own maina swing)

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i need to know (could i be feeding my own maina swing)

Post by mikedemons » Thu Dec 27, 2007 6:23 am

i have been wounder if maybe i could be feeding my own mania by takeing so much pride in this streak of si free days becuse it's after midnight so even thoe i wont add another day onto my streak untill i wake up tomorrow i havent had no real urges tonight so i'm happy and proud of that to and it seems like the joy in sayng that to myself out loud or just thinking it makes me feel i can just bounce off the walls like i go up way past the base line i have been at durning this up streak if fact this up streak started when i made it thru sunday night i took a shower to wash off the marker i had all over my arms from subing my tools for a marker that when it hit me i made it thru the night and tears came out then as i was washing the marker i started just laughing uncontrolable
and that was the last thing i can recall before the maina kicked in
Sometimes I feel like my sun as run away. Drifting from here to there and the feeling stays the same. The thoughts stay in my head and they always haunt me.......
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Post by megseh » Thu Dec 27, 2007 6:59 am

I can't give you much advice about the mania (sorry) but I can agree with you on the happy and proud feeling you get when you've been a few days without SI. It's the first time in a long time I felt like I don't NEED it, and it makes me very happy.
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Post by mikedemons » Thu Dec 27, 2007 7:06 am

that the way i am feeling tonight i normaly have urges all night long till finaly eather give up and give in to or stay strong and pass out for the night and going to sleep as not been and easy thing for me lately eather
i am so exsited that i am so close to one full week now
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Post by megseh » Thu Dec 27, 2007 7:09 am

yay for us! It's only been 3 days for me, but that is an accomplishment for me.
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Post by mikedemons » Thu Dec 27, 2007 7:12 am

:rofl: :1hug3: :moo: :moo:


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yeah this streak as been my best in a while
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Thu Dec 27, 2007 2:38 pm

I very much doubt it's possible to "feed your mania". Well done on your streak :redstar:
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Post by mikedemons » Thu Dec 27, 2007 5:38 pm

thanks i've just noticed that when i think about good things about myself and exspeal my si free streak i get so exsided inside i feel i'll expode
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