Right Now I Feel... Version 2.0

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Sat Jul 14, 2007 3:59 am

blah.
blank.
tired.
invisible.

:bluestar:
It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live - APWBD.


Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.

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Post by wilson » Sat Jul 14, 2007 10:52 am

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im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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Post by troubles undone » Sat Jul 14, 2007 6:41 pm

muppet.
fool.
angry.
upset.
drained.
tired.
fed up.
self destructive.
pissed off.
used.
manipulated.
lied to.
guilt tripped.
spent.
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It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word

Love is just a hoax
so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now"


"VITA YOY EST VIVERE SED VALERE VITA EST."
-There is more to life than just being alive.

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Post by Callisto » Sat Jul 14, 2007 9:17 pm

happy.

really really fucking happy!

XD!

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Post by steady hands » Sun Jul 15, 2007 7:06 am

lonely.
self destructive.
indigo.
unsure.



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Post by SomethingBlue » Sun Jul 15, 2007 8:01 am

alone
rejected
hopeless
confused
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Post by ComfortablyNumb » Sun Jul 15, 2007 8:16 am

Lost.

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Mon Jul 16, 2007 5:01 am

blank.
indescribable.
frustrated.

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It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live - APWBD.


Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.

Less Traveled Roads <-- Everyone Welcome.

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Mon Jul 16, 2007 2:08 pm

hurt
worthless
suicidal
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Post by chickenbug2 » Mon Jul 16, 2007 11:29 pm

angry
self-destructive
small
confused
really angry
"And I have known the eyes already, known them all-
The eyes that fix you in a formulated phrase,
And when I am formulated, sprawling on a pin,
When I am pinned and wriggling on the wall,
Then how should I begin
To spit out all the butt-ends of my days and ways?
And how should I presume?"
The Love Song Of J. Alfred Prufrock
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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Tue Jul 17, 2007 12:34 am

self destructive.
drowning.
lost.

:bluestar:
It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live - APWBD.


Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.

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Post by HeCallsMeLadybug » Tue Jul 17, 2007 3:15 am

I feel desperate to be better.
I feel scared.
I feel alone.
I feel ugly.
I feel like things aren't getting better only worse.
Be brave
Like bridges underwater,
Keeping strong beyond their time.
I feel the light upon my skin,
Reminding me that night must end.



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Post by swanfaerie » Tue Jul 17, 2007 8:36 am

frustrated
tired but wide awake
sore

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Post by MusicalMorphine » Tue Jul 17, 2007 6:53 pm

Empty

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Post by volta » Tue Jul 17, 2007 7:46 pm

tired

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Post by Chis » Tue Jul 17, 2007 11:49 pm

Tired
Disappointed in myself

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Wed Jul 18, 2007 12:26 am

pissed.
tired.
frustrated.
annoyed.

:bluestar:
It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live - APWBD.


Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.

Less Traveled Roads <-- Everyone Welcome.

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Post by Never Again » Thu Jul 19, 2007 2:02 am

done. :cry:
I have love. I have love but I don't know where to put it.

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Post by JadaKiss » Thu Jul 19, 2007 3:13 am

Right now I feel conflicted. Today was such a positive day for me. I woke up feeling "strong"... the kind you know is supposed to be devoted to someone else in need. That person was my sister, and I did my best to help her through, while not taking on her burden or getting upset if she went against better judgment. I got my nose pierced :-) finally, and I had a great afternoon with friends and kids.

Suddenly, my great day is starting to feel "urgy" with SI of some kind. I have just started a day treatment program, so I want to keep my daily goal of "not cutting" and I met my goal of "doing at least 1 productive thing in the house" which was to clean the dishes tonight.

I'm just not sure if I should try to fight this feeling, let it roll on and see what happens, or not. It's not like the typical kind I get; it's just kind of easing up on me, and I'm communicating that to my bf, who is very understanding right now.

The conflict mainly lies in whether I should even take on the "idea" that my great day is turning urgy. I will keep my hands busy, take my sleeping pill, and rest in bed with my bf. I'm thankful that it's nighttime and it's not in the middle of the day while I may be alone at some time.
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Post by there_is_hope » Fri Jul 20, 2007 2:59 am

sad
werid
hate myself
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