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Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.
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<center>R.I.P. 23/07/89 - 05/11/01
R.I.P. 1953-2008
counting stars
im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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R.I.P. 1953-2008
counting stars
im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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self destructive.
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used.
manipulated.
lied to.
guilt tripped.
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"Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax
so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now"
"VITA YOY EST VIVERE SED VALERE VITA EST."
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- Kurt Cobain
"Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody."
-Catcher in the Rye
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- Kurt Cobain
"Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody."
-Catcher in the Rye
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Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.
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If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find.
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"And I have known the eyes already, known them all-
The eyes that fix you in a formulated phrase,
And when I am formulated, sprawling on a pin,
When I am pinned and wriggling on the wall,
Then how should I begin
To spit out all the butt-ends of my days and ways?
And how should I presume?"
The Love Song Of J. Alfred Prufrock
T. S. Eliot
The eyes that fix you in a formulated phrase,
And when I am formulated, sprawling on a pin,
When I am pinned and wriggling on the wall,
Then how should I begin
To spit out all the butt-ends of my days and ways?
And how should I presume?"
The Love Song Of J. Alfred Prufrock
T. S. Eliot
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Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.
Less Traveled Roads <-- Everyone Welcome.
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Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.
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Right now I feel conflicted. Today was such a positive day for me. I woke up feeling "strong"... the kind you know is supposed to be devoted to someone else in need. That person was my sister, and I did my best to help her through, while not taking on her burden or getting upset if she went against better judgment. I got my nose pierced finally, and I had a great afternoon with friends and kids.
Suddenly, my great day is starting to feel "urgy" with SI of some kind. I have just started a day treatment program, so I want to keep my daily goal of "not cutting" and I met my goal of "doing at least 1 productive thing in the house" which was to clean the dishes tonight.
I'm just not sure if I should try to fight this feeling, let it roll on and see what happens, or not. It's not like the typical kind I get; it's just kind of easing up on me, and I'm communicating that to my bf, who is very understanding right now.
The conflict mainly lies in whether I should even take on the "idea" that my great day is turning urgy. I will keep my hands busy, take my sleeping pill, and rest in bed with my bf. I'm thankful that it's nighttime and it's not in the middle of the day while I may be alone at some time.
Suddenly, my great day is starting to feel "urgy" with SI of some kind. I have just started a day treatment program, so I want to keep my daily goal of "not cutting" and I met my goal of "doing at least 1 productive thing in the house" which was to clean the dishes tonight.
I'm just not sure if I should try to fight this feeling, let it roll on and see what happens, or not. It's not like the typical kind I get; it's just kind of easing up on me, and I'm communicating that to my bf, who is very understanding right now.
The conflict mainly lies in whether I should even take on the "idea" that my great day is turning urgy. I will keep my hands busy, take my sleeping pill, and rest in bed with my bf. I'm thankful that it's nighttime and it's not in the middle of the day while I may be alone at some time.
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