Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

catylyx,ver.2 · Post by **catylyx,ver.2** » Fri Feb 09, 2007 5:36 pm

worthless.
in pain.
worried.
anxious.

and loved too. he does that.

caged bird · Post by **caged bird** » Sun Feb 11, 2007 2:31 am

Sometimes all i want is for one of them to notice how badly i'm suffering, how little i'm coping and to just give me a hug till it all gets better.

sometimes when they do i can't push them away fast enough becasue it scares me how much i need them

I'm frightened that it'll always be like this

Seeshellz · Post by **Seeshellz** » Sun Feb 11, 2007 12:48 pm

I'm terribly scared of developing an ED. I don't know if I am catastrophizing or not though, but I haven't been able to eat in over a week because of being so upset and such, just been having to force myself to eat something, and it ain't been much.

teacher2B · Post by **teacher2B** » Sun Feb 11, 2007 3:33 pm

PMs fine

I desperately want to relapse fully back into the ed. I don't care that I was miserable then. I'm miserable now. At least I was miserable and thin.

Oh...and I don't want to give up si. I know I should, but I don't at all. What's the point? It'll just come back and haunt me again.

5th section · Post by **5th section** » Sun Feb 11, 2007 4:36 pm

dunno if this is the right place for this, but I wanted to put it somewhere

Do you imagine that? I know otherwise
But I cannot say it to you
I did not stay where I awoke
But where I stayed I cannot tell you
I did not see the sun but I still saw land and people
But what I saw I cannot tell you
I was where I have been, where I am going, in a far kingdom
The night of the world
All we know there is our own divine, eternal oblivion
How will my consciousness fade?
I am reminded of longing for you
Which the new light of the day brought to me
All that is left to me is inwardly burning love
From the grey bliss of death it chases me
To show the light which still appears
Falsely bright and golden to you

(a quote, obviously. I'm not that poetic/over the top! but the person it's meant for would probably guess where it comes from, and why I chose it...)
(even allowing for the dreadful translation!)

fuyumi · Post by **fuyumi** » Mon Feb 12, 2007 9:30 pm

i'm afraid a diagnosis will change the way you act around me

*PM welcome*

mithz · Post by **mithz** » Mon Feb 12, 2007 10:54 pm

A bizarre fear I keep hidden from people:

I am scared to use telephones.

Aly · Post by **Aly** » Mon Feb 12, 2007 11:01 pm

I'm in the 'coping' part of bus. Here's my secret. *Whispers* I'm notcoping.Andquitelikeit.

handmade mute · Post by **handmade mute** » Tue Feb 13, 2007 9:27 am

I so desperately need someone to talk to, but I realise I don't know where to begin, or have anyone I can physically sit and talk to.

Masquerade · Post by **Masquerade** » Tue Feb 13, 2007 10:52 am

often i think about my mothers funeral........

but she is well, and alive......

mephistopheles · Post by **mephistopheles** » Tue Feb 13, 2007 11:13 am

I'm still scared to sleep in a bed.
They still remind me of coffins.
But now I just put up with it.
And don't sleep.

HakunaMatata · Post by **HakunaMatata** » Tue Feb 13, 2007 11:36 am

Ok, not posted here before. It's scarey. But need some place to get this out of my head, pm if you want.
I'm scared I won't live to see the end of the year. Cause I don't want to. As opposed to medical reasons. I wish I had a medical problem so I could have an excuse for dying. Cause I'm too scared to bring about my own death. I'm a coward. And I appreciate that is an awful thing to say. I just want out. I'm fed up of life, I want an escape route, si doesn't bring that anymore. And I'm home alone now, and it is so easy, no-one would know until they get back on Friday when it would be too late. I don't even have valid reasons for how I feel, I have alot going for me, but it's how I feel. And I can't fight my feelings.
The only person who has actually ever genuinely cared is one I am indifferent to, and therefore don't listen to and I am plunging headlong into a lifeof ruin.

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Tue Feb 13, 2007 11:51 am

sometimes getting better scares me more than staying sick. in fact, most of the time.
i feel secure in the familiar.
plus....i still half believe....that my ED tells me the truth. and that people with depression are probably...just realistic about the world.

mephistopheles · Post by **mephistopheles** » Wed Feb 14, 2007 7:56 pm

that wasn't all my pills. that wasn't even half. but it made a nice gesture, i thought.

half/hearted · Post by **half/hearted** » Wed Feb 14, 2007 9:06 pm

sometimes i post on bus just so that i can get more buses.
it hurts.
i wish i could stop eating

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Wed Feb 14, 2007 10:22 pm

I'm becoming a big fat blob just like my mother and I hate myself for it.

Thorny_Rose · Post by **Thorny_Rose** » Thu Feb 15, 2007 12:49 am

I am bi/gay/confused & no one knows exept 4 people (3 of them once being my girlfriends)
P.S. Guest, getting over your mum had to be hard & you should open up to someone, maybe someone that doent open up much either. My last ex used to act bad-ass, but she was a delicate flower really, i think everyone acts different to what is truly on the inside.

Aly · Post by **Aly** » Thu Feb 15, 2007 5:56 pm

Alice can't still be here because it hurts too much seeing the people she loves in so much pain.
Alice can't, won't and doesn't cope with loss. By being on here, Alice has to face it.
Is it selfish to want to curl up in a corner so there never comes a time when Alice is faced with loss again?
Alice would like to disappear.
More than that, Alice would like for them to live.

cariad · Post by **cariad** » Thu Feb 15, 2007 10:06 pm

I can't cope anymore. I don't want to go IP, but I don't want to not go either. Right now, I just want to lie on the carpet and inhale cat fluff untill nothing matters anymore.

I don't want to get better. But I do at the same time.

I have never felt so freaking crazy before.

Quiet little Angel · Post by **Quiet little Angel** » Thu Feb 15, 2007 11:09 pm

i always loved him... i never stopped... and i don't think i ever will... right now i just need him to be here with me... or atleast care... but i don't think he does... i don't think he ever did... i think he only ever liked my body... now i wonder what changed... when did he loose intrest?

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