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MusicalMorphine · Post by **MusicalMorphine** » Tue Apr 10, 2007 4:05 pm

Seeing my owns posts about myself makes me feel sick.

crs13 · Post by **crs13** » Thu Apr 12, 2007 5:46 am

I want to DIE!
And I was going to do it ... I didn't know how but I was completely determined ... and I probably would have if there'd been a way. And I still would if I thought I could.

kendra · Post by **kendra** » Thu Apr 12, 2007 6:57 am

When someone asks how I am, I always hope they pry a bit more when I say fine, cuz most likely I really am not...
PM's ok

volta · Post by **volta** » Thu Apr 12, 2007 6:57 pm

i'm really really scared, and i hate it.

i feel so small.

there's no way to guarantee that this will turn out right if i tell them

i'm, . . . i'm . . .

no.

i've got ana/mia.

i feel so bad because it's been so long since i cut, but this is the same, isn't it? just on the inside.

Scatterbrain · Post by **Scatterbrain** » Fri Apr 13, 2007 2:10 am

I fucking hate always being the alternate... I am always in 2nd place... never get the scholarship, the job, the recognition, all I ever get is runner up but usually I get nothing...

I feel like I am a fake. Like I shouldnt being dealing with SI etc. like my life isnt too bad and I am somehow blowing everything out of proportion by SIing etc. I dont "deserve" to do this to myself...

~Megan

MusicalMorphine · Post by **MusicalMorphine** » Fri Apr 13, 2007 5:40 pm

I am not coping AT ALL.

I just want to close my eyes and make everything go away. I know suicide's not an option and that scares me a little because I know I can't get away.

Quiet little Angel · Post by **Quiet little Angel** » Sat Apr 14, 2007 12:05 am

he made me realise... i'm not ready to accept this yet... even though my T told me long ago that this was probably real and not just pictures from a movie twisted by my brain to look like painfull memories... but as painfull as it is to freeze up or have to say no over and over again... i'm just not ready to go there... i'm not ready to deal with that... it's too much... it's too big... it still feels unreal and untrue... even though it's been 4 years since i was told... i've only ever told one person... and only because he asked... flat out... he just knew already so i ended up being honest even though it felt like lying... i know it's real... i know i'm not lying... but talking about it... thinking about it... it still feels like lies... like fantasies or nightmares in my twisted mind... i'm not ready to deal... so i'm going to keep pretending it never happened... i'm going to go on like i don't know it's true...

for obvious reasons, please don't comment unless you feel it's a matter of life and death to do it...

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sat Apr 14, 2007 12:15 am

you're the closest to real friends i've ever really had.

a shadow in the wind · Post by **a shadow in the wind** » Sat Apr 14, 2007 8:24 am

pms are fine

i si casue i feel like im nt doing well enough in my school work and have promised myself that if i do better the pain will stop

i feel goiulty about feeling bad about my problmes casue they are so insignificant. the are people in the world who have problems tht are much bigger thn mine however i feel like its the end of the wrold. i feel so week

nobody in my family knows tht i si and nether do my firends except for one

i feel like im keeping secrets from myself

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sat Apr 14, 2007 4:11 pm

i want to be erased.

made invisible.

gone completely.

crs13 · Post by **crs13** » Sun Apr 15, 2007 1:53 am

I haven't taken my medicine in a week. I know it's horribly stupid to do that on purpose, but I have no plans to start taking them again right away. I'm supposed to feel bad, I deserve it even; it's just the way things are.

pm's okay

HiddenByLies · Post by **HiddenByLies** » Sun Apr 15, 2007 6:43 am

i'm not sure where this life is taking me.
i'm with the most amazing guy ever,
so i should be happy... right?
but... i'm not. i don't want to lose him
due to my moody and self absorbed self.
that's the last thing i need right now
but i feel like i'm running in circles
and no one is here to pull me back to reality.
i know he is, and that he would,
but i just feel so distant from him sometimes.

i want to disappear and go away.
i feel like no one would notice if i was gone anyway.

pm's okay.

Flower[~on~the~]wall · Post by **Flower[~on~the~]wall** » Mon Apr 16, 2007 12:25 am

Stop playing with my head, putting demands on me. Offloading your rubbish onto me and expecting me recycle it into something healthy. Cause right now I'm not strong enough to cope with any of my own rubbish never mind yours or anyone elses. I don't love you, I wasn't lieing when I said friends was all I wanted, why must you cling onto the hope that wasn't what I used to want and that it still isn't.

xx mimi xx · Post by **xx mimi xx** » Mon Apr 16, 2007 10:38 pm

i want to stop waiting for something bad to happen to me but i dont know how.

x3 mimi

Porcelain_Doll · Post by **Porcelain_Doll** » Mon Apr 16, 2007 11:04 pm

I know that the pills won't make everything instantly perfect, but I like to pretend.

Silentdancer · Post by **Silentdancer** » Mon Apr 16, 2007 11:49 pm

I am starting to wish i had had an abortion. I can't do this anymore...i'm scared.

++Jigsaw++ · Post by **++Jigsaw++** » Tue Apr 17, 2007 12:12 am

-I HATE that i just let him get away with what he did to me and that he can talk to me like he never did anything wrong.

-i miss my baby even though he died before he was even born.

Whats wrong with me!? *cries*

xx mimi xx · Post by **xx mimi xx** » Tue Apr 17, 2007 3:11 am

I hate that Im being hypocritical with my best friends ed. I say its horrible but I go days on one meal.. Why?

x3 mimi

kermit · Post by **kermit** » Tue Apr 17, 2007 3:24 pm

~~ED~~

Part of me wants to go back to when I was messed up, I was thin then. I know it was awful and I know how much it hurt but right now all I can think about is how I was thin.

*PMs ok*

wilson · Post by **wilson** » Tue Apr 17, 2007 3:37 pm

no matter how much i try to resit the urge i cant. so im going to give in now

bus

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