Candys Coping Thread
Candy's Coping Thread
I had a great time with my boy-friend we went out to eat at Sunny's and then we went to Walmart,cause I forgot to pick something up. I started writing in my journal,but I have to finish before I go to bed. I feel kind of anxious,but I am trying to relax and take it easy. It has been another day so far without SI,and it has not been easy for me,cause the urges are starting to bother me,but I am trying very hard to keep myself busy and relax. I have to go back to program tomorrow,looking forward to it,but not looking forward to get up early. I can not believe my birthday is this Sunday coming up!!! I am going to go and watch t.v.,and try to relax. I will be back on the bus before I go to bed,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing ok,just feeling kind of anxious right now,I finish writing in my journal and it helped me get through the way I am feeling inside. My boy-friend just left and I am going to watch t.v.,for awhile and then go to bed. I have program tomorrow so I will be back on the bus in the evening. I already took my medication for the night,and I need better sleep then I have been getting. My boy-friend is not feeling well still,he is having trouble with his breating,it is shallow,which makes me nervous and I told him how I feel,he needs to stop smoking,but he will not. He has asthma and brociolice,did not spell that word right,I can not make him stop smoking,but his breathing does not bother me. I have told him how I feel,but he will not take care of himself the way he is suppose to. It can get frustrated for me sometimes,and I do love him. I know that I need to take care of myself right now. I just hope he gets better. I will be going to bed real soon,and I hope to get a good night sleep,it is hard cause I worry about him soo much. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can.I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening. Keeping myself safe. 
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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angelic212
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thanks for replying to my coping space Candy i really appreciate it ,
im doing better now, im feeling less anxious.
feel a bit sleepy now, but im gonna go watch a movie,
i also need to work on some therapy assignments for tomorrow.
but i feel better than earlier, i was freaking out earlier.
i hope that you have a good day tomorrow , a good day at the program.
take care of yourself.
remember you can always pm me . or email me
have a good night sleep .
bye for now
im doing better now, im feeling less anxious.
feel a bit sleepy now, but im gonna go watch a movie,
i also need to work on some therapy assignments for tomorrow.
but i feel better than earlier, i was freaking out earlier.
i hope that you have a good day tomorrow , a good day at the program.
take care of yourself.
remember you can always pm me . or email me
have a good night sleep .
bye for now
Candy's Coping Thread
I am glad that you are doing better,I am hanging in there and doing the best I can do. I am getting ready to go to bed,getting tired. I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening,due to my program. I am glad that you are doing alot better. I am taking it one day at a time and taking care of myself.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I just got home from program and I had a great day. I had a great talk with my therapist and she helped alot. I am going to lay down for awhile and take it easy,probably take a nap.The medication changed that I had a few months ago,has helped my anxiety alot,where they have not turn in to a panic attack,I still have anxiety,but not as bad as they were.My boy-friend will be over later on and I need to get some rest and take it easy,I will be back on the bus later,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I just woke up from a nap,cause I was soo tired out. I am watching t.v.,with my boy-friend. He is doing alright,just wish he was feeling better. I have a busy day tomorrow, I have to clean the apartment,my nurse is coming over and my friend is taking me out for lunch for my birthday,which is this Sunday,but I only met with her once a week,cause she is volunteer from Compeer. I am going to relax and take it easy,and watch t.v. I have not done any SI so far,but the thoughts are always there. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I will be back on later,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I wish I could say that I am in a good mood,but the truth is that I am not. My boy-friend went back to the ER,again cause of his breathing,cause he has asthmas and other health issues,but what is getting to me,is they want him to stop smoking,but he will not listen to anyone,even me,and if he keeps it up,it could end his life,and I do not know what to do for him,and I would of gone with him,but he is not listening to the doctors that told him to quit, I know it is not easy to stop smoking and it is hard,but for his health he needs to and I told him that we could quit together,but he said no way. I am angry,scares and confused and he knows how I feel,but it is like he does not listen to me. We had plans for my birthday this Sun,my parents asked him to come over this Easter,for my birthday. Just have mixed up feelings that is all. I am going to go and watch t.v.,and take it easy. I will be back on before I go to bed.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I have not heard anything about my boy-friend and I will find out more either late tonight or tomorrow,I took my medication for the night and I will be going to bed real soon,I will have my phone by my bed,just in case he calls me and I will post tomorrow what is going on. I did not do any SI today and I am feeling good about myself about that. I did not get a chance to write in my journal,but I will tomorrow. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can do. I am alright and I hope he is going to be alright as well. I need to take care of myself right now. I will be going to bed real soon and I will be back on the bus tomorrow,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I had a rough night last night,cause my boy-friend is back in the hospital again,and he is not getting better,he will not listen and stop smoking and this sunday is my birthday and we were suppose to go to my mother's for easter,my birthday,and her's which is Monday,the day after mine. I did not do any SI,which is a good thing,just feeling down. I am going out to lunch with my girlfriend to celerbrate my birthday and then go to the hospital to see him. I am haning in there and taking care of myself right now. I got the apartment cleaned and that is it for now. I will write in my journal later on,not sure of what time. I feel bad that he is sick again and want him to get better,but he is not taking care of himself either. He has asthams and pnuieman,not sure if I spell that right,and is why needs to stop smoking. I am just frustrated and worn out. I am going to watch t.v.and take care care of myself. I will be back on later on,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I did not get things done like I wanted to,I went out for lunch with my girlfriend and she got me a pair of earrings for my birthday and they are butterflies. Then I went to see my boy-friend at the hospital,he is doing alright and I hope and pray that he feels better;plus he wants to be out before Sunday,which is my birthday. I did not write in my journal or anything,I am soo tired and I have to get up early cause I have to be at my program,before 8:30,cause I have to see the doctor there. I am relaxing and watching t.v right now and I will be back on the bus before I go to bed,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing alright,just feeling really tired and I am going to go to bed real soon. I talked to my boy-friend and he is alright,just hope he feels better soon. I have to go to program tomorrow and I have to leave early,cause I have to see the doctor at 8:30 in the morning,so I want to make sure I get a good night sleep. I know that I did not do what I want to do,like write in my journal or anything else,but I have been so busy,and all I want to do,is sleep right now. I already took my medication for the night,and after program my case-manager is coming over around 3:30pm,and I might go back to the hospital to see him. I had a great day today,just missed my boy-friend. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can,and I did not do any SI today,which is pretty good. I will be back on the bus sometime tomorrow,just not sure what time. taking care of myself. I will be back on the bus tomorrow sometime,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I know that I have not been on for awhile. I have been keeping myself busy around the apartment. I went to see Mike last night at the hosptial and he is coming home today. I wrote in my journal last night and it helped me alot. I have not done anything else today,cause I was soo tired that I slept in. I did not go to program today,cause it was snowing out,in April we got snow. I am looking forward to my birthday this Sunday,going to be on Easter.I have not done any SI and it has been real hard for me,just taking it one minute at a time.I am going to do something positive for myself today,not sure what at this point,but I will think of something. I am going to watch t.v for awhile and try to relax.
I am hanging in there and I will be back on the bus later on,promise
I am hanging in there and I will be back on the bus later on,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I slept alot today,just did not feel like doing anything. I did slip again,but I made myself stop and it was not easy to stop. It has been over 2 weeks since my last slip and I feel guilty. What I need to do besides using my coping skills,is come on here when I feel likd doing SI,just feel bad inside. I did not have a chance to do anything,cause I was so tired out. My boy-friend is here and he is feeling better,hope he stays that way. The snow makes me feel depressed,and I do not like it. I already took my medication,and I need it. I am going to watch t.v and spend time with my boy-friend. I have laundry to do tomorrow and when I get home,I will do something for myself tomorrow. I will be back on the bus later on,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
My boy-friend just left and I will be going to bed real soon. I know that I slip with SI,earlier today and I am not going to let it get in the way of my weekend or my birthday. I promise myself that I will do something positive for myself when I get home from doing laundry. I have been feeling soo tired all day and can not get motiviated to do anything,but I will tomorrow. I feel better,just the urges get to me and I have been doing good for over a week and a half,that is pretty good,just need to try harder right now. I know that I need to post more coping stuff on here,just can not think of anything right now,sorry about that. I am going to watch t.v for awhile and then go to bed. I will be back on the bus tomorrow sometime,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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JadaKiss
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Re: Candys Coping Thread
Candy wrote:I have been having panic attacks and I am having a hard time relaxing,plus I have a cold,can anyone think of better way to help me to cope and deal with the panic attacks,that is one problem I am having with right now.,plus I do not know how to put pictures on the bus after my post,besides that I am taking it easy and trying to get better. I hope that this coping thread has helped anyone. If anyone wants to PM,me they can, I am here for others as well.
errr.... this probably won't help, but when I have panic attacks I have to have someone there with me....to hold hands, look me in the eye (to stay focused) and talk... let me talk-they talk... just so I know I'm not alone and dont get lost in that awful feeling.... do you have "people"?
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Candy's Coping Thread
I just got done with my laundry and I did my nails wish I have not done in a long time. What hurts me the most is that I gave my friends birthday cards when it was their birthday,but now that my birthday is coming up,all they can say is Happy Birthday,and it does hurt,but I am not going to let it ruin my weeked. Even though I slip last night,I am not going to let it bother me,or ruin my weekend. My boy-friend helps me through the panic attacks when I have them,he is a big help to me. I am doing pretty good,just going to relax and take it easy. I am just having a hard time writing in my journal this weekend,and I do feel bad about it. Any suggestions. I am doing alright today. We have snow here and it is April,we thought we were done with it. that is the weather. I am going to go for now,and I will be back later on.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am just sitting here watching t.v.,with my boy-friend and we are having a good time. I have not written in my journal yet or anything else,I feel bad about it,but eventually I will get to it,probably night or tomorrow,but before sunday. I am doing alright the urges are still there but I am doing everything I can not to let them get to me. I am feeling alot,just anxious and I am trying to get my mind off of it. I am going to relax and take it easy. I will be back on the bus later on.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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angelic212
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Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing alright,I had a slip last night with SI,so I had a rough time with that. I am sorry that you are not doing good,you are not the lonely one. I am watching t.v.,with my boy-friend and that is about it. I have not written in my journal tonight,so it looks like it will be tomorrow. I feel somewhat better,just a little bit anxious,did I tell you that my birthday is this Sunday. I am going to relax and take it easy.Just hanging in there and doing the best I can. I am here for you as well. be back on the bus later on.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
It is hard on me right now,cause I went over 2 weeks without SI,and it is been picking up again. I am watching t.v and trying to focus my mind on good things that are going on with me,it is hard,but I am trying real hard. I am going to make tomorrow a new day,and start over again.I promise myself that I will write in my journal tomorrow,even if I have to push myself. I need to start using my coping skills more than I have been,cause not using them is not helping me at all. I will be taking my medication for the night and go to bed,cause that where I feel safe right now,is when I go to bed. I am looking forward to Sun which is my birthday,I was trying to make it to my birthday without doing any SI,and I did not make it,try again and forgive myself. I promise to be back on the bus tomorrow,sometime.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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