Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
- southsider
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Dear you,
I feel like I should respect you, but I don't really LIKE you. I feel guilty for not being able to hold you in the high regard I've always been told that I SHOULD. You've done a lot to lose respect in my eyes. I don't want to give you another chance because I don't think I can be honest with you about a lot of things in my life-- both things I've chosen and things I've had foisted upon me. Also, I'm afraid that you'll think I'm a failure.
I think that, on some level, I'm always going to have respect for you, simply by virtue of what you've been to me. However, that's completely overshadowed by the fact that I have no respect for you and don't see eye to eye with you about anything.
I doubt your level of honesty.
And I don't want to be a pawn or a trophy any more.
I feel like it's a waste of my time to communicate with you, because I can't be myself around you, and I can't level with you about things that go on in my life because you'll then treat me like I'm some stupid child who can't take care of herself... even though I've been taking care of myself for some time, now.
I know that I'm not giving you a lot of credit, but I just can't bring myself to give you another chance. Even though it's been so long. Even though I fear that I'm burning my bridges. Even though you're probably talking about me like I'm Satan incarnate. I can't bring myself to become ensconced in that vortex of bullshit again. Not now, maybe not ever. There's too much at stake.
Sorry.
I feel like I should respect you, but I don't really LIKE you. I feel guilty for not being able to hold you in the high regard I've always been told that I SHOULD. You've done a lot to lose respect in my eyes. I don't want to give you another chance because I don't think I can be honest with you about a lot of things in my life-- both things I've chosen and things I've had foisted upon me. Also, I'm afraid that you'll think I'm a failure.
I think that, on some level, I'm always going to have respect for you, simply by virtue of what you've been to me. However, that's completely overshadowed by the fact that I have no respect for you and don't see eye to eye with you about anything.
I doubt your level of honesty.
And I don't want to be a pawn or a trophy any more.
I feel like it's a waste of my time to communicate with you, because I can't be myself around you, and I can't level with you about things that go on in my life because you'll then treat me like I'm some stupid child who can't take care of herself... even though I've been taking care of myself for some time, now.
I know that I'm not giving you a lot of credit, but I just can't bring myself to give you another chance. Even though it's been so long. Even though I fear that I'm burning my bridges. Even though you're probably talking about me like I'm Satan incarnate. I can't bring myself to become ensconced in that vortex of bullshit again. Not now, maybe not ever. There's too much at stake.
Sorry.
Last edited by southsider on Thu Oct 18, 2007 7:20 am, edited 1 time in total.
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Just letting you all know that I'm listening to each and every one of you.
If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find.
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one day I'll be the one who lets you down and then you'll notice me alright.
Isn't it obvious I'm only round here until I hve to be? then I'll be off. For good.
Isn't it obvious I'm only round here until I hve to be? then I'll be off. For good.
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
- Anna James (1984-2007)
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- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
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- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
GOING STRAIGHT SINCE 1ST DECEMBER 2009
I want to see you, but I think that you'll get sick of me and annoyed with me.
I want to just cry on your shoulder and earn your comfort, but I am afraid that it will only be an inconvenience.
I want to tell you how miserable I'm feeling at the moment, but I can't stop myself from saying, "I'm fine."
I want to just cry on your shoulder and earn your comfort, but I am afraid that it will only be an inconvenience.
I want to tell you how miserable I'm feeling at the moment, but I can't stop myself from saying, "I'm fine."
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Fuck you! You're supposed to stand up for me, to not let people mess with me. How could you just sit there and do nothing!?!
Never to suffer would never to have been blessed.
-Edgar Allan Poe
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- fadingbutterfly
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Thank you for the ride out to my car when it was pouring rain today. It was amazing just to see you.
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if you dont like me fucking tell me to my face. im sick of hearing about your bitching behind my back
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i wish you would realise that i know exactly how you feel so maybe i do know what im saying when i talk to you
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i wish you would realise that i know exactly how you feel so maybe i do know what im saying when i talk to you
<center>R.I.P. 23/07/89 - 05/11/01
R.I.P. 1953-2008
counting stars
im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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R.I.P. 1953-2008
counting stars
im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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- southsider
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nevermind, sorry
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Thank you.
Thank you for talking with me.
Thank you for listening to me.
Thank you for giving me the wonderful advice that you always have.
Thank you for sitting in the cold with me for an hour.
Thank you for caring.
Thank you for getting upset when I accused you of not caring.
Thank you for the hug.
Thank you so much for being there.
I love you.
~Megan
Thank you for talking with me.
Thank you for listening to me.
Thank you for giving me the wonderful advice that you always have.
Thank you for sitting in the cold with me for an hour.
Thank you for caring.
Thank you for getting upset when I accused you of not caring.
Thank you for the hug.
Thank you so much for being there.
I love you.
~Megan
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
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I'm not here/This isn't happening"
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- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
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how many times have 'we' been here before.
how many times have 'we' said this.
and how many times have 'we' gone back on 'our' word?
its all bullshit.
you're bullshit.
if only you knew people are laughing at you now
how many times have 'we' said this.
and how many times have 'we' gone back on 'our' word?
its all bullshit.
you're bullshit.
if only you knew people are laughing at you now
"Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax
so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now"
"VITA YOY EST VIVERE SED VALERE VITA EST."
-There is more to life than just being alive.
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im cutting again.
im so sorry.
im so sorry.
I built my house,
Where the ocean meets the land,
It's time to live again,
And pull my dreams out of the sand.
(take the pieces and build them skywards)
(expressions)
FOUR YEARS HAPPY AND FREE!
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