Candys Coping Thread
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing alright so far. My boy-friend just left and I just have to take my medication before I go to bed. I need to get back into the practice of writing in my journal,cause right now I need it.I did not do any SI so far and it has been hard on me. I have to go grocery shopping in the morning and the rest of the day is mine. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I hope when I talk to my doctor this week that I can handle the news ok. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I am going to go to bed real soon,getting tired out. I will be alright though. I will watch t.v. for awhile and then go to bed. I will be ok tonight. I will be back on the bus sometime tomorrow,promise.taking care of myself.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I finally woke up from a nap,I went grocery shopping this morning and when I got home I took a long nap,I was soo tired out.I am soo nervous about the result from my sologram,if I spell that right,on my right breast,I was soo afraid of what the doctor will say. I have to call him when I get home tomorrow,after program. I hope it is nothing.I have the urges to do SI,that is why I came on the bus,cause I feel better when I post here. I will be ok,though,my boy-friend will be coming over at 3:30pm and we are going out for dinner.I am going to take it easy and relax. I hate when I feel anxious. If anyone has been though this experience before of what I wrote above,you are weclome to pm me,or write here. I do not go back for another in six months. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be back on the bus later on,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
My boy-friend just left and I am watching t.v. I wrote in my journal tonight and it was not easy for me to do so,cause I was dealing with feelings that were not comfortable for me,but I did it. I am feel good inside for doing so,just need to keep it up. I just have to take my medication before I go to bed. I am doing alright. I have program tomorrow and I am looking forward to going. Then I hope that I will have my results from my sologram tomorrow,and I am nervous and scared,but I will feel alot better when I find out,hope so. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will take care of myself tonight. I did not do any SI today,and it was not easy for me,but I did it. I am getting tired and I will be back on the bus sometime tomorrow,when I get home.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I got home from program and I had a great day. I am doing alright,but my boy-friend is at the ER,cause his ankles and feet are swollen up. I have not heard anything about my results yet,and I am feeling depressed cause of everything that is going on. I feel lost and alone,cause I am by myself and I do not like feeling this was. I do not know if they are going to admit him yet,but I will find out before the night is over. I have not done any SI today and it was not easy for me,but I am fighting the urges. I am going to watch t.v., and keep myself busy tonight. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I am just hanging in there,just feeling anxious. I am going to go and watch t.v.,but I will be back on later on,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing pretty good,my boy-friend came over after the ER and they told him that he had Congestion Heart Faliure,and he had a doctor's appointment today at 4pm,and then he is going over after that. The ER put him on antiobtics and water pills. I hope he will be alright. I had a rough night sleeping,but as least I did not do any SI,which has been hard for me,but I keep fighting it.I still have not heard about my results on the sologram that I had on my right breast. I know that it is nothing that I have to worry about,it is bothering me that I can not remember. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I am watching t.v.,and taking it easy. I have not written in my journal lately,but I will later on. My nurse was here and he did my medication.I am hanging in there. I will be alright,just tired out. To much stress for me right now. I will be back on the bus later on,promise Thanks for the nice messages
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing alright and my boy-friend just left to go home,he is doing alright. I will be taking my medication soon and I will be going to bed. I have not done any SI today at all,even though the thoughts are there,I have been fighting it. I did not write in my journal tonight,cause we went out visiting some friends,which helped me alot. I just wanted to let everyone know that I am doing alright. I have program tomorrow and I will be back on the bus sometime tomorrow evening. I am hanging in there. I am tired and going to get some sleep. taking care of myself. Be back on tomorrow
Be back on tomorrowI am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I just got home with my boy-friend,we went visiting friends. I am doing alright so far. I got some good news,my doctor called me,and they told me that the results of my sologram was negative on my right breast,but I have to go back in six months and that will be it. I was soo happy and relieved to here it. I just wish I did not worry so much about it. I had a great day at program and I have been busy all day. I did not get a chance to write in my journal and my therapist told me to use my coping skills more,which I have not,and I need to work on that. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I am going to talk to my boy-friend for awhile and when he leaves I will be going to bed. I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening when I get home. I am doing good.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I just got home from program and it is hot outside. I am relaxing and going to take it easy till my boy-friend gets here. I have a nice weekend off,I am off to next Wed,from program. I am going to enjoy myself and to make sure that I use my coping skills and work harder on that. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I have not done any SI lately and it gets hard at night. I am doing pretty good so far. I am taking care of myself. I will be back on the bus later on,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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JadaKiss
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Hey Candy! Haven't been on here in a while... I was just thinking about your Hello Kitty liking, and I ought to send you my Hello Kitty velvet seat covers for your car! lol seriously! I drive a Mary Kay car, so I can't put them in there, but would be glad to send them to you sometime.... wtf am I talking about. I just want to know how you're doing today...... after all, it's one day at a time... so cliche' but so true...and for me...it almost has to be one moment to the next; very difficult.
God Bless,
Jade
liking, and I ought to send you my Hello Kitty velvet seat covers for your car! lol seriously! I drive a Mary Kay car, so I can't put them in there, but would be glad to send them to you sometime.... wtf am I talking about. I just want to know how you're doing today...... after all, it's one day at a time... so cliche' but so true...and for me...it almost has to be one moment to the next; very difficult.God Bless,
Jade
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Candy's Coping Thread
Thanks for the nice messages. I am doing pretty good. Yes, I still like Hello kitty and I have not found much of her;plus I like dolphins and butterflies as well. If you want to send me the Hello Kitty car seat,that would be great,you can pm and I will give you my e-mail address and you can write to me,and I will give you my address where I live, I have not moved yet,so my address is the same so far. I am doing pretty good,just staying cool and coloring pictures, I need to get some more though to color. I am taking it one day at a time.If you have any pictures of the things that I listed above,you can send them to me. I am just waiting for my boy-friend and watching t.v., I am hanging in there. I will be back on the bus later on,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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Candy's Coping Thread
I had a rough night last night,my boy-friend and I got into a fight,which it was over little things,but when he left and went home, I could not sleep at all,and I called a friend and went over there to visit and fell alseep there,cause the urge to do SI,was soo strong that I did not want to be alone,and I needed someone to talk to,it helped me alot,and it was a good thing that I did,the problem is that he does not give me anytime to be with female friends alone,he wants to be with me all the time,and I need sometime to myself, I tried to tell him this,but he does not listen to me,and I got soo frustrated with myself.That is why I left. I slept most of the day and did not do anything that I wanted to do,like write in my journal and I need to do that for myself. I need help from people here,to get me motivated to start writing in it and to start using my other coping skills.If anyone wants to do that,please post here,need a push to do so. I am going to watch t.v.,and wait for my boy-friend to get here, I hope he is in a better mood. I just wanted to let everyone know that I am doing alright. I am hanging in there. I will be back on the bus later on,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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Re: Candy's Coping Thread
First of all, I'm glad you were able to get to your friends house for some safety. Does your boyfriend have some control issues? Just curious. I was with a guy like that and all it did was add to my depression and stuff.Candy wrote:,and I called a friend and went over there to visit and fell alseep there,cause the urge to do SI,was soo strong that I did not want to be alone,and I needed someone to talk to,it helped me alot
I need help from people here,to get me motivated to start writing in it and to start using my other coping skills.If anyone wants to do that,please post here,need a push to do so.
As for motivation, I could sure use some too, otherwise I'd be laying around thinking of all the things I should be doing. I've found it's a lot easier to do ANYTHING, if I make sure when I get up I shower and get my face on right away... then I feel "ready", otherwise I'm in jammies all day, hair a wreck, and no make up... feeling kind of gross, so why would I want to go anywhere, do anything for myself, let alone cope? I don't know.... just a thought.
But you've got support here, just so you're aware. I'm sure you know by now.
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Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing alot better right now. My boy-friend and I went to visit a friend and then we came back here. I do not know about the control issue with him,he worrys alot about me. I am glad to be here and I know that I got alot of support here.I am going to work hard tomorrow and start writing in my journal,and I do feel lose without it. I just wanted to let everyone know that I am doing alright. I am going to go and watch t.v.,and I will be back on the bus later on,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing alright so far. My boy-friend just left and we had a better day today. I am going to take my medication and then go to bed. I promise myself that I will make time for myself tomorrow to write in my journal and do something that I enjoy to do. I am tired and I need to get some sleep,cause I did not sleep good last night. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be just fine. I will be back on the bus sometime tomorrow,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing alright,and I took a long nap and I am watching t.v. I am trying to wake up soo I can write in my journal,but it can be hard when I have to write about things that are hard to deal with. I feel kind of anxious right now and I am trying real hard to relax. I wanted to do SI last night,and it was not easy,but I fought it,it was not easy. I did it though. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I am going to enjoy my day and take it easy. My boy-friend will be here around 3pm,and I am going to write in my journal before he gets here. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I will be back on the bus later on,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy"s Coping Thread
I know that I did not post last night,things are going good with me and my boy-friend. I finally wrote in my journal yesterday and it helped me alot. I will be starting a new journal now. I did not do any SI yesterday and it was very hard for me not to do it,but I got through it. I am going to take it easy today and do things that will keep me busy. I had a good night sleep and I feel alot better today. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I am hanging in there and I am doing the best I can. I going to do things that are positive today,cause I need to do that for myself. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be back on the bus later on,promise.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy"s Coping Thread
I slept most of the day,cause I was soo tired for being up late last night. I am doing alright,I am sitting here with my boy-friend and we are watching t.v. I have not done any SI today and it has not been easy,but I am doing good. I will be posting some new coping skills soon,when I get them all together. If anyone wants to post some here that would be helpful to me,you may do so. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I am going to take care of myself. I will be back on the bus later on sometime,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy"s Coping Thread
I just wanted to say that so far I am doing alright. My boy-friend and I are watching t.v.,and taking it easy tonight. I have not written in my journal so yet,but I will.It has not easy for me when the urges get so strong and I want to SI,I feel safe when I am around my boy-friend or friends talking,or leave the apartment.I just have a hard time expressing my feelings,but so far I have been doing a good job,and I am proud of myself for that.I feel even safe on the bus. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be back on the bus later on,promise. Just taking care of myself
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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