Struggling with Coping skills,before SI
Struggling with Coping skills,before SI
I have not done any SI for four days now and my therapist whats me to write down my feelings before it happen and after;plus what is bring me to that point. I have a rough doing that,cause at that time,SI just happens and it is hard to stop when SI starts. I am trying to make a coping book and a comfort book,but I need more help,if anyone has made these kinds of books,you are weclome to me anytime.I have a rough time sleeping at night and the weekends are also hard for me,and that is when SI happens or when I have negative feelings or emotions that i can deal with during the day time.If angelical dreamer,reads this,please write back or Pm,I have not heard from you in awhile and I wanted to make sure you are alright. Everyone on this Bus is helpful and caring people. I am just have a hard time using my coping skills before I SI and it can be hard.The thoughts are always in my head,and I know that I want to stop doing SI,but it is not easy,and I feel that I need more support right now,and I know that positing on the Bus I get alot of support from you all. I feel alone right now and I hate when I feel that way,or I start to feel bad about something,cause that is when the SI starts to happen.Just hanging in there for the day,
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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angelic212
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I am glad that you are doing ok,I am sorry to hear that you are struggling with your eating disorder,I am still struggling with my SI issues,and I started the comfort book ,but have not started with my coping book,I am using a two notebooks with each of them,I am here if you need to talk,just Pm me or write it on the bus,whatever you feel comfortable with. I just have not gotten in the mood to work on the comfort book yet. I know things are hard to deal with and if nothing is easy no matter what the issue is. It has been almost 4 days since I SI and each day,I wonder in the back of my mind,when will it happen again. and that scares me,but by being on the bus and meeting you,and other nice people,I know that there are people who care and understand. Remember to take it one day at a time,or minute by minute.OK. Hang in there and remember there is alot of people here that care and I am one of them. Just hanging in there today,weekends are not easy for me,so Pm anytime you need to. 
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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angelic212
- bus mechanic
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how are you doing tonight? i cant remember if i pmed you or not, im pretty sure i did,
i just wanted to let you know that im feeling way better than i did earlier tonight, i even cried a bit , i listened to music, i called my mom and expressed how i was feeling, i scheduled and a therapy session with my therapist for monday instead of tuesday, cause i really feel like i need it, righ tnow,
i hope that you manage to get some sleep or if you cant sleep , try working on positiive things, i will be awake most of the night watching movies, and working on positive things tonight , i feel a whole lot better,
i hope that you are haning in there, take care of yourselfand stay safe, i hope to hear from you, hope that you read this tonight,
take care and stay safe!!
i just wanted to let you know that im feeling way better than i did earlier tonight, i even cried a bit , i listened to music, i called my mom and expressed how i was feeling, i scheduled and a therapy session with my therapist for monday instead of tuesday, cause i really feel like i need it, righ tnow,
i hope that you manage to get some sleep or if you cant sleep , try working on positiive things, i will be awake most of the night watching movies, and working on positive things tonight , i feel a whole lot better,
i hope that you are haning in there, take care of yourselfand stay safe, i hope to hear from you, hope that you read this tonight,
take care and stay safe!!
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I got a letter from you and I tried to write you,but the mail did not go through,I do not know what happen. I glad that you are doing ok,I had a rough time last night cause I could not sleep,but I did not do any self-harm to myself which I am proud of myself. I have not worked on my coping book or comfort book lately and I know that i need to,do not know what else to add,you did PM me last night and told me you were going to send me something that deals with Recovery.I am going to PM you with my e-mail address. I am glad that you are doing ok,I just could not sleep last night. Just hanging in there.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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