Candys Coping Thread

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Post by Candy » Thu Apr 26, 2007 12:42 am

I went to program today,but I could not stay all day,cause of the cold that I had,I wish it would go away,I had it since last friday,and it is getting to me. I do not have a fever,a sore thoart,just a cold and a cough.I came home cause I was so tired and I took a long nap.I finally wrote in my journal last night,it did help me alot. I have program tomorrow and I hope I feel better. My boy-friend is still in the hospital and he should get out tomorrow,hopefully not sure. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I have not done any SI,and it has been real hard for me,doing the best I can. I am watching t.v.,and taking it easy. I will be back on the bus later on. :star:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Thu Apr 26, 2007 2:56 am

yeah you can take whatever you want I hope it helps people.

Hope you feel better soon.

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Post by Candy » Thu Apr 26, 2007 3:14 am

Thanks for the messages. I am watching t.v.,and I will be going to bed real soon.I already talked to my boy-friend and he is doing good,hopefully he will be home tomorrow. I am doing alright,I have been taking it easy and starting to feel better. I have program tomorrow and then I will be off for the weekend. I did not write in my journal tonight,but I will tomorrow. I will be seeing my therapist tomorrow,and I will be changing some of my groups at program,cause I need a change,which will be good for me. I did not do any SI today,and I am proud of myself for that.I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. Going to take my medication for the night and get a good night sleep. I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening,promise. taking care of myself :star:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

To find yourself,think of yourself first.

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Post by Candy » Fri Apr 27, 2007 12:12 am

I had a great day at program today,and it went great. I have been watching t.v.,and taking it easy. My boy-friend is still in the hospital and I am not sure when he is getting out. I almost over with this cold and I am starting to feel alot better. I did not write in my journal yet,cause I have been taking it easy and relaxing. It has been almost three weeks since the last time I have done any SI,and I am proud of myself. I still have a cough from the cold and it is getting on my nerves. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can do. I am going to relax and do something postive for my self. I will be back on the bus later on,promise. :bcatsmile:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

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Post by Spidey » Fri Apr 27, 2007 12:34 am

awesome on the 3 weeks ^___^
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Post by Candy » Fri Apr 27, 2007 1:42 am

Thanks it has not been easy not to do any SI,and I still have thoughts of doing it,but I try not to think about it,but it is on my mind alot.I am watching Lifetime,Rebra is on,if I spell that right. I am doing pretty good and being on the bus has helped me alot.Again thanks. I will be back on later on,promise :star:
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Post by one out of none » Fri Apr 27, 2007 8:17 am

Hi Candy, just wanted to say well done on the three weeks without SI. That's great! Glad to hear your cold is clearing up too.

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Post by Candy » Fri Apr 27, 2007 9:16 pm

Thanks for the messages. I went out to lunch with a friend and we had a great time. I slept good last night and I needed the rest. My boy-friend is still in the hospital,not sure when he is getting out.It is hard to be home all by myself and he is not here with me,but I know that he is not doing well. I trying to keep myself busy and not to think about that,but I do feel lonely though,but being on the bus has helped me alot. No I have not written in my journal,just do not feel like it. My cold is almost gone,the cough is getting to me though. I am watching t.v.,and hanging in there. I have not done any SI so far,good thing. I am going to relax and take it easy for awhile,just feel tired out,no energy right now. I will be back on the bus later on,promise. :star:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

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Post by Candy » Sat Apr 28, 2007 3:07 am

I am just relaxing and I did not do anything tonight. It was one of those nights that I just wanted to relax.I already talked to my boy-friend and I hope he gets out of the hospital tomorrow.He seems like he is doing good.I am feeling pretty good,just going to take my medication and get some sleep. I did not do any SI tonight,and I am proud of myself,but there are times that I worry about Slipping,and that is always on my mind.It is hard though. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I hope everyone has a great night,and I will do the same. I am taking care of myself. Be back on the bus sometime tomorrow,promise. :star:
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Post by Candy » Sat Apr 28, 2007 11:30 pm

I kept myself busy most of the day. I went to visit my parents this morning and then I took a nap for awhile. I also went to visit my boy-friend in the hospital,he has been in there for a long time,I have not gone to see him earlier,cause of the cold that I have,but I am feeling better,just a cough that I have. I am going to watch t.v.,for awhile and take it easy the rest of the night. I hope to write in my journal later,but my problem is that I do not have any movtiation to do anything lately,and I do not know why.I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I have not done any SI lately,and it surprise me that I do have control over my urges,when I really tired hard enough,but thougts are still there. I am going to watch t.v and take it easy. I am doing alright. I will be back on the bus later,promise :bcatsmile:
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Post by Candy » Sun Apr 29, 2007 3:24 am

I am taking it easy and watching t.v.,. I had urges to do SI,but I stop myself,by laying down and thinking about positive things that are going on in my life,and that helped me alot. I am watching a movie and I will be going to bed real soon. I am proud of myself for stopping myself tonight and that I did not do any SI. I still have not written in my journal and that is something that I really need to work on and sometimes it is hard for me to write,cause I start to feel anxious when I write about something that is bothering me,and I hate when I feel like that,but I know that I need to get back in to it soon. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can do. I will be taking my night medication soon and then go to bed. I am doing alright tonight. I will be back on the bus sometime tomorrow,promise. :bcatsmile:
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Post by plantt » Sun Apr 29, 2007 5:04 am

hope you managed to write in the journal... i know you've said before you found it helpful...
would it be easier maybe to start by writing about nonupsetting things & then move into stuff you might feel anxious about?

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Post by Candy » Sun Apr 29, 2007 4:08 pm

Thanks for the messages. I did not write in my jounral last night,cause I was so tired out and then I went to bed. I agree with what you wrote about writing that way in my journal and I think it is a good ideal.Thanks.My boy-friend is getting out of the hospital today so I am proud about that. I am watching t.v.,and I am going to go lay down for awhile,and try real hard to write in my journal when I get up.Again thanks for the messages.I did not do any SI last night,that is a great thing. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I will be back on the bus later on,promise :bcatsmile:
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Post by Candy » Sun Apr 29, 2007 9:36 pm

I took a nap and I am sitting watching t.v.. I am waiting for my boy-friend to come over. I had a great day so far,and the sun is out,which helps me alot feel better. I have not done any SI so far,and I am very proud of myself. I have not written in my journal so far,and once I do not write in it for a day,it is soo hard for me to get back in to it.I need to push myself and try harder,but with the nice weather,it is harder to do so,so alot of times I will write before I go to bed. I am doing alright and taking care of myself. I will be back on the bus later on,promise. :bcatsmile:
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Post by plantt » Mon Apr 30, 2007 12:35 am

how about writing now so you don't forget or get too tired :tongue:

is your b/fs pneumonia all cleared up?

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Post by Candy » Mon Apr 30, 2007 3:51 am

I am doing alright. I was thinking about writing in my journal tonight,but now it is getting to late for me,and I am getting to tired. I feel terrible. My boy-friend is doing good,I hope that the pneuionon,not sure if I spell that right,is cleared up,cause he has been in the hospital about 5 times and he does have me worried. He is doing alright.thanks for asking.I am doing pretty good,just getting tired and need to get some sleep,I have program tomorrow and I have to get up early in the morning. Thanks for the advice you came me about the journal and I will do better tomorrow on that. I have not done any SI today and I am proud of myself. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I will be back on the bus tomorrow sometime mainly in the evening.taking care of myself :bcatsmile:
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To find yourself,think of yourself first.

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Post by Candy » Mon Apr 30, 2007 12:36 pm

I just woke up and I wanted to say hi to everyone :wavey: before I leave to go to program. I plan on having a great day and also plan on writing in my journal tonight.I had a rough night sleeping,but I did not do any SI at all,and I am proud of myself for that.I am doing alright and I am going to take care of myself today. I have to get going to get ready. I will be back on the bus later on,promise :bcatsmile:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

To find yourself,think of yourself first.

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Post by Candy » Mon Apr 30, 2007 11:58 pm

I just woke up from a nap,and I had a great day at program today,and when I got home I went for a walk and that felt great. I am watching t.v.,with my boy-friend and we are having a nice evening. I also met with my therapist and we had a nice talk and she helped me alot. I am doing pretty good right now. I have been doing great without any SI,and there are times in the back of my mind that I am afraid of slipping,and that scares me alot. I am haning in there and doing the best I can. I just wanted to let everyone know that I am doing alright. I will be back on the bus later on,promise. :bcatsmile:
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Post by one out of none » Tue May 01, 2007 9:53 am

I'm delighted to hear that program went well, and that you had a good day yesterday. It's great that your boyfriend is out of the hospital, and that things went well with your therapist also.

Hope that today is a good day for you!

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Post by Candy » Wed May 02, 2007 4:40 am

I had a great day today. I cleaned my apartment and kept busy. Then I went to the bank,cause today is the 1st of the month,and then my nurse came over and did my medication. Then I took a nap,cause I was so tired out. I went for a walk and it helped me alot. My boy-friend came over and we had a great visit. I am watching t.v.,and I will going to bed real soon. I am not happy with myself cause I have not written in my journal for awhile and that upsets me. I have not done any SI and it gets hard,but I am hanging in there. I just feel bad inside,cause I have not written in my journal. :( It is to late to write in it now,cause I have to get up for program and I need to get my sleep. I am taking it one day at a time. I am doing alright and taking care of myself. I will be back on the bus sometime tomorrow,mainly in the evening. I will be alright. :bcatsmile:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

To find yourself,think of yourself first.

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