last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Post by t_k » Sat Jun 03, 2006 3:25 am

Because I am going through a phase of extreme vanity. And how can I show my body if it's covered in scars?
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Post by ComfortablyNumb » Tue Jun 06, 2006 6:23 pm

Because my roomate would know. She always know, and I hate the look in her eyes when she knows...

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Post by beautifulgarbage » Wed Jun 07, 2006 5:14 pm

I told my BF I was going for a run at 2h30 am... he asked me what was wrong and I started to cry... and cry. And then he hugged me, and I fell asleep.

It happenned last week.
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Post by Skyeler » Wed Jun 07, 2006 7:11 pm

Because I keep my blades inside the frame of my son's ultrasound picture.


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Post by angelclown » Mon Jun 12, 2006 7:15 pm

Last time I wanted to and didn't... I didn't want to feel that low again. Something stopped me - I didn't want to throw all that away... that "normal" feeling I have.
Plus, I made a promise that I would make my late Grandad proud. I can't let him down.
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Post by southsider » Mon Aug 13, 2007 11:24 am

I know this is an old thread but I hope no one's pissy that I'm bumping it.

Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't solely because... well, I've gone so long and don't want to fuck up the record I've got going here.

Also, I'm job hunting, and fresh SI wouldn't look so professional under my interview clothes. :roll:

AND I know how badly I would feel afterwards.

AND I don't want to have to explain it. Especially to my roommate.

AND I would really feel like I let myself down. I know I can cope without.

Huh, I guess there's more to it than my long, unbroken record.
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Post by ComfortablyNumb » Mon Aug 13, 2007 5:44 pm

I knew she would find out.
And feel horrible.
I don't want her to feel horrible.

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Post by volta » Mon Aug 13, 2007 6:01 pm

because all my friends are pulling for me to make it si-free. i love them too much to hurt them.

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Post by MusicalMorphine » Mon Aug 13, 2007 6:03 pm

I knew it wouldn't help in the long run and I would feel worse afterwards.

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Post by zombiepeople » Tue Aug 14, 2007 1:01 am

I fell asleep. Stupid reason, but it worked for one night at least.
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Post by starcatuk » Tue Aug 14, 2007 5:49 pm

i wanted to stop

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Post by DecemberLivy » Sun Aug 19, 2007 11:24 am

i knew when i went to the gym everyone would see
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Post by StevieLynn » Wed Aug 29, 2007 1:19 am

Because I am a lifeguard and have to wear a bathing suit. Everyone would know.

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Post by volta » Wed Aug 29, 2007 3:25 am

because i need to prove i'm strong enough.

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Post by Reflections » Wed Aug 29, 2007 6:15 pm

Because I'm going to visit my family this weekend and I wouldn't want to risk them seeing.
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Post by starcatuk » Wed Aug 29, 2007 7:42 pm

because i realised that people would see it.

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Post by treasure » Thu Aug 30, 2007 12:19 am

i didn't want to have scars on my arms so i can still wear short sleeves. i knew i was trying to run away from feeling sad but that wouldn't actually stop the sadness. i cried instead, and hugged my cat and then made a weird present for father's day.
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Post by ComfortablyNumb » Thu Aug 30, 2007 6:33 am

Because my friend called me and wanted to go to Ihop...I know but it worked.

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Post by 5th section » Mon Sep 03, 2007 5:39 pm

because I had nothing i could use to take care of the cuts (& couldnt buy anything, it was the middle of the night) so I knew it wasnt worth the risk.
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<small>i realised i was a month free.

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