Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

one out of none · Post by **one out of none** » Mon Dec 11, 2006 4:29 pm

It's been 2 and a half years since the drama, everyone thinks I'm fine. I fooled my doctors into thinking I was fine, just so I wouldn't have to go any more because of my parents. I'd get out and they'd be waiting, asking me how it went, and it wasn't getting better. I keep thinking that I was in bits for years before anyone found out, and it's happening again. The only reason I'm not cutting is because of them, but I want to so much. They think that I'm fine now, that I'm doing well in college and all, I'm making friends and not being too reclusive and stuff. But in reality the depressions not gone, the anxiety is still there, and just because I'm not cutting, doesn't mean that I don't think about it all the time. It's so hard and I can't tell anyone. I just wish my friends cared enough to ask.
I think about the people I met in hospital and hope they're still alive... I think about that all the time.

friarygirl · Post by **friarygirl** » Mon Dec 11, 2006 11:24 pm

I loved you Tim. You were my "bestest" cousin. I wish we'd kept in touch, and I can't tell you that now you're dead. I just hope you knew it too, like I always did.

Love you hon
Sarah

(*Haven*) · Post by **(*Haven*)** » Tue Dec 12, 2006 12:37 am

D ~ I'm sorry. Really, I am. I'm sorry I can't reach out to you like you want me to. Either way, I feel like I'm hurting you. Am I lying to you because I'm not telling you what's going on? Or am I making things better because I won't talk to you? I don't want to see you on Friday. And if I do see you, I want it to be the last time I see you. You mean the world to me and I want everything to be okay between us.

But you know how my mind works andyou know I won't want to leave you. I'm scared to leave you. I don't know what life is like without therapy.

Maybe it's time for me to find out.

Scatterbrain · Post by **Scatterbrain** » Tue Dec 12, 2006 2:41 am

Dammit, I love you!

LT · Post by LT » Tue Dec 12, 2006 9:17 pm

Your becoming a right self centered little cow of late, you should respect me more than you do.

Aly · Post by **Aly** » Tue Dec 12, 2006 10:09 pm

i haven't asked for your friendship. I know I'm being a bitch. Get the message already?

LT · Post by LT » Tue Dec 12, 2006 10:13 pm

Its time i gave up on it all.

LT · Post by LT » Tue Dec 12, 2006 10:52 pm

I love you

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Wed Dec 13, 2006 10:57 am

i'm sorry i'm always angry with you. sometimes you deserve it, mostly you don't.
i'm confused and i don't deserve you. i don't think i'm strong enough for this anymore. really.
but i can't hurt you. so i'll go on lying to you. until you hate me. either way, i guess i'll hurt you. and everyone who knows us both.
i warned you right from the start...i'm sorry i let you in though.
it's my fault.

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stop fucking bossing me around. what the hell do you think you are? don't patronise me. if there's one thing i hate, it's being patronised.

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please, i hope you're right about him. who knows why? probably cos i'm a selfish, self-centred little bitch.
how the hell am i on your hero list? what the hell do you see in me?

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i just want you to care about me and to love me. because i'm scared of being alone.

5th section · Post by **5th section** » Wed Dec 13, 2006 2:37 pm

J______:
I don't want to make things hard for you and I'm trying to control myself. But you're the love of my life...if i feel like this i can't just make it go away. I hope you didn't hear any of what I was saying last night cos if I upset you i'd never forgive myself. but it's true, all of it. The more I love you the more I hate myself. it's wierd and twisted, I know, that's why I want to keep it away from you. but I still want you desperately at the same time. I'm confused. the only thing I'm not confused about is that I love you.
All the rest of you:
don't take my side, there shouldnt be any 'sides' to it!. And I don't deserve it. she's a better person than I'll ever be.

rainbow_rally · Post by **rainbow_rally** » Wed Dec 13, 2006 7:00 pm

i wish i could tell you how i feel.

i wish i could let you know my love and care for you

im too shy. i fear rejection

thats why i dont tell you and let you know

it hurts me anyway coz i know i cant ever have you

i want to hold you close
i want to wipe away your tears
i want to hold your hand when you fear something
i want to help you through rough times

seeing you ill, makes me want to hold you close and tell you it will be ok but i cant.

i hate knowing your with her, ive never met her but shes probably stunning, unlike me. i hope she's good to you. i hope she treats you well. i would treat you like a king if you were mine. i would never hurt you or abandon you. i would protect you as much as i could. my feelings grow stronger every time i see you. i just want to be a close friend if not anything more.

rainbow_rally · Post by **rainbow_rally** » Wed Dec 13, 2006 7:03 pm

im holding on for you

Joshh · Post by **Joshh** » Wed Dec 13, 2006 8:15 pm

Sometimes when we was together, you made me forget to breathe.

sockr28 · Post by **sockr28** » Thu Dec 14, 2006 8:21 am

i didnt love you but i really liked you. i wold have liked to get to know you better. sorry that i didnt give you a chance. you could do so much better than her, i am better than her. arent i?? why did you settle. willi have to settle? i want somone to LOVE me! please! anyone! why did i let you go??? i hate myself for it!

beautifulgarbage · Post by **beautifulgarbage** » Thu Dec 14, 2006 3:20 pm

I wish I could kill all those barbie sluts.
Really. I wish I could.
Just because they make me feel so damn AWFUL about myself.

black_23 · Post by **black_23** » Sun Dec 17, 2006 9:58 pm

O ~ I am so proud of you for all you've achieved, four months ago you couldn't get to Sch and now your doing a performance there. I wish you knew how proud I was of you. And I am so sorry that I not there for you more.
H ~ Your so precious, I am so sorry that I miss seeing you grow up on a constant basis.
M&D ~ I love you but please dont stress me out about student loans, I panic & don't know how to deal, I will sort it. and one day I will move closer, when I can, I miss you. Sorry.
G ~ Thank-you for all your support, I hope I proved to you a bit more how Im changing and becoming better.

shadowavenger · Post by **shadowavenger** » Mon Dec 18, 2006 12:15 am

Mum: SHUT UP RIGHT NOW PLEASE.

Scatterbrain · Post by **Scatterbrain** » Mon Dec 18, 2006 1:31 am

Fuck you. Shut up. I'm just trying to get through the holidays w/o SIing. You dont realize how hard you are making it. Shut the fuck up!

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Tue Dec 19, 2006 2:28 pm

D:

If you accuse me of cheating on you with people at my work one more time I will scream. For fuck sakes i don't care what insecurities you have that make you think like that it hurts alright and i refuse to sit and take it anymore!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Dec 19, 2006 3:23 pm

I'm sorry

bus

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