Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

Forget Me · Post by **Forget Me** » Mon Apr 23, 2007 9:55 am

part of me is waiting for him to go overseas so i can be free.
part of me is waiting for him to go overseas so i can fuck his mates.
part of me is wishing hed break up with me.
part of me feels like i love him, part of me feels like i cant get far enough away.
i like being with him, but im getting so bored!

fourleafclover89 · Post by **fourleafclover89** » Mon Apr 23, 2007 11:39 am

pms welcome...i don't know if i'm doing the right thing. sorry...

i want to hurt myself
i want to run away
i want to be alone and free to do what i want without anyone judging me
i want to know that no matter what i do someone will always love me
i want someone to hug me
i want someone to know when i'm pretending that everythings ok
i want someone to know what to do when i get to the bottom and don't know what to do
i want to be able to laugh about failing in something, but at the same time i want to never fail anything ever.

magick · Post by **magick** » Tue Apr 24, 2007 1:40 am

::No IRL::
::SEX TrIG::
I've never had an orgasmn. Sounds lame, to post it, but it' the only reason I sleep with guys anymore. Not becasue I love them but in the hope that I may feel that one day. Maybe this time... no, it never happens. Leaves me feeling incapable of one of the most basic things, that makes us human.... leave me feeling incapable of being normal

PM only please

angel-for-you · Post by **angel-for-you** » Tue Apr 24, 2007 9:10 pm

-im afraid that my sister will snap and try to kill herself again...
-my sis is basically prone to postpardom depression and when i become an aunt (finally) i fear that shell take it away...
-i fear that he doesnt love me anymore
-i want my mother to die just to get her out of my life
-i doubt almost everything about who i am...except my friend mimi...and my music and bf...
-i lied at the hospital about how many times i cut myself...and when...
-i told my boyfriend that last time i cut was not the worst...it was the only time that i bled from...

vampirelover · Post by **vampirelover** » Tue Apr 24, 2007 9:25 pm

i dont feel alive with out SI
Ive been sexually abused
ive attemped suscide twice (age 9 and 11)
ive made myself throw up a few times
i feel like i can only be friends with miserable people
im afraid i will infect the happy people with my sadness
i cant trust anyone not even my mother
i dont remeber ever being happy
all i think about is SI 90 % of the time
i wait for rejection
im afraid of socializing
i feel like nothing i do is ever good enough
when im smile on the outside its away of covering up that im crying inside

you can reply to my post if u want

Kaleb · Post by **Kaleb** » Tue Apr 24, 2007 10:36 pm

i hate everything about myself

xx mimi xx · Post by **xx mimi xx** » Wed Apr 25, 2007 1:01 am

Im terrified that hes just dating me to have something to do (not meant sexually)
Im afraid that if I stop pretending Im strong, people will think less of me.
I dont know if what I think I want in life is really what I want.
I dont eat as much as I should but Im afraid to tell my best friend because I dont want her to have to deal with me.
I feel like Im annoying people when I go to them about my probelms.
I dont understand myself at all.
I want to draw again, I really do...but Im afraid to. I dont want to be, but somethings stopping me.
I want to write again, but I think I can only write something dark.
I dont know when I became who I am today, but I dont think I want to be her anymore.

x3 mimi

pms okay

volta · Post by **volta** » Wed Apr 25, 2007 2:24 am

i want so badly to hate my mother for how much she's hurting me

but i can't.

and i'm terrified every moment that she'll find out who i really am.

not her little baby.

she's hurt me too much for that.

and i'm still afraid of hurting her.

starcatuk · Post by **starcatuk** » Wed Apr 25, 2007 10:20 am

i cant stop its just to hard

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Wed Apr 25, 2007 11:22 am

one of the only things that gave me meaning and a reason to go on just fell apart.
i feel pathetically upset about the loss...of what was always a pathetic reason for life anyway...

Typoqueen · Post by **Typoqueen** » Wed Apr 25, 2007 11:49 am

The one thing thats kept me alive is the thing thats killing me.

MusicalMorphine · Post by **MusicalMorphine** » Wed Apr 25, 2007 5:37 pm

I'm glad she's okay, I just wish we could talk more. If she went I don't know what I would do.

black_23 · Post by **black_23** » Wed Apr 25, 2007 8:59 pm

I want to hurt and drink till it all goes away.
I hate what is happening and I can't do anything
Im not coping I just dont know what to do about it

Porcelain_Doll · Post by **Porcelain_Doll** » Wed Apr 25, 2007 9:36 pm

Sometimes the only reason I don't let myself go crazy, let myself fall apart, get myself sent away, is because he said he would kill himself.

I hate myself for burdening him. He deserves to be happy, to have a normal life and not deal with all my crazyness.

Beasty · Post by **Beasty** » Thu Apr 26, 2007 2:19 am

I still think she is really sexy, even though she is a bitch.

I have a huge crush on the deep musician. And he has a girlfriend.

I am deeply worried about him being in the psych ward even though...he probably needs to be there.

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Thu Apr 26, 2007 3:55 am

When I go to other people's houses, I go to the bathroom just to check and see if they have any good pills to steal.

Silentdancer · Post by **Silentdancer** » Fri Apr 27, 2007 12:35 am

I am starting to love and accept my unborn child.

Rodwy · Post by **Rodwy** » Fri Apr 27, 2007 3:58 am

-Sometimes I wish I could go back to SI without all the social problems it caused me.

MusicalMorphine · Post by **MusicalMorphine** » Fri Apr 27, 2007 3:11 pm

I get really into my fantasy worlds, whether it be in my head or the tv, and when I come out it's like woah, back to boring old crappy reality.

Then I get really depressed.

I know, I'm weird.

wilson · Post by **wilson** » Fri Apr 27, 2007 3:53 pm

i told my t i am busy for the next 2 weeks and to cancel our appt. and i will remake for when i have time. i have no intention on ringing her back. purely cos i hate her for telling me the truth.

pm's welcome

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