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- steady hands
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i know my drinking is getting too much.yet i dont like to be told.
someone said i was turning into my mother,the other day,and i wanted to smack them.cos im so so scared its true
but right now id take or drink anything to make this go away
someone said i was turning into my mother,the other day,and i wanted to smack them.cos im so so scared its true
but right now id take or drink anything to make this go away
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last night i almost made my friends my excuse to cut.
i was so pissed at them when they stopped being upset and mad at me.
i wanted a reason.
i wish i was crazy so i could have an excuse to not act so okay all the time.
i don't want to be okay. i'm scared that maybe i'm getting there.
i don't want to be there.
i was so pissed at them when they stopped being upset and mad at me.
i wanted a reason.
i wish i was crazy so i could have an excuse to not act so okay all the time.
i don't want to be okay. i'm scared that maybe i'm getting there.
i don't want to be there.
- acdcrocker1909
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I'm afraid that I'm never going to be believed...
Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.
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- Licentia Poetica
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everyone here..
it's okay.
It's okay to wish everything was better. It's okay to feel hurt, or pissed off. It's okay to regret things you've done. It's okay to be scared, and terrified.
You are here, and that means you are trying. Even if you slip. Even if you drink after you promise yourself that you wouldnt.
You are not a failure because you feel overwhelmed.
I believe you. All of you. I believe IN you.
If I could pm each one of you right now I would, but I can't.
So next time.. you think your ED is your only self worth, or the only way you can feel okay is to take drugs, or hurt yourself, or drink, or mess up your life.. remember:
You are valued.
You are beautiful.
This can be okay.
Believe in yourself.
You can do this.
We can do this. Together.
Tomorrow won't feel so bad.
it's okay.
It's okay to wish everything was better. It's okay to feel hurt, or pissed off. It's okay to regret things you've done. It's okay to be scared, and terrified.
You are here, and that means you are trying. Even if you slip. Even if you drink after you promise yourself that you wouldnt.
You are not a failure because you feel overwhelmed.
I believe you. All of you. I believe IN you.
If I could pm each one of you right now I would, but I can't.
So next time.. you think your ED is your only self worth, or the only way you can feel okay is to take drugs, or hurt yourself, or drink, or mess up your life.. remember:
You are valued.
You are beautiful.
This can be okay.
Believe in yourself.
You can do this.
We can do this. Together.
Tomorrow won't feel so bad.
If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find.
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- mephistopheles
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- acdcrocker1909
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I'm afraid i'll infect the happy people.
Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.
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- handmade mute
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I so scared after what I did the other day. I just don't feel like I can try again.
"I don't know what to do at which time god screams to me there's nothing left for me to tell you"
- fortune
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i need a friend. i need someone, anyone. i need to talk. i need to be something other than what i am. i needneedneed so incredibly much. i am being crushed under the weight of all this pressure and i just can't do this anymore. i'm drowning in school work that i'm more than capable of doing, if there weren't so much of it. i'm drowning in the pressure of my expectations. i live a lonely invisible existence. i'm fatfatfat and i want to starvestarvestarve. i crave the numbness of overdose. all these issues are eating away at me... and i can't cope. but i say i can because i feel such incredible guilt otherwise. i'm frightened of death but it hurts too much to live like this. it hurts too damn much. and it's so incredibly hopless, i'm so incredibly hopeless. but. if you were to mention anything i'd probably deny any of this was true. i'm too ashamed and my shame is slowly killing me.
but this is now. and everything changes so fast. it changes. but it still hurts so damn much.
but this is now. and everything changes so fast. it changes. but it still hurts so damn much.
- HakunaMatata
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*SU*la*
I left BUS, people here care too much. People irl care too much (well a few anyway) I want to be left, hidden in a corner, to fester, and rot away. I can't talk to anyone anymore, that's why I'm here, if I talk, people get attached, then one day if they wake up and I don't, they won't be as affected as much. It's easier, keep my head down, there's nothing to say anyway, and when I talk it doesn't help people anyway so there's no point. It works better this way, I don't even know the fuck I've come back- to vent? It's not constructive, I shouldn't even be here anyway.
I left BUS, people here care too much. People irl care too much (well a few anyway) I want to be left, hidden in a corner, to fester, and rot away. I can't talk to anyone anymore, that's why I'm here, if I talk, people get attached, then one day if they wake up and I don't, they won't be as affected as much. It's easier, keep my head down, there's nothing to say anyway, and when I talk it doesn't help people anyway so there's no point. It works better this way, I don't even know the fuck I've come back- to vent? It's not constructive, I shouldn't even be here anyway.
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- Quiet little Angel
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i'm so scared of having to live alone that i might just ask someone to share a dormroom... even though the person isn't someone i have much to do with other than going to the sam city next year... i tell myself i can live alone, but when i look at how i manage being home alone for 24 hours i just don't think i can ever really do it...
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Never underestimate the power of silence...
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Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
- mephistopheles
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i really need some advice !
If you think outside the box there's no such thing as square one.
No matter which sleeve you wear your heart,
Whichever way you wear your crown,
Tomorrow is another day to turn it all around
I will stop when I'm ready I'll shown everyone my cards
But for now I'll keep on playing even when the game gets hard.
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