Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Binayshee · Post by **Binayshee** » Sat Sep 01, 2007 3:18 pm

when i first saw you my impression was that
you were deeply sad and also that you were
physically ill and may not even be around
too long. i decided to love you. i thought
that love was what you needed most. i
wanted to do that for you, give you that
gift but in the end i couldn't because i
wanted certain things for myself. i
couldn't do that anymore. and i'm not
even sure that's the basis for a healthy
relationship. and i don't want to be taking
care of someone else all my life. i'm just
getting ready to get a life of my own back
now after many years of being a single
parent. it would be a tragedy for me to
go right into taking care of someone else.
i think i deserve a little breathing room and
to find out what it's like to take care of me.

_____iamacliche · Post by **_____iamacliche** » Sat Sep 01, 2007 4:25 pm

i've never had someone who cares as much as you. thank you. <3

_____iamacliche · Post by **_____iamacliche** » Sat Sep 01, 2007 8:40 pm

i miss you. so fucking much. honestly. it hurts more than i'm letting on. you know why? because i want you here. and yes, i know you're back soon, but still. it doesn't hurt any less. i miss the way that whenever you signed on msn i'd get the biggest fucking smile ever on my face, because i know that you'd cheer me up. i want you. i want to be with you, you know that, right? you know how much you mean to me, don't you? i'm never going to let you go, i promise. i love you.

troubles undone · Post by **troubles undone** » Sat Sep 01, 2007 9:44 pm

you were soooo fucking anxious about this relationship; they even put you on beta blockers and gave you counselling because the thought of it turned you into a wreck.
and now you're fucking him while there are 4 other people in the room.
where did the apprihension go?
you're just gonna end up get hurt, as always because all you want is the sex.
and guess who's gonna be the fucking agony aunt when things get screwed up?

_____iamacliche · Post by **_____iamacliche** » Sat Sep 01, 2007 9:50 pm

<small>i hate hate hate not being in control.

_____iamacliche · Post by **_____iamacliche** » Sun Sep 02, 2007 6:44 pm

<small>and now i feel like a complete and utter fucking failure as a person. thank you.

xx mimi xx · Post by **xx mimi xx** » Sun Sep 02, 2007 11:45 pm

I dont care about him more than I care about you! Im sorry you feel that way. I hate that you feel that way. Youre hurt cause you think I care about him more? Well Im hurt that you think like that. Youre my sister!! No matter what you feel you should know that I care about you more! I cant believe Im even getting upset about this. I dont want to play this game! its stupid and childish and dumb! Who I care about more...I mean really! Come on!
I know youre my sister, but I see you every day...I havent seen him in a while! I love you but I love him too and I just want to see him tomorrow. I miss him..I miss him holding me and I miss seeing him say 'I love you' Why do we have to be there all day? Cant we leave early? I want to see him. I miss him...Im sorry..I dont want you to think I care about him more. Thats why I havent said anything. Thats why Im going tomorrow.. Because youre my sister.

x3 mimi

Post by **treasure** » Mon Sep 03, 2007 12:27 am

dad, i didn't call yesterday because i'm scared that if i talk to you about anything at all i will be agreeing with your reasons for hitting my sister last year. she is your daughter too and it's not ok to treat her like that. i know it was a while ago and you may have even forgotten but i can't until both of you sort it out. why are you not talking to her - do you realise how childish that is? and how unhelpful? we don't talk about abuse in our family and it sickens me that abuse can happen and everyone ignores it. you don't have my respect any more but i hope you will email me or talk to A and that will earn back some of my respect. until then i hope i can avoid talking to you because it is for you to fix not me. i still love you though and wish i could say happy father's day without it meaning something else to me. love treasure.

zombiepeople · Post by **zombiepeople** » Mon Sep 03, 2007 4:38 am

You didnt' care jack-shit about me...you just wanted me for it and i gave it to because I thought I loved you and I though you loved me. Now I'm alone, and you have another girl you "love". Even though I broke up with you, you still broke my heart. I gave you my everything, heart, mind, and body, and you made me into a joke. Well I don't care about you anymore, and I hope your new girlfriend sees quickly what a bastard you are.

_____iamacliche · Post by **_____iamacliche** » Mon Sep 03, 2007 12:51 pm

<small>thank you. for everything. for never giving up on me. for giving me a chance to prove how true to you i am. for letting me show you how much i can sort myself out. for giving me another chance for both of us to be truly happy. you'll never know much i love you for this, babe. never. you're my world. <3

Binayshee · Post by **Binayshee** » Mon Sep 03, 2007 3:42 pm

i feel disappointed in you. you cavort with people
who are rude, insensitive, narcisstic, emotionally
abusive to others. why would do you do that?
don't you have any principles?

Binayshee · Post by **Binayshee** » Mon Sep 03, 2007 5:18 pm

i'm sorry. i feel bad for judging you now.

you are my friend and there are lots of things
i like about you. i just feel hurt sometimes by
things you do or don't do. it reminds me so
much of my mother. she was never there
for me and she always associated with people
who i thought were beneath her. the only friend
of hers i ever thought was cool/somebody i
could actually look up to was a superior she
used to have lunch with sometimes at work.
she always chose people who were beneath
her. she let creepy fuckers around me. i
guess i'm projecting some of those things
on you.

southsider · Post by **southsider** » Tue Sep 04, 2007 11:30 am

i want to ask you a question so, so badly, but i am afraid of being too intrusive and therefore pushing you away. So I'll just leave it as- thanks for being there for me and thanks for your understanding.

DecemberLivy · Post by **DecemberLivy** » Tue Sep 04, 2007 12:06 pm

I know you think I'm over him and we're mates, which is true, but sometimes you can be a little insensitive about the subject. You joke about him alot, and tell people things I'd rather they didn't hear. I don't understand why you can't just give me closure, I don't want to talk about him, I don't want to joke about him. I just wish you'd appreciate the fact that he is no longer a part of my life and everytime you bring him up it's like I can't move on.

Yes, he didn't mean much to me, I cheated on him and used him. I was cruel to him, though he loved me. I am not proud of how I acted, can't you see I want to leave that part of my life behind? Everytime you tell me about his new job, or his exams, or what gig he went to, I can't help remembering how unhappy I made him. It makes me feel very empty.

I would like to forget him, to be honest. Let's talk about the future, where things are undetermined, and not the past where my actions and attitudes are stuck and can't be changed.

_____iamacliche · Post by **_____iamacliche** » Tue Sep 04, 2007 5:43 pm

<small>it's clear to me and probably to everybody else that i fail.

deep deep down i don't even know why i bother. i really don't.

*sigh*

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Tue Sep 04, 2007 10:29 pm

stop being proud of me.

i fail ok.

i fail at being recovered.

i fail at dealing with my past and my feelings.

i lie.

and i don't even care that i lie about it all. i'd rather fail than be fixed.

HakunaMatata · Post by **HakunaMatata** » Tue Sep 04, 2007 10:48 pm

How dare you, how fucking dare YOU, of all people, tell her that.
Just so you can save your own ass. I will bail you out as much as you fucking want, but I will NOT be a reason for change in conversation of to gossip. That is TOTALLY unacceptable
Now get out.

fadingbutterfly · Post by **fadingbutterfly** » Wed Sep 05, 2007 1:17 am

How amazing you are. Do you know how amazing you are? I'm falling for you more and more. You've done so much for me and I don't think you realise that. The fact that you love me, means more to me than anything in this world. I've never felt that safe before, I don't want to ever lose that feeling.
I really don't know what you see in someone like me.

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Wed Sep 05, 2007 4:28 am

notice me?

Binayshee · Post by **Binayshee** » Wed Sep 05, 2007 6:23 am

*edited*

bus

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