Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

Porcelain_Doll · Post by **Porcelain_Doll** » Mon May 07, 2007 8:44 pm

Almost everything I say is lie. And half the time I'm not lying on purpose, it just slips out.

Quiet little Angel · Post by **Quiet little Angel** » Mon May 07, 2007 8:51 pm

i never do anything just because i want to, i always need validation from others... even the smallest things... i never stop worrying what others would think of what i do...

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Mon May 07, 2007 9:42 pm

i binged on purpose to make me feel ugly and give myself a reason to od on the diet pills.

volta · Post by **volta** » Mon May 07, 2007 10:33 pm

*SI SU*

i said i wouldn't:
cut while i've still got cuts healing, cut with something other than a blade, buy blades, purge, contemplate suicide, attempt suicide

but i have. and now i'm scared to say anything, because maybe the thing i hate the most will come true.

Porcelain_Doll · Post by **Porcelain_Doll** » Mon May 07, 2007 10:43 pm

I need you! I need you so bad right now. I just need to be wrapped in your love. I need you to give me reason not to cut. I need a reason for all this pain to be worth it.

I'm so sorry that I need you like this. You deserve to love someone who's not so much work. I try to be my best for you. I hope you can see that, even when it doesn't seem like it. Sometimes I do need to take a break though, I can't push myself like that all of the time, don't get mad at me when I try to give myself a rest.

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Tue May 08, 2007 2:17 am

The pills you made me give you weren't vicodin. They were placeboes I stole from s's old birth control pills.

and i'm ecstatic that you didn't know the difference.

handmade mute · Post by **handmade mute** » Tue May 08, 2007 2:36 am

I'm angry at you. I'm angry that you always do this. You work so hard to get me to believe something, and then, after I start believing it, you tell me it isn't true. I don't care that you didn't mean it. I don't care that you think I'm only believing it because it suits my agenda. I can't trust you, and you need to take some responsibility for that.

I don't want it all to be kept inside. I don't want to just deal, or keep my emotions on a tight leash. I want to feel something other than the sadness and loss that I'm feeling. I want something I can take care of. I want to take care of me, but cutting's the only way I know how to.

Not_what · Post by **Not_what** » Tue May 08, 2007 11:26 am

When I smle and say "excuse me, please" I really mean "GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY"

MusicalMorphine · Post by **MusicalMorphine** » Tue May 08, 2007 6:33 pm

I want to shut you all out so you can see I'm upset, but I know know of you care enough to try and get back in.

I want real friends who actually care. I can do the same back. I don't want all the attention, I just want someone with me.

xx mimi xx · Post by **xx mimi xx** » Tue May 08, 2007 7:19 pm

Im writing all of my secrets on dollar bills. I hope it helps me.

x3 mimi

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Wed May 09, 2007 3:36 am

There are too many days that I doubt if I am ever going to "get better"... and those days almost make me not want to care...

And I end up almost afraid of myself...

kendra · Post by **kendra** » Wed May 09, 2007 7:44 am

I hope he never comes back
I don't want to rely on others even though I should

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Wed May 09, 2007 9:34 am

<center>Okay people. How are we going to get this thread happening a bit more productive-y?

I'm just hearing so much pain and despair and I feel helpless, there's only so many hours in the day, I can only pm a few of you.

I'm also seeing a lot of focus on ACTIONS rather than FEELINGS.

I *know* this is the secrets thread, but this is the COPING forum, so can we all take a minute to think about what it really means to be posting here and what you really get out of it.

Thanks, El.<center>

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Wed May 09, 2007 6:50 pm

I am coping better than I thought I would be.

volta · Post by **volta** » Wed May 09, 2007 7:38 pm

hey el.

i see what you mean. but i think just posting on here is helping me cope. it's like, i can't work on my problem until i admit it. and i refuse to admit it to everyone else.

so, yeah.

thank you.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Wed May 09, 2007 9:30 pm

i'm becoming obsessed

mywildrainbow · Post by **mywildrainbow** » Thu May 10, 2007 12:01 am

PM's are ok

*****SU*****

i want to die and not just the "die so that the pain goes away"-type of it, i really want to die (i have no plan to carry it out though because i'm too depressed to do so)

Scatterbrain · Post by **Scatterbrain** » Thu May 10, 2007 4:35 am

I'm afraid that you will judge me if I tell you. I think I may lose you as a friend if I tell you. But, I'm pretty sure I will lose you if I dont tell you. I kind of want to tell you, but I know you wont understand and you will think I am fucking crazy.

~Megan

MusicalMorphine · Post by **MusicalMorphine** » Thu May 10, 2007 4:16 pm

My father kind of repulses me.

thelorax · Post by **thelorax** » Thu May 10, 2007 8:27 pm

(PMs/comments fine)

+ If you asked me to, i would marry you
+ I'm terrified of dying alone
+ I wish you would pay uninterrupted and constant sexual attention to me
+ I'm way kinkier than you know.

**SU**

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+ though I have no real intention of carrying it out, I've never told anyone how ridiculously often and graphically I fantasize about dying.

bus

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