Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Fri Feb 16, 2007 6:21 am

i feel like physically disappearing into thinnness...i am so tired and it's sooo far away. i am not coping.
but it's my own fault

handmade mute · Post by **handmade mute** » Fri Feb 16, 2007 6:58 am

You messed me up so well that every time I do something nice I try and find an ulterior motive.

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Fri Feb 16, 2007 5:39 pm

i hear things.
i'm scared i have schitzophrenia.
i dont want to tell anyone.

Kaleb · Post by **Kaleb** » Fri Feb 16, 2007 8:44 pm

she deserves better than me
i feel like dissapearing into nothing
or going to sleep and never waking up

Silent_Tears · Post by **Silent_Tears** » Sat Feb 17, 2007 1:02 am

i'm beginning to get worried about my behavior and what it means. either i'm attention seeking, or i really need help. i can't honestly say which it is! i want to keep hurting myself, sometimes i want to die. i want to go buy a gun. i want to blast the shit out of something. destroy something. make it blow to bits. i want to hear the boom of the gun, feel the power in my hand, and know that i have the method to end it all if i need to. i really don't want to tell my t, because she'll tell me i can't get it, and i tend to listen to her. but i don't know if i'll listen this time.

i have the money right now due to getting income taxes back. i told my h. i wanted a gun for protection, since he won't be here anymore after march 1.(he saw the history where i looked up handguns)

again, maybe i just want the attention. maybe i want someone to take away my options for me. maybe i'm wanting to go back into the hospital. maybe i don't know what i want. i feel like an idiot.

half/hearted · Post by **half/hearted** » Sat Feb 17, 2007 6:25 am

I walk on eggshells all day long because they're afraid of me, and I know it.

Scatterbrain · Post by **Scatterbrain** » Sat Feb 17, 2007 8:07 am

I'm not ok.

~Megan

wilson · Post by **wilson** » Sat Feb 17, 2007 11:44 am

i want to die coz im sick off all the shit i cop from everyone. and there is nothing you can do about these feelings. you cant talk me out of it this time.

zombiepeople · Post by **zombiepeople** » Sat Feb 17, 2007 7:01 pm

I feel like they don't even know I exist, but I pretend to be happy when I'm around them. They don't know, and I will not tell them.
I can't get a handle on my self-distructive behaviors, the ones people know about and the ones no one knows about.

marshmallowfluff · Post by **marshmallowfluff** » Sat Feb 17, 2007 7:25 pm

someone at work called me fat today. ill show you fucking fat.

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i put myself in danger purposely. if something happened, then i'd have a reason to whine.

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pms are okay.

mephistopheles · Post by **mephistopheles** » Sat Feb 17, 2007 7:30 pm

you manipulative bastard. never, never start a competition with me. because we always win. especially when it's self-destruction

smiles-of-pain · Post by **smiles-of-pain** » Sat Feb 17, 2007 8:44 pm

- I don't want to stop SIing.
- I don't love my mother.
- Sometimes I wish I could kill my grandma just to end it all.
- I am bi-sexual.
- I hate my friends.
- I used to wish I was fat.
- If I could change one thing in my life, it would be that I was never born.
- I used to starve myself just so I couldn't have a period.
- Even though I hide my scars, I secretly want someone to discover them.
- Sometimes I wish I had more trauma in my life.
- I want to be diagnosed with a mental disorder.

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Sun Feb 18, 2007 12:36 am

Honestly.. now I am scared because you're gone.. I don't know if I can do this.. please... stay with me... i know you're not beside me... but don't disappear on me.. please.. i beg of you...

Lynds · Post by **Lynds** » Sun Feb 18, 2007 11:55 am

I don't trust him any more...

I don't know how we can rebuild that trust...

I don't know how I feel about that...

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sun Feb 18, 2007 1:07 pm

i need to stop eating

handmade mute · Post by **handmade mute** » Sun Feb 18, 2007 1:13 pm

Right now, the one thing in all the world I want, and desperately need, is anyone to hug me and tell me it's going to be ok. I don't care if it's a lie. I just need to believe it.
[SI TRIG] I'm terrified that when my mum leaves tomorrow, and I can finally let it all out, I'm going to really, really hurt myself. I'm scared of tomorrow, because I don't think I can stop myself.

Aly · Post by **Aly** » Sun Feb 18, 2007 10:30 pm

I lief. It ws so it woruld hurt less.

LT · Post by LT » Sun Feb 18, 2007 11:58 pm

be staff, please be safe, i don't want you to go

crs13 · Post by **crs13** » Mon Feb 19, 2007 12:22 am

I want to die. Not cuz I'm SU, just cuz I'm so tired and apathetic I don't want to put in the effort of being alive. I want to go to sleep and not wake up until Wednesday. I want to feel something other than tired and empty.

black_23 · Post by **black_23** » Mon Feb 19, 2007 1:22 am

Im struggling more with su/depressive thoughts than si thoughts at the moment, that seems weird to me. Im scared to go for a new / promotion job in case its too mcuh and I fall back on old habits. I keep feeling detached almost disassociated for last few days, it hasn't been like tat fr a while and I think i missed it.
I miss people who left here. You were dearer to me that could have told you

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