How you feel & what you're going to DO about it.

the edge of the world · Post by **the edge of the world** » Sat Nov 04, 2006 4:26 am

angry. that my mom was basically yelling (she has a loud voice) in the bookstore that I wasn't prepared for the SAT Lit tomorrow and was just starting to study tonight, though Lit is an easy test and it won't eat me and none of the science colleges really care about it much and grrr. and that she doesn't believe in me.

win. I'm going to kill the SAT. I'm going to crush it into little tiny bitty bones and put them in hydrochloric acid and watch them distinetrate as they writhe.... or just win.

that means study. that means go. that means

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(edit to add details)

Post by **swirlish** » Sat Nov 04, 2006 8:50 pm

I feel tired. And lonely. And sad. And nostalgic. And worried. And proud.

I am going to either call a friend or look through my picture folder, which will help. I am also going to e-mail another friend. I'm going to remember that my feelings get stronger when I'm tired, so it's logic that I would feel this way. And I'm going to tell myself how good I've been for cleaning today. I'm not going to clean anymore today, instead after I've done the above, I'm going to curl up with ER.

5th section · Post by **5th section** » Sun Nov 05, 2006 9:45 pm

Stressed. Feeling like the situation I'm stressed about was my fault in the first place.
(to be specific - the band I direct is playing a Remembrance service in exactly a week. We haven't got enough players and people are cancelling on us. it sounds daft but situations like this get me really panicky, worse than a lot of more serious things, and it was in a situation like this 5 years ago that I SI'd for the first time).

Right.
I've already emailed one person about it...I'll remember to follow it up
ask people tomorrow. make a load of posters and stick them up, send things round email lists, all the usual sort of thing. Make the band committee help me -they should be anyway, this SHOUDLN'T be my responsibility, why am i making it?
that's the practical stuff. That starts tomorrow. do something tonight that'll keep my mind away from it, like carry on with the stuff I was writing. Listen to Sinfonia Antarctica again - I'd forgotten how good it was.

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Sat Dec 02, 2006 2:13 pm

Lost & worthless here on BUS.

I'm getting back into posting. Starting with other's threads & stuff. I'm going to need help with my own threads. & I'm going to ask for help when I get to it.

sockr28 · Post by **sockr28** » Fri Dec 08, 2006 4:54 am

depressed and kind of angry. really wnat to cut, probably the alcohol. not a good thing. need to stop!

pretty · Post by **pretty** » Sun Dec 10, 2006 9:24 pm

Exhausted and drained.

Shower, go to bed and read for a bit. That way I get to relax and hopefully sleep.

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Thu Dec 28, 2006 3:06 am

totally futile.

wait.

wilson · Post by **wilson** » Thu Dec 28, 2006 5:40 am

like telling everyone what i really feel and see how they cope with it.

bite my tounge and distract myself

syn · Post by **syn** » Thu Dec 28, 2006 6:14 am

Sorrow and mourning over a lost friend

I will continue to write about it and be sure to bring it up in therapy next week.

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Sat Jan 06, 2007 3:14 am

I feel really disgusting in my body right now. SI, my skin is bad, my hair has roots, my nailpolish needs to be taken off, just.. ick.

It's hot here, so that contributes to the feeling. I'm going to have a shower, wash my hair, NOT put any products in it this time, take off my nail polish, fix up my skin & SI, try to let it heal for a bit.. maybe buy some skin products like masks and such even just to make me feel better, and eventually when my skin clears I'm going to dye my hair again.

Seeshellz · Post by **Seeshellz** » Sun Jan 07, 2007 6:33 pm

tired, depressed and lonely

I tried to go to sleep but can't right now so will try later, listening to music helps, and BUS helps, journalling, also can try coloring if I lose my concentration, could try and call some friends, but am feeling like they would reject me, must be the depression....

Binayshee · Post by **Binayshee** » Mon Jan 08, 2007 1:04 pm

sad
tired
depressed
frustrated
angry

its funny i always feel bad when i write angry
i guess i don't feel like its okay to be angry...

what am i going to do. get off here and go back
to bed, maybe i'll feel better when i wake up.

Seeshellz · Post by **Seeshellz** » Mon Jan 08, 2007 6:03 pm

I feel anxious and nervous about my case manager coming over soon.

I'm going to talk to her about it, and about what happened the last time after she left and hopefully we can find a solution.

one out of none · Post by **one out of none** » Tue Jan 09, 2007 11:34 am

Worried, anxious, ill. Ill because I'm too anxious.

I'm going to go tidy my room. Eat something. Make a study plan. Put away the lap top so I won't get distracted, and study.

Seeshellz · Post by **Seeshellz** » Tue Jan 09, 2007 11:05 pm

Physically sick.

Try to rest, drink ginger ale and tea, eat a bit to have some strength, try to get better...

Seeshellz · Post by **Seeshellz** » Thu Jan 18, 2007 6:13 pm

I'm feeling urgy to cut or OD(just to hurt myself or numb myself) and thoughts of SU but I won't kill myself, but the thoughts are really bothering me...

I already called my therapist, I could call my case worker, I am coping the best I can on BUS using distractions(games), I'm going to try and read a new novel if I can concentrate, could exercise, could colour, do my Spanish if I can concentrate on that...mainly distract and self soothe somehow...

the edge of the world · Post by **the edge of the world** » Fri Jan 19, 2007 6:14 am

I'm feeling trapped. My T asked me to agree to a verbal contract that I would call her if I ever felt I was over the line of su thoughts... but I don't know where the line is, and I don't know that I can honestly agree to that. I'm going to email her about it when I finish my homework, because I feel more comfortable discussing that in writing.

the edge of the world · Post by **the edge of the world** » Fri Jan 19, 2007 8:50 am

^did that... feeling uneasy about what I wrote to my T, but I cannot change it and she is pretty relaxed, so I am going to let myself sleep on this and hope it's ok, since i will not have internet access much tomorrow.

Seeshellz · Post by **Seeshellz** » Sat Jan 20, 2007 10:38 pm

Feeling really happy for a change...

Gonna enjoy myself!!! So happy!!

Have the stereo on!! Watch a movie later, call some friends up!!

Seeshellz · Post by **Seeshellz** » Thu Feb 01, 2007 6:34 pm

I'm feeling slightly manic and don't feel like eating..and I've been up since before 5am and haven't eaten anything...and it's past lunchtime...

I'm going to force myself to eat something. And I'm going to take my meds. I don't know what to do about the mania, except not to make it go higher on purpose...

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