Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

[Callisto]

i'm a fuck up, plain and simple.

maybe im just destined to be alone?

[Scatterbrain]

The reason I told you about my freak out last night is that you might have encouraging words, or offer to help me even a little. Instead, all you said is "I'm sorry" and went on bitching about your mom... cant you see I need help. I dont give a fuck about the girls you want to date, I dont care you are a lesbian... it doesnt matter to me... you are still my friend. you promised you would help me. have you? not one bit.. you listen a little and then go on talking about your fucking hormones and how much you like B or you think J is hot... shut the fuck up and help me.

I cant do this on my own anymore.

~Megan

[fortune]

help

[Something Else]

I said I don't know how I feel about going off the meds. But I do know. I feel scared. And hopeless. And frustrated. I know that staying on them isn't a good choice, since they're making me crazy. I just don't like any option right now.

[mephistopheles]

if i start crying now i don't know if i'll ever stop

[5th section]

we're shit, are we? no-one wants to play for us. no-one wants to listen to us. It would be nice if you'd defend us sometimes. you know how important it is to me. And, this might be below the belt, but it's not like you're any better.

[Flower[~on~the~]wall]

This says words left unsaid.
Yet thare no words. Cause I cant.dont.wont. go on. I have no means to end it atm, that should make me physically/literally safe, but emotionally it makes me feel unsafer than ever.

[mithz]

I don't know what I would do without you

[crs13]

I don't care if you're bored, find a way of entertaining yourself other than pointless hour-long conversations. GO AWAY.

[Rodwy]

Something I can't bring myself to tell my ex. Sum up of things anyways.

What the hell is wrong with you, why have you gotten so different in the past couple weeks and why did it change everything between us? I cant believe you hurt me like that, how could you? I love you don't you know that? What ever happened to you? Is it because I have trouble talking with you sometimes because I have trouble explaining my feelings? It was getting easier to tell you things the more I came to trust you before you left. But you did leave and came back but it didn't last. We need to put the past behind us and try again.

[5th section]

yes I suppose I do feel something. i can't act on it and I'm being hopelessly inept as usual, and anyway half of me doesn't want anything to happen because I know I'm not worth it. I can only hope you find someone else and that'll make up my mind for me.

[Scatterbrain]

Thank you. It really scared me to have you read it, but your input is invaluable. I'm scared to graduate and move. Then I wont have you to talk to. I wont be able to just walk down the hall when I need reassurance or help with SI. I am going to miss you a ton. I've never had as much support as you have given me... Thank you so much. --> "GU is just too far away... I wouldnt be able to yell at you" thanks for saying that, it just reaffirms that you really do care about me!

~Megan

[Anactoria]

i'm sorry for being so stupid and insecure. i'm sorry for being hopeful and ever thinking that we could learn to be more than friends.

[broken this fragile thing]

i do trust u and i know u love me but i know u had a problem with alcohol. what if she initiates it? will u slip up then?

[purplefroggydishwasher]

you said you would call. it's been three days. i just need to know that i'm not so bad. i just need a reason, something more than what i have.

just call, please?

[Silentdancer]

You told me in a letter about 7 years ago that you were there for me no matter what I needed. While the kind words you wrote in your chicken scratch on the paper brought tears to my eyes, it isn't until now that I wish I could take you up on the kindness. You are my brother, the one family member I consider family, and I wish I could tell you how much I love you and how much you mean to me. As you move out of the house tomorrow, I will feel left behind, like I always have anytime you reach a milestone...graduating high school....going to college...moving out the first time....and now getting married and moving out again. I am so happy for you I can't even describe it, but a piece of my heart aches knowing you won't be popping your head in my room when you get home from work at night. I really enjoy our late night conversations about nothing at all. It is incredible to having someone to laugh with and I am proud to call you my brother.

Best wishes on your wedding day. I love you my Butthead.

[TheAlmightyMogg]

somebody suggested that it would be a good idea to have a thread somewhere where i can write all the letter i never send
writing to people is so much easier than saying it to somebodies face but these letters have , and never will be sent

this was in Place but i already have a place there so i had to move my unwritten letters one
i needed somewhere to put evrything i wish i could say to people outside of my place because putting them in my place would kinda....get them said..i dunno how to explain it
anyway

the reason i have No irl in my tital is cause there are quite a lot of people i know on bus wierdly and i dnt want these read by them as they are private from my life outside bus

they can be read by anyone else though

thanks

[TheAlmightyMogg]

To Rob

i had a bad day today. i know all down and stuff. but you know i get like that sometimes. im sorry i worried you that time.i hope you are having a brilliant time. i miss you so much it hurts. i dont know what to do. its like missing a limb not having you here to talk to. its funny because it somehow feels like im guilty of not wishing you a good time because i want you back, but i do hope you are having a good time i really do.
please could you just reassure me that you havnt forgotten me? please?
i need to know this isnt going to split us. i need some hope to get me through all the fucking shit that is going on. i wish i could tell you exctly how i feel. you know more about me than anyone. you know everything apart from how down i feel. i think thats something you can only understand if you have experienced it yourself. im glad you havnt.
i Hate Frankie. ive never met her and i hate her. how can she tell you she is pregnant?
i know she isnt. she seemed perfectly unpregnant to who got hr off of bebo. shes screwing with you. shes screwing with US,
please dont leave me.
i couldnt bare it. our last day together was spoiled by her stupid text. i couldnt sleep that night. all i could think of was her and then her saying she was pregnant made me think of her touching you and it made me sick to my stomach that she got even that close to you. i know you werent mine.. i know you feel bad about it. i know that it hurts when you talk about it....you tell me evrythig. you told me what you want to do about the non existant baby, i saw almost crying because you dont want a kid, not now. but it goes against evrything.
im gonna stop this now im babbling

I love you dont forget me i miss you

Kat
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[TheAlmightyMogg]

Dear Sarzy

hey hunni i know i dont talk to you on msn anymore. i spoke to Freddo and he had a right go at me about it. he said i was inconsiderate and that i cant be arsed to talk to anyone over there about anything anymore. its ot that i cant be arsed, its that i felt that you had abandoned me and that i couldnt tell you anything anymore. maybe i was wrong. maybe it WAS me who started to rip us apart. its just when i lived over there i was a mess. u remember i cried all that time? i cut? i remember how that scared you and im sorry for evrything i put you through.it hurt to think that you got the impression that i dont care. i do i swear. remember when we had that arguement when you got back from England? and then when people asked you how i was doing you said "oh i dont know shes probably killed herself by now stupid bitch"
that hurt
it hurt so much i thought i would die. it made me realise i was pushing evrything onto you. you made me feel like i am a drama queen. im not. i try to hide stuff i swe\r i do. i try my hardest to keep evrything inside where its hurting no1 else but me. but somehow it just bursts out of the seams.
i know this sounds wierd but when i came back i felt old. im 16 but already it felt like my life was over. when you were all chatting about
who-so-and-so-fancied and why-he-dumped her, i was just thinking "why all this shit? is there nothing more to life than pointless crap?"
maybe i just take life too seriously. i dont know. maybe its just the way i am and maybe i cant change it.
im sorry hunni i hope you get incontace with me sometime. we ae stuck in this deadlock where i think you dnt wanna talk to me and u think i dnt wanna talk to you. on msn our messages conpicuous by their adsense. i never phone you anymore. i never text. but neither do you. can you be arsed either?

[Wall]

So, yeah. I probably need to see a therapist. I have no idea how to accomplish it. It's the childcare thing. It seems there are no good options. So, I feel stuck. And yes, there's the fear. Blah, blah, blah. I wish I knew how to talk about it. When you're quiet for long enough for me to try, it seems you go to sleep or are involved in something else -- I feel guilty interrupting you. Other times I just can't speak and sending you a not seems......fearful. I would love to talk. Talk. Brainstorm. Together.