Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Scatterbrain · Post by **Scatterbrain** » Fri May 11, 2007 2:10 pm

I'm scared. I cant do this on my own. You seem to think that I have it all under control. wtf? Thats why I came to you in the first place. I needed help, I wanted you to help me find someone to help me. Now I have to call the goddamn hospital and get lost in the fucking bureaucracy while I'm calling and trying to find the name of a T for myself. fuck you. I had this stupid, niave idea that you would help me and I wouldnt have to do this on my own anymore. Wow, I was wrong.

~Megan

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Fri May 11, 2007 2:38 pm

im not coping today

mephistopheles · Post by **mephistopheles** » Fri May 11, 2007 2:42 pm

i wish you were here.
i really really wish you were here.

Quiet little Angel · Post by **Quiet little Angel** » Fri May 11, 2007 9:49 pm

please come visit me... please... someone...

Scatterbrain · Post by **Scatterbrain** » Sat May 12, 2007 2:51 am

Thank you so much for helping me when no one else will. I'm sorry you have to see this side of me. I really am sorry. I wish you didnt have to see the paranoid, impulsive, angry, emotional, reading-into-things, and scared side of me. But then again, the fact that you are still here has to count for something. I'm sorry I flipped out again and had to call you. No matter how many times you say its ok, I will always feel bad calling you... I care about you so much, and I'm so glad that I opened up to you in August. You are all I have right now... sometimes I wish YOU were my dad...

powdahchica · Post by **powdahchica** » Mon May 14, 2007 5:03 pm

I love you... and I can't believe how scary those words are. When you move I don't know what I'll do without my one person who understands. It hurts so much to realize that you don't feel the same way. I wish you could love me.

Koru · Post by **Koru** » Tue May 15, 2007 1:16 am

I want to make everything OK for you and I can't.
What's more, I want you to turn to me, to find comfort in my arms but it's not me that you want. I know you are still in love with C, you never made any secret of that but when she wouldn't even answer the phone to you or reply to your letters I figured that I was still in with a shot of being the 'next best thing' and that would have done.
But now, when you really need someone, it's her that you have turned to and she has taken you in and comforted you in a way that I'll never be able to do.
I can't tell you how much I'm hurting now, god knows, that's the last thing you need on top of all the other guilt that's going on in your head right now. And I certainly can't tell her, I can't admit the feelings that I have for you. Still, I suspect you know and it wouldn't suprise me if she knows too.
And yet we still go on, each in our little world of pain, each trying to care for the others, never looking too deeply at ourselves. I love you, you love C, C sees me as a friend she can confide in about you and so it goes.
Even having these thoughts is so selfish, you are the one who really has reason to hurt now, I have no problems except the ones I make for myself. And yet, I do hurt, I want to tear myself apart.
I know I shouldn't, I can't cover more fresh injuries at training tomorrow and I suspect that if I don't train tommorrow I will just never go back.
Why can't I cry? if I could cry for you and me and C and what might never be for us all maybe that would help.
I wonder if I'll ever tell you what I do to myself on the bad nights, I wonder if you even realise that I have bad nights. Stupid question, you are the one who dressed me and dragged me out when I hadn't stopped crying for 2 days straight. You know about bad days. But now isn't the time. I'm not sure it ever will be.
I need to move to another level of friendship now, one where I put your happiness above all else, and accept that C can do more for you know than I can.

TheRockingHorse · Post by **TheRockingHorse** » Tue May 15, 2007 1:19 am

why did you run away to his house?
why wont u tell anyone what you did with him?
did you do it with him?
what if you are pregnant?
do you care how much u made us worry?
do u care about anyone but yourself?
why do u hurt us like this?

Wall · Post by **Wall** » Tue May 15, 2007 4:26 am

It's been a year and a half since the move and I still wonder why you didn't care about me enough to ask. I still wonder if it's that I did something wrong or simply that you had different priorities. I still wonder if I expected too much. I know it's the whole authority figure thing, the reason why this all matters. I wish it had mattered to you and I still wonder why it didn't.

When we passed by on the highway on the way into town.....I did everything I could to ignore, forget and avoid thinking abou where I was. I hate to think of even looking at the building. It's all too much.

I can't see your name without cringing. It's a stab of recognition and of pain and I wonder whether it will ever go away.

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Tue May 15, 2007 7:44 am

Dear X,
I can't sleep. I just realized how guilty I am and how worried I am about you. I wish I had done things differently, and I wish I had been there for you. We aren't really as close anymore now, since I disappeared for a while. And I'm not entirely sure what, if anything, is wrong. I don't really know what to say or do. But believe me, I feel awful and I sincerely wish that things could be like they were before.

Love,
Emily

starcatuk · Post by **starcatuk** » Tue May 15, 2007 2:11 pm

it was an accident i didnt mean to do it but im glad i did because it stopped me doing something else that i knew i wanted to do.

Post by **Spidey** » Tue May 15, 2007 3:02 pm

Please, PLEASE say that to my face. Please. I beg of you. I know you won't because you're a balless wonder, but hey, I can dream, right?

Man you sure talk a good talk but walking and you just don't seem to collide.

...And in this conjecture, I wish it would have, because daaaaaaamn the looks on everyone's face when I calmly, rationally and with damn good reasoning explained why you are wrong would have been priceless. (And yes, I emphasise "calmly and rationally and with damn good reasoning" because you're too fucking hysterical to *ever* do something like this)

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Tue May 15, 2007 8:13 pm

you all attack him, but yeah how can you when you only know my side of things and you don't know him at all. besides it doesn't make me love him less, because if he was all the things you imply he is why would he still be here at my side?

Porcelain_Doll · Post by **Porcelain_Doll** » Wed May 16, 2007 12:00 am

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Fuck you all. I am not okay. I am not okay. I am not okay. I want to just end it. I want to be done with it all.

marshmallowfluff · Post by **marshmallowfluff** » Wed May 16, 2007 10:59 am

im not coping today. at all. i want the dreams to stop. i want her to start doing something to help. she does absolutely nothing, and i have so s much to do today but no energy to do it. I have exams in 5 days, but can't revise for them cos im to busy doing fucking housework.

mephistopheles · Post by **mephistopheles** » Wed May 16, 2007 11:06 am

fuck you and your melodramatic bullshit.
yes i'll be there in twenty minutes but really you should deal with it yourself you fucking reject!
exams dude. i have exams. revision.
i dont need you doing this right now.

5th section · Post by **5th section** » Wed May 16, 2007 11:25 am

I don't think you'd laugh if it happened to you

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Wed May 16, 2007 11:26 am

Can you please just pretend to care?

wilson · Post by **wilson** » Wed May 16, 2007 11:47 am

thankyou for showing me that your not a friend. just a fucking backstabber

troubles undone · Post by **troubles undone** » Thu May 17, 2007 5:38 pm

do you know how much it fucking hurts to know you dont like "what ive become"?

cant you just be a little less self centered. for one fucking moment in your life, and pay attention to the people around you, and how much you are hurting them?

i dont know about anyone else, but im fed up of the comments and snide remarks when you think im out of earshot.

and your meant to be my best friend ='[

bus

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