Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Tue Nov 28, 2006 11:15 am

i feel like a failure

Peege · Post by **Peege** » Tue Nov 28, 2006 4:32 pm

i'm losing control
i have no idea who i am
no idea what to do
i'm scared of myself

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marshmallowfluff · Post by **marshmallowfluff** » Wed Nov 29, 2006 2:00 pm

i think im suicidal. but im not sure.
it's been so long since i felt like that, i dont remember what it feels like now.

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Thu Nov 30, 2006 2:44 am

Back when there was a Jeeves, I asked "what is wrong with me?"

I didn't get a useful answer.

Post by **Spidey** » Thu Nov 30, 2006 3:24 am

balletomane wrote:Back when there was a Jeeves, I asked "what is wrong with me?"

I didn't get a useful answer.

you know i did the same thing

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Thu Nov 30, 2006 6:09 am

ikissedher. andnowi'mterrified.

Post by **Spidey** » Thu Nov 30, 2006 7:02 am

Go ahead and comment, if you like.

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You know what, here's my secret.

I don't give a damn anymore. I just...don't. About nearly everything - the obvious (family, friends, TMN, finding things that will make my life meaningful and successful, etc) excepted.

The moment I stopped Giving A Damn about where I was going to be in 10 years, what I was going to do after tomorrow, and about relationships / popularity and the lack thereof, life improved. It got better. Much better. The less I weighed myself down with expectations, the better and happier I felt. Life isn't foreordained and I left a lot of it to chance. Some of it's been shitty, some of it's been great. But I don't regret letting go of all the expectations that I and other people put on myself.

I also noticed when I did that, a lot of the heretofore 'missing' puzzle peices fell into place. I've got a good set of friends, I'm partnered, I'm healthier than I was and I'm more willing to do the Hard Work and tackle the important issues that come up for me.

There is a lot of freedom in letting go. There is a lot of freedom in saying that you want to live by your own terms. But this doesn't mean that you have to take Everything Seriously, or believe that one thing or all things or all chances are going to have some sort of a climactic impact on your life and how things go. Things that seem really huge right now are probably going to be a raindrop in a bucket a day, weeks, months, or even years from now.

Another secret: Don't take yourself seriously. Give yourself enough rope to do as you please. Self-importance isn't the world's greatest attribute in the universe - while it's important to be serious and take things seriously - do it only when it needs to be, and deep down, you're going to know when to and when not to fuck that Serious Business things up. But give yourself a chance to find your natural equilibrium, and find humour in things, and in your life and your endeavours. This is not to say - again - to treat everything as if it's a game / not terribly serious - because there's gonna be them situations where you've gotta step up and be serious and do things the Serious Business way, but on the whole, don't take yourself seriously. Make the best you can out of it. No apologies, no regrets, no excuses, to quote Queer as Folk.

We all do what we have to do to survive. Cut yourself some slack.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Thu Nov 30, 2006 12:34 pm

i'm scared

Aly · Post by **Aly** » Fri Dec 01, 2006 10:47 pm

It's the only way I feel worthy of having friends...

Quiet little Angel · Post by **Quiet little Angel** » Sat Dec 02, 2006 12:50 am

i know i am sick... but i'll keep telling you i'm not when you say i am... i wont admit to it...

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sat Dec 02, 2006 2:44 pm

i don't know if i can think about planning for a future with you because i can't trust you not to turn around and rip my heart out again tomorrow

Blake 1 · Post by **Blake 1** » Sat Dec 02, 2006 9:15 pm

I'm afraid his parents hate me already and they haven't even met me.I would kill myself if I wasn't so scared of going to hell.Everytime I get into a relationship, I start to hate myself all over again.I'm never gonna be better.I'm never gonna amount to anything.I can feel my GAD getting a grip on me again.I want to die.

marshmallowfluff · Post by **marshmallowfluff** » Sat Dec 02, 2006 10:22 pm

want to tell someone whats going on in my head, and has been going on for a while, but im scared that if i tell someone, i'll be sent ip, because i cannot look after myself and i cannot control myself and im a danger to myself and everyone else around me

i miss you. i MISS you. i miss YOU. I saw you today. I MISS YOU. I never saw you when we were together, but i still miss you. wish i had someone to cuddle me and kiss my hair again

PMs are okay

rainbow_rally · Post by **rainbow_rally** » Sat Dec 02, 2006 11:03 pm

i like u i wish you could see that

i wish i could tell all three of you i do.

Katkitty · Post by **Katkitty** » Sun Dec 03, 2006 5:17 pm

Comments fine.

I'm scared that the meds will stop working. I'm scared that I'll have to take them for the rest of my life. I'm scared that even now the things are still in my head. I'm scared that I'll never be normal.

MusicalMorphine · Post by **MusicalMorphine** » Sun Dec 03, 2006 9:20 pm

I wish something would go right for you, not only for you to be happy but so I'm not constantly worrying when something goes wrong.

marshmallowfluff · Post by **marshmallowfluff** » Sun Dec 03, 2006 11:31 pm

i dont want you to move to london. you just left my house, and you didnt even say goodbye.

oneWayOneLifeOneLove · Post by **oneWayOneLifeOneLove** » Mon Dec 04, 2006 2:55 am

comments are fine

*I Really dnt like myself at All
*I feel like i annoy ppl all the time
* I think a lot of the time that my parents dnt like me
*and i think theres somthing really different about me that i cnt see that everyone else can that make them hate me

poet with probs · Post by **poet with probs** » Mon Dec 04, 2006 4:37 am

i am afroid that the only reson i am inlove with my bf is becase he is girly,
i want to cutt so that i dont have to darectly break up with my bf but i dont want to hutrt him i love him to much

wilson · Post by **wilson** » Mon Dec 04, 2006 5:37 am

its my fault my best friend committed suicide

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