Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Sat Mar 03, 2007 1:53 am

i need you.. i need you right now to tell me everything's going to be okay... i need you to make me believe in myself.. i need you to tell me not to be afraid of my own damned self.. i really need you.
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Post by half/hearted » Sun Mar 04, 2007 3:55 am

WHAT THE xxxx IS WRONG WITH YOU?! WHY COULDN'T YOU HAVE BROUGHT ME UP NORMAL SO THAT I COULD SURVIVE AROUND NORMAL PEOPLE?! YOU REFUSED TO PUT ME IN A NORMAL SCHOOL SO I'VE GROWN UP A FREAK. NOW I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT. I CAN'T WRITE THIS xxxxING ESSAY, I CAN'T EVEN MAKE FRIENDS.

YOU KEEP ASKING IF YOU'RE GOOD PARENTS. YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU'RE NOT. YOU RUINED ME.

xxxx YOU.
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sun Mar 04, 2007 10:53 am

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Post by daisy_chain » Sun Mar 04, 2007 3:19 pm

i need you so much and it hurts that i cant do anything to make you stay.
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Post by HakunaMatata » Sun Mar 04, 2007 8:24 pm

I only met you once. We'd talked before that. But you gave all the right signals. So no wonder I was kissing you etc. Then you went off with some other girl-who you're actually seeing. I wouldn't usually mind, but I actually like you. I rarely like lads in the sense that I would actually date them, now where does this leave me? Back in the rut I just crawled from? Great. I'm just glad you told me, instead of letting me think it was another randomer and that something still might happen between us, but equally now I'm confused- if you're seeing another girl who is there, why go with another girl too.
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Post by Scatterbrain » Sun Mar 04, 2007 8:34 pm

I want to tell you. I want your help. I want to know your opinion on my situation. I want guidance and help to make this decision. I just dont know if I want to start this process over. Last time you get scared and thought that telling someone would make it all go away. I dont want you to tell someone because, believe it or not, I have this sort of under control. I'm not going to kill myself any fucking minute. But you dont understand that SI doesnt = SU... I'm not sure I can risk telling you and having you misunderstand...

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Post by black_23 » Sun Mar 04, 2007 9:09 pm

Im sorry Im not there for you more, if i could be I would, Im so sorry that its my fault that you've fallen apart, Im selfish and I wish there was another way, but at the moment there's no way out for me to be there, but Im here and Im listening and I always will be, so sorry baby.
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Post by styled_wrong » Tue Mar 06, 2007 11:12 am

please just let me in i really want to help and it hurts knowing that u dont trust me anough
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Post by mephistopheles » Tue Mar 06, 2007 10:26 pm

I wish you had the balls to say "I don't love you". It would make this so much easier. The pretence is wearing.
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Post by red umbrellas » Wed Mar 07, 2007 1:05 am

i'm leaving again
i can't cope in this house, this city
it's nothing you've done
it's just that there'snext to no one and nothing here for me

so i'm gone. soon.
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Post by zombiepeople » Wed Mar 07, 2007 1:10 am

you all think I'm a joke, don't you! Well FUCK YOU ALL!! :evil:

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Post by syn » Wed Mar 07, 2007 4:18 am

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Post by Scatterbrain » Wed Mar 07, 2007 5:05 am

Shut up! I cant deal with your fighting and your passive aggressiveness right now...
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I'm not here/This isn't happening"
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Post by April » Wed Mar 07, 2007 9:19 pm

Wow. How very mature of you. Why are you acting like this is new news?
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Post by starboi_101 » Thu Mar 08, 2007 3:05 pm

W: You mean the world to me and I miss you. I know you don't want it, but I just want to hold you in my arms and love you. It's hard to accept that it was only a physical thing, but I'm glad it happened. S is so lucky to have you.

X: I can't help you if you won't help yourself. That is one of the reasons I have distanced myself. Also I can't stand your double standards.

J: C is one of the luckiest guys in the world, having someone like you. You are always there for me - I want to be there for you the same way. I hope we stay friends forever.

Ju: I love you. You know I do. I wish you'd let me in.... I wish we could be together... You are such a good person, and it feels good being around you. I hope we can be together in the future when I'm closer to you... All my love.
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Post by balletomane » Thu Mar 08, 2007 10:03 pm

I hate my sister and the way she runs this household. I do not want to be bossed around by some pissy 17 year old. I hate watching my parents be bossed around too. :evil:

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Post by Quiet little Angel » Thu Mar 08, 2007 10:29 pm

i'm so sorry i lied to you... but i had to... you'd never have considered getting me a T if i didn't... please forgive me...
/May

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Post by Scatterbrain » Fri Mar 09, 2007 1:32 am

I feel so bad for you. I didnt know that you still love her. She was bad for you, but it she was the one who made you realize all that stuff... You dont know how much I wish I could make it all better for you and fix your life, but I cant do that. I'm not able, and I'm not at a point where I can take on your issues and really try to help you... Please take care of yourself. I love you!

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- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )

"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead

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Post by starboi_101 » Fri Mar 09, 2007 9:45 am

How dare you. My behaviour that weekend was more fucking masculine than I ever am or will be naturally because I was TRYING to fit in. I may "champion" myself as a queen now, but back then I tried my fcuking hardest to be as masculine as I could. They judged on looks, not personality. THAT is what annoyed me.
And as for the "other people didn't appear fully male or female" comment, were they judged to not be "genuine" based on that? That is my point. They were accepted at face value. They weren't suspected of not being trans. So why was I?
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Post by April » Sun Mar 11, 2007 11:08 am

If you're prepared to end our friendship over this, I guess I was never that important to you in the first place. And that hurts.
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