I'm proud of myself today because....
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i showered, brushed my teeth and put on make up, ready to start anew.
[I'm talking about my life.][I can't seem to get that through to you.]
[I'm not just talking about one person,][I'm talking about everybody.]
[I'm talking about form, I'm talking about content.][I'm talking about inter-relationships.]
[I'm talking about God, the Devil, Hell, Heaven!]
[Do you understand?]
[Finally?]
(one flew over the cuckoo's nest)
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i didn't freak out that she wasn't there.
i would have done maybe last year, definitely the year before that. so even though i may not feel like it an awful lot of the time, i'm making some sort of progress.
i didn't freak out. i organised people and we got stuff done. and i had fun. without her being there.
i would have done maybe last year, definitely the year before that. so even though i may not feel like it an awful lot of the time, i'm making some sort of progress.
i didn't freak out. i organised people and we got stuff done. and i had fun. without her being there.
'cos i am a rocket on fire[[alone on its journey, home to the quickening ground with no-one there to catch it]]
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You do it to yourself, you do, that's what really hurts,
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I got off work early and went to the campus health center, and filled out a million and a half forms so I could talk to a counselor. And I told the counselor about how I've been more depressed lately, and how my private doctor wasn't worried but I was, and she got me an appointment for Monday to see a pdoc who works through the health center.
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i opened up to my t. and let her see the other parts of myself.
[I'm talking about my life.][I can't seem to get that through to you.]
[I'm not just talking about one person,][I'm talking about everybody.]
[I'm talking about form, I'm talking about content.][I'm talking about inter-relationships.]
[I'm talking about God, the Devil, Hell, Heaven!]
[Do you understand?]
[Finally?]
(one flew over the cuckoo's nest)
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I made sure all the new promotions were in place ready for next week when I'm off work so my boss doesn't have to venture into my department when we're short staffed.
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because i havent done anything negative this weekend
and because i didnt isolate myself
also because i did my photography course homework already its do tomorrow, didnt really wait till the last minute, like i always do, now i can just relax.
because im learning each day something different about computers, i like computer stuff!
because i havent acted on any ed behavior this weekend.
and because i didnt isolate myself
also because i did my photography course homework already its do tomorrow, didnt really wait till the last minute, like i always do, now i can just relax.
because im learning each day something different about computers, i like computer stuff!
because i havent acted on any ed behavior this weekend.
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I'm proud because I've made myself come back to BUS and talk about what's happening, rather than trying to deal with it all myself. I'm proud that I'm getting more used to asking for help, since it's really hard for me to do. More so, though, I'm proud that being here hasn't made me urgy like I was scared it would.
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...because i made it through last night without SI or doing anything else stupid, thanks to the help of my friends and gf.
[I'm talking about my life.][I can't seem to get that through to you.]
[I'm not just talking about one person,][I'm talking about everybody.]
[I'm talking about form, I'm talking about content.][I'm talking about inter-relationships.]
[I'm talking about God, the Devil, Hell, Heaven!]
[Do you understand?]
[Finally?]
(one flew over the cuckoo's nest)
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proud
Typo... I'm glad you're still here fighting.
Although I'm not proud of alot of things today, I am proud I walked on the treadmill for 1 mile... I was supposed to do 2, but I just got lazy, I guess. I'm out of my anxiety meds and don't have insurance for another week and feel like I'm crawling out of my skin, so that's why I was proud that I went for the walk.... that way I didn't SI*.
Although I'm not proud of alot of things today, I am proud I walked on the treadmill for 1 mile... I was supposed to do 2, but I just got lazy, I guess. I'm out of my anxiety meds and don't have insurance for another week and feel like I'm crawling out of my skin, so that's why I was proud that I went for the walk.... that way I didn't SI*.
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I helped my boyfriend with his math and didn't get frustrated, slam my papers onto the table, and ignore him.
Never to suffer would never to have been blessed.
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Wow, pluginbaby, that is something to be proud about. It's hard to get going on assignments sometimes (at least for me).
I'm proud because I've made almost a week without hurting myself, and it hasn't been easy. And I've been taking my pill every day, since it was prescribed four days ago, and I'm fighting to get better. And last night I went to a T appointment, and she said I did a better job talking to her and telling her what's going on (or something like that). And... I'VE MADE AN ENTIRE MONTH WITHOUT ALCOHOL!
I'm proud because I've made almost a week without hurting myself, and it hasn't been easy. And I've been taking my pill every day, since it was prescribed four days ago, and I'm fighting to get better. And last night I went to a T appointment, and she said I did a better job talking to her and telling her what's going on (or something like that). And... I'VE MADE AN ENTIRE MONTH WITHOUT ALCOHOL!
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fight!
Those are TONS of things to be proud of!!! It's all about baby steps, the whole "one day at a time thing" with any addiction or self destructive coping mechanism. I'M PROUD OF YOU! I love that you said "I'm fighting to get better" because that's what it takes.... the willingness to fight, and the willingness to stand back up when you fall. Good job, Jaded!!!Something Else wrote:Wow, pluginbaby, that is something to be proud about. It's hard to get going on assignments sometimes (at least for me).
I'm proud because I've made almost a week without hurting myself, and it hasn't been easy. And I've been taking my pill every day, since it was prescribed four days ago, and I'm fighting to get better. And last night I went to a T appointment, and she said I did a better job talking to her and telling her what's going on (or something like that). And... I'VE MADE AN ENTIRE MONTH WITHOUT ALCOHOL!
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That's wonderful, well done!!Something Else wrote:
I'm proud because I've made almost a week without hurting myself, and it hasn't been easy. And I've been taking my pill every day, since it was prescribed four days ago, and I'm fighting to get better. And last night I went to a T appointment, and she said I did a better job talking to her and telling her what's going on (or something like that). And... I'VE MADE AN ENTIRE MONTH WITHOUT ALCOHOL!
I'm proud because I went to a party and saw my ex-boyfriend for the first time since we split up, with his new girlfriend, and I didn't get overly upset or make a fool of myself in front of him.
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