Candys Coping Thread

[Candy]

I am relaxing and watching t.v. My boy-friend just left and I will be going to bed real soon. I had a great day today and even though I slept most of the day,at least I did not do any SI,somedays are easier than others. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. My boy-friend and I are going over to a friend's apartment for dinner,so I am looking forward to that. I just took my medication for the night. I hope everyone has a great hoilday tomorrow. I will be alright tonight. I am going to get going and relaxing till I go to bed. I will be back on the bus sometime tomorrow.

[plantt]

just sayin hi

[Candy]

I just wanted to say to you as well. I hope you have a great night and everyone else as well.Does anyone know how I can get the free SI bracklet for SI,I am not sure if spell that right,is there a free website,please let me know if there is one,cause I do not have alot of money.Thanks alot. Just wondering. I will be back on the bus tomorrow.

[Candy]

I have been sleeping most of the day again,I do not know if it is because I have been staying up late,if that is why,cause I do not feel depressed,but I see my doctor this Wed,so I will talk to you. I have been doing good so far,I am just waiting for my boy-friend to get here,cause we are going out for awhile and then go to a friend's apartment for dinner and to watch a movie. I have not been writing in my journal,but I am going to do so tomorrow,cause I have to get myself back in the practice of doing it and to use other coping skills. It has been hard to get back in to it.I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. So far no SI,even though the thoughts are still there. I am going to go and watch t.v. till he gets here. I will be back on the bus later on sometime,promise

[JadaKiss]

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[Candy]

I wanted to say thanks for the nice messages. I had a rough night,cause my boy-friend and I got into a fight,and I did SI which I have not done in awhile,and I feel guilty for doing it,but he really upset me tonight and I could not handle it.I will be alright though,I plan on taking my medication and going to bed. My feelings were hurt and I could not handle the pain and the stress,anymore. I did SI in front of him and he did not do any thing about it,and I did not plan on him to stop me. I just feel anxious and frustrated tonight. I will be safe and by going to bed tonight,is what I need to do for myself. If anyone has any suggestions,please let me know. I just wanted to let everyone know what is going on with me. I will be just fine. I will be going to bed soon and I will be back on the bus sometime tomorrow. I need some rest right now

[JadaKiss]

I did SI in front of him and he did not do any thing about it,and I did not plan on him to stop me. I just feel anxious and frustrated tonight. I will be safe and by going to bed tonight,is what I need to do for myself. If anyone has any suggestions,please let me know. I just wanted to let everyone know what is going on with me. I will be just fine. I will be going to bed soon and I will be back on the bus sometime tomorrow. I need some rest right now

Have you ever done that before, in front of him? I know if I did my boyfriend would be devastated to death... he's already under enough stress of me doing this and if I did it in front of him, I don't know if he would be able to handle it.... thats why I asked.

[Candy]

I went for a walk and did some cleaning,which I have not finished yet. To answer your question yes I have done in front of him before and he does not say anything, I do not understand why he does that. He watched t.v.,and he does not say anything. Is this me? Or him? What is wrong with me? Or is him? Or both of us? I am very confused with this and I do not understand this whole situation. Please forgive me,I just mixed up in the head about the whole thing. I know that he is slow in learning,but that does not matter. I need some advice in this. Besides that I am keeping myself busy,even thouh my thoughs are racing.I promise to keep myself safe and busy. My nurse is coming over to do my medication and I will be back on the bus later on,promise. I will be alright

[Candy]

I just got home from a friend's apartment,my boy-friend and I had a great time. I am having a rough time,cause one of my friend's blame me for everyone thing,instead of taking the blame for herself,and she always asks me for cig,or a ride, I never been soo mad in my life,I had a enoough of this. I am doing very good at not doing any SI and it has not been easy for me. I just needed to express how I am feeling. I hope I get a better sleep today,cause my anxiety is up and I am trying to relax tonight. I am going to watch t.v.,and relax tonight and take it easy,till I go to bed. Just mad that is all. I will be alright. I have to go to program tomorrow and see the doctor in the morning,so I have to get up early. I just wanted to let everyone know what is going on with me. I will be going to bed real soon. I will be back on the bus tomorrow sometime.promise

[Candy]

I am getting ready for program and I have to leave early,cause I have to see the doctor this morning. I hope I have a better day today,and I hope the people who were my friends leave me alone today,cause I am not happy with them,and I am still angry with them. I did not hurt myself last night and it was not easy for me,cause of how I felt inside.I will get through this and make the best of the day. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I will be back on the bus later on,when I get home.

[JadaKiss]

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[one out of none]

Hey Candy, I hope program goes well and things with your friends work out well and all. Well done for not hurting yourself last night, that's great. Take care.

[Candy]

I took a long nap when I got home from program and I am watching t.v.,with my boy-friend. I had a great talk with my doctor and she helped me out alot. She changed my medication around,and I know it needs time to get in my system and for me to get use to it,so I have to be patience with it,I do not start it tomorrow morning.We are going to relax and take it easy for the rest of the night. I am proud of myself for not doing any SI,and it was not easy for me.Nothing changed with my friends,but only time will tell with that one. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I am going to enjoy the rest of the evening. Thanks for the nice messages. I will be back on the bus later on,promise

[Candy]

I had a great night just relaxing with my boy-friend and he just left to go home and get some sleep. I will be taking my medication for the night and I will be going to bed soon.Things have not changed with my friends yet,and there is nothing I can do about it,they really hurt my feelings,but I am doing alright. I have program tomorrow and then I will probably take a nap. I have not done any SI today,even though the thoughts real there,I did not do it,and it was not easy for me. I am getting tired and I will be going to bed real soon. I will be back on the bus sometime tomorrow when I get home,promise

[JadaKiss]

I had a great night just relaxing with my boy-friend and he just left to go home and get some sleep. I will be taking my medication for the night and I will be going to bed soon.Things have not changed with my friends yet,and there is nothing I can do about it,they really hurt my feelings,but I am doing alright. I have program tomorrow and then I will probably take a nap. I have not done any SI today,even though the thoughts real there,I did not do it,and it was not easy for me. I am getting tired and I will be going to bed real soon. I will be back on the bus sometime tomorrow when I get home,promise

Thank you for not hurting yourself today, even though the urge was there. That takes a lot of will power and courage. ((hugs)) I notice you always promise to come back onto BUS, and I like that you come back to us, but I was curious why you feel you have to promise? I mean it in a good way, just out of curiosity.

[Candy]

I just got home from program and I had a great day. Thanks for the reply you sent me,that is a question, I just got into a habit of writing that,plus I feel bad if I do not write on the bus,cause it has helped me soo much and I like my coping thread cause it has helped me alot,just wish I had more coping stuff to add. I am taking it easy and I am going to lay down for awhile,till my boy-friend gets here. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can.It looks like rain here. I started my new medication,it has not made me tired at all. She put me on Xanax ER on 1mg,increase my Paxil from 30mg to 40mg. I hope it helps. I am going to relax for now. Be back on the bus later on.

[Candy]

I had a great day at program today.I took a nap and then my boy-friend came over and we went visiting some friends.My other friends are not talking to me at this point and there is nothing I can do about it,but let it go and make other friends,it is not going to be easy,but all I did was stick up for myself and I do not usually do that. I have not done any SI today,and I am proud of myself.I am going to take my medication,watch a little t.v and go to bed. My case-manager is coming over tomorrow and I have banking to do,cause it is the 1st. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I am getting tired and I will be back on the bus tomorrow,sometime

[JadaKiss]

I had a great day at program today.I took a nap and then my boy-friend came over and we went visiting some friends.My other friends are not talking to me at this point and there is nothing I can do about it,but let it go and make other friends,it is not going to be easy,but all I did was stick up for myself and I do not usually do that. I have not done any SI today,and I am proud of myself.I am going to take my medication,watch a little t.v and go to bed. My case-manager is coming over tomorrow and I have banking to do,cause it is the 1st. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I am getting tired and I will be back on the bus tomorrow,sometime

I love that you keep us informed, and I'm proud of you, too. It's ok to slip, but boy when you can get on here and give us some good news it's SO awesome. You're very special and important to us, so chin up, and great job, dear.

[Candy]

I met with my case-manager this morning and we had a great talk,he helped me alot.Then I did my banking and got that done. I slept alot which I needed it. My boy-friend will be here in a little while and then I am going to take him out for ice cream,and then I have to stop at Tops.I promise myself that I would get back into my writing in my journal,but I have not done so far yet,it is hard to get back into it,when I have been out of it for awhile. Any advice on that. Even though I have thoughts of SI, I have not done anything yet,I just focus my mind on other things. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I am going to relax and watch t.v.,till my boy-friend gets here. I will be back on the bus later on.Thanks for the nice messages,I suffer from low self-esteem and what you wrote made my day

[Candy]

I had a great afternoon,my boy-friend and I went out and visit some friends and we had a great time. The other friends are still not talking to us,and there is nothing I can do about it at this point,I am hurt,but I can not make them talk to us. Besides that I am doing alright. I have not done any SI,even though I want to,I keep fighting it all the time,due to stress and anxiety from what is going on. I am going to watch t.v.,till my boy-friend leaves and then I am going to go to bed. I will be alright. I am taking care of myself right now. I will be back on the bus tomorrow. I am getting tired and need some sleep