Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Mon Feb 26, 2007 11:06 am

i'm scared that my problem is real.
but equally scared that it's not bad enough to be 'real'.
and i don't even know how to make sense of this myself anymore

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Tue Feb 27, 2007 3:17 am

i'm scared i am a fake.

i'm scared that without my band director around to keep me in line.. that i'll fall back to where i was.

i'm scared of myself at times..

Silent_Tears · Post by **Silent_Tears** » Tue Feb 27, 2007 4:54 am

i'm terrified to write this, but more terrified to leave it in my head. i worry that i'm physically/emotionally abusing my son, and i have to tell my t. tomorrow. i'm so scared about the outcome. i'm so upset about what i've become. i'm so worried about my son and how he is developing. i want him to be more normal. i don't want him to have to deal with the shit i have had to. i don't want to be like my mom and dad. i'm worse than they are. i've picked up both their bad habits. i yell like my mom and hit like my dad. it's not good. it's so scary. i don't want to be this way, but i don't know how to stop it. i shouldn't have kids. i am not in control enough. he's past that "cute little kid" stage and has turned into a back-talking pest of a child (like all kids his age). i've never left any "marks" on him, but who knows the emotional scars that i'm leaving. i don't want him to hate me, i don't want him to hate himself. i don't want him to be scared of me. i don't want him to be scared to feel. i'm so terrified. i'm backing off from the emotion and dissociating. maybe i should write specifics down for my t. so i wouldn't have to tell her. but, then she would have written proof. i would not be able to backtrack and say she "misunderstood" me. i would be damned for sure. i guess better to be damned then to have my son damned. i'd rather be deemed a fuck up now and save him some agony. and who knows, i could be the same way with my daughter when she grows older. i have to stop this now. i have to stop it before it gets bad. i have to be brave. i have to tell my t.

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Wed Feb 28, 2007 3:06 am

that once sentence took me forever to type.. and i'm afraid to death of the reaction to that one little sentence.. that seriously took me almost 10 minutes to type and send..

Scatterbrain · Post by **Scatterbrain** » Thu Mar 01, 2007 2:41 am

Do you really believe I am just tired? Do you think I enjoy being isolated? Wake up. Its called depression... but it cant be that big of a deal, right. Nothing ever is to you...

~Megan

mithz · Post by **mithz** » Thu Mar 01, 2007 11:41 pm

I might need to break a promise I made some years ago.

Skyeler · Post by **Skyeler** » Fri Mar 02, 2007 4:57 am

I think we both know what it is, but we're both afraid to talk about it.

But just so you know, I think we can do it.

HiddenByLies · Post by **HiddenByLies** » Fri Mar 02, 2007 5:36 am

pm's welcomed

you made me promise to stop self injuring, and that's great. but you don't understand that it's not that easy. i want to stop, and i'm working on it. but just because you've not done it for 3 months, and only have done it a few times in total, does not mean that it is that easy for me too. you already beat me at everything, you don't have to rub this in my face too.

last_day · Post by **last_day** » Fri Mar 02, 2007 7:17 am

I really, really have to find my dad. Just to know his name.

I'm shy! I'm sure everyone knows it by know, but it's a secret I'm keeping from myself. And the most important part: it's ok. I just have to convince myself.

MusicalMorphine · Post by **MusicalMorphine** » Fri Mar 02, 2007 5:16 pm

I have so many cuts on my body it's starting to freak me out a little.

I'm going to try not to cut for 5 days.

Lynds · Post by **Lynds** » Fri Mar 02, 2007 9:14 pm

I'm worried that when our mortgage comes through I'll start acting like it's MY house not OURS...all because it'll just be my name not his on the deeds...That scares me. What if it pushes us apart?

pebbles202 · Post by **pebbles202** » Sat Mar 03, 2007 8:27 am

what if my parents never call me back? I can't give into them again, then it will just be harder next time I dissagree. I cry because its been 3 weeks since i've talked to anyone in my family- but I cant be the one to call them back, they can't have the satisfaction of them being right again. (even though they are often time irrational)
I just cant

*PM

piglet · Post by **piglet** » Sat Mar 03, 2007 8:52 pm

I made mine as postsecret postcards...I hope that's ok.

*pm's ok, but Im sure they aren't that interesting!*

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Sun Mar 04, 2007 10:54 am

wilson · Post by **wilson** » Sun Mar 04, 2007 2:29 pm

PM's Welcome.

i cant 'recover' because i dont want to. i dont want to lose you. it should of been me, not you. its my fault your dead. fuck

Lynds · Post by **Lynds** » Sun Mar 04, 2007 3:31 pm

When I was younger, I used to be scared to go to bed. Sometimes because of nightmares but mostly because I didn't want to be left alone when everyone else was asleep. Now I'm grown up I still get scared...more often than not.

black_23 · Post by **black_23** » Sun Mar 04, 2007 9:13 pm

I blame myself for the miscarriage at times I could imagine you grown up, but now shes gone and I miss her wish I could still see her sometimes.
I know its my fault your so down and I wish I could be there to support you more, but im scared of coming back, one wkend there and all I wanted to do was cut.
I feel invisible.

Quiet little Angel · Post by **Quiet little Angel** » Tue Mar 06, 2007 9:28 pm

please will someone go with me abroad... i feel betrayed and let down... i want to travel... please go with me... anyone?

Lynds · Post by **Lynds** » Sat Mar 10, 2007 9:45 pm

When one of my best friends told me he was getting back together with an ex...I felt jealous even though I'm in a long term relationship with someone I love. Now I feel a bit bitter and incredible guilty...and I can't tell anyone. BOLLOCKS!

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Sun Mar 11, 2007 12:57 am

Are you just going to be something else I'm going to have to get over?

'Cause I'll tell you right now, I'm not up to it.

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