Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
- wilson
- just plain inspiring
- Posts: 7567
- Joined: Wed Oct 18, 2006 2:06 am
- Location: aussie-land Age: eighteen
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im sorry for wasting yor time.
im sorry yoy had to listen to me.
im sorry i just walked away
im sorry yoy had to listen to me.
im sorry i just walked away
<center>R.I.P. 23/07/89 - 05/11/01
R.I.P. 1953-2008
counting stars
im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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R.I.P. 1953-2008
counting stars
im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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- pinky
- forum moderator emeritus
- Posts: 29941
- Joined: Sat Feb 14, 2004 1:32 am
- Location: east coast, usa age: 55
i hate it when you lie and cover up for them...why can't you be honest with me...i know that they don't want me around, so why not just tell me so...
i feel bad that you are so sad. i hope that you
can find a way to be happy. sometimes i think
that you expected me to somehow make all that
better but i can't do that. it's a two way street...
i expected that of you too. that you would rescue
me, take me away, make everything better. i was
hoping you would solve my problem of loneliness.
but i don't think i'd be so lonely if i opened my heart
to people more. but that's so hard. i'm so angry. i'm
so tired.
can find a way to be happy. sometimes i think
that you expected me to somehow make all that
better but i can't do that. it's a two way street...
i expected that of you too. that you would rescue
me, take me away, make everything better. i was
hoping you would solve my problem of loneliness.
but i don't think i'd be so lonely if i opened my heart
to people more. but that's so hard. i'm so angry. i'm
so tired.
- troubles undone
- post laureate
- Posts: 11021
- Joined: Mon May 01, 2006 2:30 pm
- Location: London Age:19
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i hate being drunk and thinking.
the two dont go well together.
the two dont go well together.
"Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax
so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now"
"VITA YOY EST VIVERE SED VALERE VITA EST."
-There is more to life than just being alive.
- DecemberLivy
- just plain inspiring
- Posts: 7474
- Joined: Tue Sep 21, 2004 10:38 am
- Location: London
you turn 18 today, and i shouldn't remember.
yet i've been counting down the days, because it would give me an excuse to email you, and then maybe you'd decide to talk to me again.
i dont know what i did, infact i doubt i did anything. i think your new brilliant life developed and you saw me as a tie to the past, and unnecessary one.
i'm not angry, hurt, yes, but not angry. i just miss you, and i still love you. i dont say it anymore because i know the feeling isn't mutual.
i only wish, you would say you loved me too, just one more time. because i miss you with all my heart, and each day that passes with you still ignoring me, it breaks a little more. i hate you for doing this to me. you promised me once you would never hurt me like my father did, never leave me.
now you've left me, and i dont know what to do.
yet i've been counting down the days, because it would give me an excuse to email you, and then maybe you'd decide to talk to me again.
i dont know what i did, infact i doubt i did anything. i think your new brilliant life developed and you saw me as a tie to the past, and unnecessary one.
i'm not angry, hurt, yes, but not angry. i just miss you, and i still love you. i dont say it anymore because i know the feeling isn't mutual.
i only wish, you would say you loved me too, just one more time. because i miss you with all my heart, and each day that passes with you still ignoring me, it breaks a little more. i hate you for doing this to me. you promised me once you would never hurt me like my father did, never leave me.
now you've left me, and i dont know what to do.
<center>my walpole cafe
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
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I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
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I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
- Scatterbrain
- bus conductor
- Posts: 5074
- Joined: Thu Sep 22, 2005 3:17 am
- Location: Washington state, USA
I saw your wife and son at teriyaki today. It made me sad. I wish you would talk to me again. Your email set the precedent for us from now on. Strictly business.. That means we may only talk a couple more times... ever. you didnt even ask how I was doing... and to think I was stupid enough to think you would be there for me and that you actually cared.. *headdesk*
~Megan
~Megan
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
After numerous posts on this thread, I realize how much I haven't said. Today is no exception.
Robin: I can't tell you how much you have meant to me. I don't say that flippantly. You have been there when I needed you, however scared I was to admit it. I wish I could ask you for help more than I do because you could use some practice talking to psychos like me since you're becoming a counselor. I love you. You are like the cool aunt, advice like a mother, keeping secrets like a sister, I mean seriously.
Robin: I can't tell you how much you have meant to me. I don't say that flippantly. You have been there when I needed you, however scared I was to admit it. I wish I could ask you for help more than I do because you could use some practice talking to psychos like me since you're becoming a counselor. I love you. You are like the cool aunt, advice like a mother, keeping secrets like a sister, I mean seriously.
Eisa = Beasty's Twin
Beasty's Place!
- southsider
- building community
- Posts: 694
- Joined: Sun Nov 17, 2002 6:20 am
you know i'm no good
This isn't healthy. I need to stop doing this. I need to stop being up in the pre-dawn hours reading your writings.
And why did you never answer me? I would rather you just fucking got angry at me, if that's where you stand, rather than having no reaction at all.
More than that, though, I hate that I have any emotions at all towards you. I hate that I hate my former self for how she treated you, and I hate that I feel like you're holding that against me. I came across as an asshole, no doubt, but I didn't mean to do any harm. I apologized, and that's really all I can do, right?
It doesn't eat at me except in the middle of the night.
And why did you never answer me? I would rather you just fucking got angry at me, if that's where you stand, rather than having no reaction at all.
More than that, though, I hate that I have any emotions at all towards you. I hate that I hate my former self for how she treated you, and I hate that I feel like you're holding that against me. I came across as an asshole, no doubt, but I didn't mean to do any harm. I apologized, and that's really all I can do, right?
It doesn't eat at me except in the middle of the night.
☼ there is hope ☼
place
"If you really want to stay clean, you will find a way. If not, you will find an excuse."
- wilson
- just plain inspiring
- Posts: 7567
- Joined: Wed Oct 18, 2006 2:06 am
- Location: aussie-land Age: eighteen
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i wish you would take the inititive and make me go. i cant do this by myself. so i dont want to attempt. maybe if you came with me it would make it a little easier
<center>R.I.P. 23/07/89 - 05/11/01
R.I.P. 1953-2008
counting stars
im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
</center>
R.I.P. 1953-2008
counting stars
im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
</center>
[No IRL Mega Rant. Language, Sex]
stop fucking calling me.
i don't want to talk to you.
i'm not your fucking agony aunt.
go talk to your fucking mother, at least you actually have one. and stop rubbing it in my face, okay? i'm not fucking stupid. nearly 10 years i've had to live without her, and i've coped just fine. i don't need a mother. because i'm fine. i'm stronger than all you bitches think. i'm stronger than all you pussies IRL make me out to be. i'd love to see how all you fuckers cope when one of your parents dies, then you won't fucking take the one person that's always there for you for granted because, believe me, it will fucking kill you inside. and don't come fucking running to me when you fuck yourselves up so badly because i won't give a fuck. you all doubted me when you said i wouldn't cope, but just fucking look at me now. i'm going to have the last fucking laugh. i'm not someone you can walk over, i'm not someone you can treat as one quick fuck because you can't keep it up or because you can't find a girlfriend. to me you're just some dick to fuck. nothing more. nothing less. you'll never mean anything to me. oh, and, honestly. stop telling me you love me. honestly. i do not love you.
oh, and fyi, think with your head before your dick you arse. people don't always want you to fuck them after two days/weeks. i bloody didn't. but you forced yourself upon me. wanker.
*ahem*
stop fucking calling me.
i don't want to talk to you.
i'm not your fucking agony aunt.
go talk to your fucking mother, at least you actually have one. and stop rubbing it in my face, okay? i'm not fucking stupid. nearly 10 years i've had to live without her, and i've coped just fine. i don't need a mother. because i'm fine. i'm stronger than all you bitches think. i'm stronger than all you pussies IRL make me out to be. i'd love to see how all you fuckers cope when one of your parents dies, then you won't fucking take the one person that's always there for you for granted because, believe me, it will fucking kill you inside. and don't come fucking running to me when you fuck yourselves up so badly because i won't give a fuck. you all doubted me when you said i wouldn't cope, but just fucking look at me now. i'm going to have the last fucking laugh. i'm not someone you can walk over, i'm not someone you can treat as one quick fuck because you can't keep it up or because you can't find a girlfriend. to me you're just some dick to fuck. nothing more. nothing less. you'll never mean anything to me. oh, and, honestly. stop telling me you love me. honestly. i do not love you.
oh, and fyi, think with your head before your dick you arse. people don't always want you to fuck them after two days/weeks. i bloody didn't. but you forced yourself upon me. wanker.
*ahem*
(Nothing personal, hate trigger??)
I
HATE
YOU
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I
HATE
YOU
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Dutch -> If my English sucks, just tell me please.
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*Please no hugs*
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I walk on a rainbow...
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*Please no hugs*
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I walk on a rainbow...
- troubles undone
- post laureate
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i am not your agony aunt.
i am not a helpline.
you can rely on me all the time, cos its not fair.
and tbh i dont want to.
just leave me alone.
i am not a helpline.
you can rely on me all the time, cos its not fair.
and tbh i dont want to.
just leave me alone.
"Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax
so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now"
"VITA YOY EST VIVERE SED VALERE VITA EST."
-There is more to life than just being alive.
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